Distractions are good at times

Derrick msn-ed me first thing in the morning to chat with me..and we are having a lively discussion on what we want to do in life and certain factors that we christians have to think about. 

God has been good to me :) Distractions, in this case, are perfectly good. 

Current Favourite

Before Derrick and Edward comes back to Singapore and pass mi my VS
moisturizer, I'm perfectly Happy using this..

Totally love the smell!

Family

Family are unique gifts from God..you can never really choose them.

Me: Mom can you cook beehoon for my friends this Saturday? We having some party. Or you can ask Auntie to cook.

Mom: Sure! (Calls out to my maid) Auntie! Cook beehoon for jinqi on Saturday. Go buy beehoon then claim from her.

Maid: Okay!

Mom: Since she paying, go and buy all the expensive meat and vegetable and cook. Don't use the house one.

Me: Wah lau! How come must buy all the expensive one huh!

Mom: Of course la! Cook for your friends what! You sure want it to be nice right, don't want to lose face what. Buy the expensive meat la.

Me: Siao ah you. I don't mind to lose face in front of my friends one. Don't anyhow buy Auntie.

Mom: No go buy all the nice nice ones and cook. (says in a softer voice) Because Saturday I got mahjong also, cook for my kah kees.

Me: Wah lau eh! Your own daughter you also want to tok!

Mom: Hahahhaha.

Explains why I'm like that.

Where it all starts

Every sin begins with a thought. 

It all starts in the mind. 

More control needed!! 

When Things Seem To Come Nicely Together

As I prayed for God to stir up passions within me and show me where He wants me to go, it seems that things are just falling nicely into place to pave the way on where I should head to..but before I rush into anything, I really want to make sure that this vision is from God, and I want to walk each step with Him by my side.

Lord, without your assurance and your confirmation, I will not walk a single step. Let it be 100% You, and 100% me :) 

I am really quite excited to see where this can lead me to. 

On a side note, lets meet up soon Y-Budd. 

Majesty

even the rocks cry out
even the heavens shout
at the sound of his holy name

so let every voice sing out
let every knee bow down
he's worthy of all our praise

lord, let's do this day together.
help mi to come back to You.
help mi not to dwell on things of the past
but help mi to look forward to a glorious future with You

once again I remember:
I. AM. VICTORIOUS.

Amazing Grace

am on the way home after LAN-ing with wenjun, gerald, matthew, hendra and zewl pink..it's the 2nd L4D game that I've played which I found fun..I really think it's the company whom I play with..these brothers are fun to be with, comfy to talk with and hilarious to be around :)

had a short chat with mr lee before he got off at queenstown..when I think back to the conversations we had 4 years ago and the conversations we are having now, I can only praise god for his amazing grace and his never failing faithfulness..and so, I will continue praying and waiting for god to finish his magnificient work in all my friends :)

I will always be praying for all of you, that's my covenant with you!

Basking in god's presence while listening to chris tomlin on the bus..feeling contented and peaceful..

More self-control please

I just went to a website which I told myself never to go again because it brings back sad memories.

Definitely need more self control!

To help myself, I installed an add-on that bans me from going to that site! Determined to move on!

Jiayou princess prissy!

As Iron Sharpens Iron

As promised, here's the first of one of the hanging out's with some of the greatest people on earth..

Freedy came back to Singapore for holidays..and he commanded us to meet late one night for supper..so without any word of complain, dan, elise and me complied..and we finally got to meet up! 

Well, freedy was a bit late, so elise and I met dan first at chinatown..this guy, who has lived 22 years in singapore, did not hear of far east square at all and thought that it was some brand new and exciting place that he found, which he was certain that we all didn't know about..and both elise and i were like, far east square has been here since forever you know..I can't believe we trudged around at far east square on a tuesday night hunting for a cool chill out place..

So anyways, we finally decided to hang out at The Marquee, where we chilled out over mugs of cold Edinger and a plate of super spicy topshell.

I rather drink cold Edinger with great friends than have a 10-course meal at Golden Peony with my clients :) 

Meeting Freedy was really refreshing..hearing of this friend and his experience in Melbourne made me a bit jealous yet comforted at the same time..jealous because i really want to go overseas to study or work, comforted because I'm still in Singapore and this is where my family and friends are..but one day, I am going overseas and do something big to influence the world, just wait and see..

I'm glad we all brought back a little something from our short-lived gathering..Bali soon guys and girl!!

Anyways back to the topic, dan brought his DSL and was fiddling ard with it..btw you guys should seriously check out his altar ego where he posts his pictures..im quite surprised by his photo-taking skills of non-animate objects..but he just cant take a good shot of real life human beings zzzzzzzz

Pixies below!

They are my gifts from God :)

Updates on the Beloved

It's been long since I really had any updates on my life..I'm sure my faithful readers out there are finally rejoicing that I'm blogging some non-mysterious, non-emotional, non-trivia and non-nonsensical post haha..

I've been getting so many "How are you?" questions from friends all over the place..which seems preety rare in my case because according to some people (mr lee and gerald in particular), my friends have no need to ask me of anything because I will just regurgitate everything that has been happening in my life once I meet them.

So, I guess the amount of "How are you?" indicates that I've somewhat mellowed down, or maybe, I haven met some friends for a really long time. 

In any case, here's my answer: "I'm growing!"

Growing doesn't mean that I'm fine..it means that I've been through, or maybe I'm currently, going through shiteous situations, feeling really depressed and the like..or maybe I'm actually really happy and expectant or something like that..BUT, I'm Growing! means that no matter where I am right now, I am definitely closer to God, and my relationship with Him is going really well :) Now I'm sure that put a lot of your hearts at ease haha. 

In a nutshell, I've just closed one chapter in my life and it was kinda eventful..I gone through and felt a barrage of emotions that I've never really experienced before..in a way, it was good for my growing up and realising more about myself process..and definitely a journey of understanding deeper of God's grace, mercy, goodness, patience and LOVE for me..

And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 

One day, I pray that God, in all his wisdom and knowledge, will restore everything such that things of the future will be even more glorious than that of the past..but even if God should choose not to restore, I know that there is something greater planned for me. 

I'm currently looking for a new job..so all you who are reading this can just take like 1 minute to say a quick prayer for me..pray that God will lead me to a job that is in accordance with his will, and that I will really bring glory to God in my new job..

As for my caregroup, we are really growing together in the Lord :) It seems like we just draw closer to one another each time we meet, creating many fun memories that I'm sure we will still be talking about in Heaven next time..we flutter between sharing life and spiritual conversations with ease, something like God's been and has always been part of our lives, so intertwined that it becomes just part of our everyday lives..I look forward to cg every week now, and it's great to be serving hard alongside people whom you know will give their all in this race we are in..something that never fails to amaze me is how we can throw about 8-10 different people of different backgrounds, likes and personalities together, and we can gel together plainly just because of one common factor - God. 

Sheep and me have been getting closer with each time we meet too..shepherding is really a gift from God..how else would two people who are originally strangers get to know one another's life and enjoy such friendship? If it wasn't for shepherding, I wouldn't have come to know and be part of the lives of several wonderful people in this world..Thanks sheep for opening ur life to me, and I pray we will both walk strongly together with God as we continue serving him in Hope! 

As the saying goes, when one door closes, another door opens..as I direct my focus and efforts away from something I had once loved, I realise that I can now direct the same efforts and focus more to my ministry in church..somehow, it just seems that many doors of opportunities for me to sharpen my skills and be more involved in ministry is slowly opening up, and I'm really really excited to put my talents to good use! In the past few weeks, I've been feeling strongly about certain issues and I do pray that it is God who's stirring up my passion in these areas :) I shall continue praying more and see what God has in store for me..

Saying this, I remember talking to key over MSN one day and telling him that I don't really have a clear direction to where God wants me to go..and the weirdest part is that I don't have a sense of urgency at all..it's not that I don't want to know where God wants me to go,or that I feel comfortable..it's just that, I feel secure that I'm in God's plan, and I know that wherever God places me in, I will be an influencer for Him as long as I walk in step with the Holy Spirit..maybe God planned me to be a nomad, moving ard the whole world and making small differences as I go along..hahaha who knows right!

I got a lot more things to blog about..things such as what I learnt about in the bible recently, my recent revelations, the hanging outs with some of the greatest people on Earth, the conversations I've had with my dearest friends, the love that God's been lavishing on me and so many more..

However I need to go off for cg now..maybe I will blog about them tonight, or tml..and I will start posting more pictures so that those overseas can be updated about my life! I miss all you peeps that are out of Singapore so much! We must meet up when you guys and gurls are back! 

Till my next blog post, know that I've always been praying for all of you dear friends!

Still Open

I must watch this!

I have decided that I shall spend my life supporting Johnny Depp films because he's such a fantastic actor, and he uses his position as an actor to do the world good by visiting kids who are in the hospital and brightening up their day!



I'm still open for reservations! Anyone wana watch with me??

Oh You Bring

The answer to Everything :)



Oh now you find me in my weakness
And heal the wounds of my heartache
I worship you in spirit and truth

Two sides of the same coin

I love my eyes and thank god that he gave me such big eyes..

But the flipside is, when my eyes are swollen, I look like ET!!!

Haiz, with great beauty comes great responsibility hahaha..

The Commitment

In all I do, I honour You.

Hilarious

"Today, I was in the gas station and I saw this creepy lady staring at me and smiling. She just didn't stop. I even gave an awkward wave to let her know that I saw her staring at me. Finally I decided to confront the woman, turns out the overly happy woman was a cardboard cut out FML"

HAHAHAHAHA..omg these things crack me up..here's another one

"Today, I was involved in a car accident. I wasn't the driver of either car. I happened to be a passerby that was hit by a falling stop sign as a car hit it. FML"

Makes me happy while working on boring translation stuff.

Suitcases Packed With Thoughts

One after another, on the conveyor belt they come..I haven got time to pick one up and unpack it, before another comes along and steals my attention, and that's when the first one gets away..

I was just thinking how plausible it would be to resign from my current life and move to another one.

It's always the people who get left behind that suffer the brunt of the emotions.

This is such a PMSey post..getting a bit irked at myself.

Between love and hate

Talking to my parents is one of the most stressful thing ever..it
seriously trains mi in my patience and self control..

There's something in the way the Ang Family talks to one another that
can make our blood boil over in less than a second..

Maybe sometimes the offensive tone we use at home spills over from me
to my innocent friends..

Yet, I still love my family very very much..

I must try harder :)

Pensive

contemplating. pondering. musing. ruminating.

desires. longings. fondness.

right. wrong. yes. no.

weirdness.

sometimes it kinda sucks to be a girl who thinks like a guy.

Verse of the day

Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."

1 Peter 1:13-16

God didn't tell us that it was wrong to have evil desires, he told us not to conform to them.

My meditation verse for today :)

Seasons

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to worship

Decisions made; The difference between good and normal

Somethings and nothing have been weighing in my thoughts lately, and try as I might I just can't seem to get them out of my mind..its irritating me :S

It seems like my spirit was free-er in the past few months.

Made some decisions and this time, no more green brain mentality..I'm going to stick to them..no more leeway for anyone anymore..I need to think more for myself, because I realised God and my friends have been loving me more than I'm loving myself..

There is a difference between a good friend and just a friend..to be my good friend, that takes time, commitment, effort, reciprocation and most importantly, trust.

For the next year, I'm going to redirect my efforts into building a deeper relationship with God..too many relationships with men, that have taken away my time and love for God..and I'm going to snip most of them away..

I'm tired, some things are not worth my effort.

Just those little things

I dislike it tremendously when people spell my name as Jingqi, or Jing Qi, or Jing qi..

That 'G' in the middle is just so disturbing and it totally wrecks the wholesomeness of my name somehow.

My name is spelled as Jinqi..and I like it this way.

This post just made me sound very petty ahaha..but it just one of those little things that really irk me. I do not like that 'G'.

On another note, I find it amusing that I've had a slew of nicknames that stem out from Jinqi..so far, there have 6 forms of Jin and Qi..more to come I'm sure..

The Atheist's Creed by Steve Turner

The Atheist's Creed

We believe in Marx Freud and Darwin.
We believe everything is OK
as long as you don't hurt anyone,
to the best of your definition of hurt,
and to the best of your definition of knowledge.

We believe in sex before during
and after marriage.
We believe in the therapy of sin.
We believe that adultery is fun.
We believe that taboos are taboo.

We believe that everything's getting better
despite evidence to the contrary.
The evidence must be investigated and
you can prove anything with evidence.

We believe there's something in horoscopes,
UFO's and bent spoons;
Jesus was a good man
just like Buddha Mohammed and ourselves.
He was a good moral teacher
although we think some
of his morals were basically bad.

We believe that all religions are basically the same,
at least the ones that we read were.
They all believe in love and goodness.
They only differ on matters of
creation, sin, heaven hell God and salvation.

We believe that after death comes The Nothing
because when you ask the dead what happens
they say Nothing.
If death is not the end, if the dead have lied,
then it's compulsory heaven for all
excepting perhaps Hitler, Stalin and Genghis Khan.

We believe in Masters and Johnson.
What's selected is average.
What's average is normal.
What's normal is good.
We believe that man is essentially good.
It's only his behavior that lets him down.

We believe that each man must
find the truth that is right for him
and reality will adapt accordingly.
The universe will readjust. History will alter.

We believe that there is no absolute truth
except the truth that there is no absolute truth.
We believe in the rejection of creeds.
And the flowering of individual thought.

"Chance" - a post-script

If Chance be the Father of all flesh,
disaster is his rainbow in the sky,
and when you hear

State of Emergency!
Sniper Kills Ten!
Troops on Rampage!
Whites go Looting!
Bomb Blasts School!

It is but the sound of man worshiping his maker.

by
Steve Turner
British journalist

Something to ponder about as we witness morality slowly stripped away from the modern world.

Yes, Jesus loves me yet again

Did I ever mention how favoured I am? It always happens like this, and each time it happens, I'm again convinced that my Heavenly Father up there is doing all these things specially for me..

You see you see, yesterday I was shopping around again in my favourite store Dorothy Perkins, and everytime I'm inside, there is definitely something that I would lay my eyes on, and I would want to get it..anyways though its the GSS, there wasn't any sale at DP, except some 10% Mastercard sale which was of absolute no use to me since I was a member and I would get a 10% off on any purchases anyway..

So, I set my eyes on this denim skirt, dress, top and shorts which I really wanted to get..but, the thing is, I'm on a super tight budget..and getting those items would not only burst my budget for this month, but nxt month, and nxt nxt month and my budget for HK as well..so after a heart-wrenching 20 mins or so of deliberation, I told myself, Ok Jinqi, get a grip! You are BROKE..you got no money and you are supposed to learn self control..dun buy, wait for sale, although that may be damn long away, but u gotta control..and I walked out buying only some basic tees that were super cheap..

This morning, I was doing my daily routine of flipping the papers..and I very rarely flip Life Section because the news inside is getting outdated and boring..but since I had not much to do today, I decided to give it one more chance..and, DP sale stars TODAY!!! ommmyyyy!! Seriously, I'm sure God does these things specially for me..everytime I wana get something from DP, he will somehow get the owners to do a sale and I get it cheaper!!

God really loves me :)

When God is Amazing

Due to my technology NO-how..I can only upload the link to the video. So go ahead..

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Reasons why..

Johnny Depp rocks.

Captain Jack Sparrow Comes To Life For Some Special Kids

While in the UK promoting his newest flick, Public Enemies, Johnny gave a few very sick kids the thrill of a lifetime. He went to visit them at the Great Ormond Street Hospital dressed as his Pirates Of The Caribbean character Captain Jack Sparrow!!!

Johnny visited several wards, including the one his daughter was admitted to when she was treated for kidney failure in 2007, and graciously posed for pictures with all his young fans.

A source recalls: "Johnny was so friendly with all the children in the ward and they absolutely loved his pirate outfit. He spoke to lots of the youngsters and staff - and made their day by posing for pictures with them all."

He's done this kind of thing before. And for him to do it again, that just makes Depp first-rate class act in our book.

Bravo, Johnny!

Spoil Market

My friend ordered a bouquet of flowers for his girlfriend and had the bouquet sent over to her office as a surprise. 

So sweet right.

To all my other guy friends - please learn. 

Kanna cheated again!

Another time when I was cheated by Lee Wen Jun again! Adel, I'm sure this one will sound familiar to you.

Me: I want to eat yong tau foo leh, at Central. 

Wj: Yong tau foo? Then lets go Hong Lim and eat la. 

~walked to Hong Lim~

Me: So, where's the yong tau foo?

Wj: Dunno. 

Me: WAT?! Den you said here got yong tau foo?

Wj: Sure have one la, where got hawker centre dun have yong tau foo one?

~proceeded to find yong tau foo~

Me: Wenjun, there is no yong tau foo.

Wj: Sure have one. 

~wenjun went to ask the drinks stall lady, who shook her head~

Me: Lee Wen Jun!! You just tricked mi to come Hong Lim again for non-existent yong tau foo!

Wj: No la..how I know here got no yong tau foo? You want to eat prawn mee?

~so he went to buy prawn mee and the uncle delivered our food~

Me: Ok la, the prawn mee quite nice. Damn a lot of prawns la! How much did you buy?

Wj: 5 dollars lor.

Me: 5 DOLLARS!? No wonder so much la! How come you buy 5 dollars for me?!

Wj: Normal leh, 5 dollars is medium what. 

Me: Where got girls eat 5 dollars prawn mee one you tell me?!

Wj: Oh yeahhh..I forgot  you are a girl.

My idiotic friend. Cheat me go eat non existent prawn mee not enough, still suan me somemore!

Everything is about You

You are the first,
You go before,
You are the last,
Lord you're the encore.

Was listening to Chris Tomlin on the way back from meeting with the cg and came across these beautiful lyrics..

And its just so true..God is my everything..from the beginning till the end, even till the encore, everything is about Him..and I just want to surround and flood myself with the presence and awesomeness of God such that everything else is shadowed under the light of His glory..

Lord You know that my deepest desire is to give you my heart wholly, one whole piece that is not tainted nor chipped off in any way..but to truly dedicate my heart wholeheartedly to God demands so much effort and determination that I know that the only way is to really force myself to conscientiously flood myself with thoughts about how good God has been to me..

Sometimes Lord, I fail, and sometimes I fail preety badly..but I will pick myself up and try again and again to cut off all those emotional baggage and unimportant attachments to people or things that will steal bits and pieces of my heart away from You..and I will try until the day I meet you and I can say that my heart belongs to you wholly..

Lord, you said in your word "Never will I leave, never will I forsake you" and I want to tell you "Never will I leave you too, never will I forsake your church" Because Your love's been too great.

Mars and Venus

Was just having a discussion with a couple of male friends who declared that 女人是泛贱的..

To which I responded..I agree with you guys, but that's only because 男 人是不可靠的..

And I still think it's true hahaha.

Too short

it hasn't been that long, but I miss you already..