Enjoyment

Choices and crossroads. Which way?

This is what the LORD says: "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls."

- Jeremiah 6:16

Where Lord? Please show me Your will.

Lord, Help.

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change things I can, and wisdom to
know the difference.

How I Am

Ok let mi settle this so you guys will know once and for all.

All my good friends know this - if I dun like someone,I'll be very
obvious abt it and, I'll either do one of these things:

1) Shoot something hurtful outta my mouth
2) Ignore you

I know I'm sinful and trust me,I'm really trying to change. So most of
the time I'll ignore those I dun like so as to give me some time to
settle my heart before God and not to hurt them with my words. When
I've finished settling things with God already, I'll go back to
talking to them again.

Hence, if you think that I'm ignoring you or that I dun like you, it
might just be true. Either that, or it's cause I just dun give a damn
about you, which is kinda worse.

There are some issues that take longer to resolve, certain anger that
takes longer to subside, some trust that takes longer to rebuild, and
a few hurts that take longer to heal.

I'm growing, have you?

How badly do you want it?

oohh i really like this.

Brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want something badly enough. They are there to keep out the other people.

- Randy Pausch

Credits to lomoedits.tumblr.com

Minimal

Sorry for the lack of updates about my life and about what I've learnt with God recently. Been kinda busy at work and super tired every night to think of what I wanna say.

Here's a pic of me with a quite handsome Korean star named James Kim at my client's launch yesterday, just in case you guys missed me. Will blog soon!

Ruins

Please don't leave your life in the hands, of a rock and roll band.

You'll throw it all away.

Twisted Princesses

I've always liked things that were a bit dark, scary, twisted and morbid. But not gory, I think gory stuff is pushing the limit. But twisted and dark stuff, those get me kinda excited.

Hence, I find these warped portrays of princesses morbidly awesome. Especially loves Little Mermaid, and Sleeping Beauty is just totally wicked.

Nothing, Neutral

Not handsome, not handsome, NOT handsome at all!

I think Saibah Kumar is more handsome! wahahhaa.

蒲公英的约定

Favouritest Jay Chou song of all time.



与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情
还是错过的爱情

Soar with the wind

Eyes are unwillingly closing. Yawns, today's been quite a crazy day so far.

Mind boggling. Lemme go talk to God tonight, that, I can't wait.

Still, I miss talking to you online haha.

Fragments of Life

We live life in fragments..slowly piecing them together one minute at a time.

This group is my current fragment.

God has placed us fragmented beings together in a group, to create single similar yet unique fragments in each one of our journeys.

Right now, I like this piece of fragmented life being played before me :)

Thank you God for a wonderful cg, and a wonderful unit. Things have been becoming better within the unit, and I can only see greater, fun-ner, and better things to come.

Growing Beauty

The king is enthralled by your beauty; honour him, for he is your lord..

All glorious is the princess within her chamber; her gown is
interwoven with gold. In her embroidered garments she is led to the
king; her virgin companions follow her and are brought to you. They
are led in joy and gladness; they enter the palace of the king.

Psalm 45:11,13-15

I've grown a bit more beautiful today, because I'm bcoming more like
my Jesus.

Identity

life's been busy. seems like there are endless things to do, ppl to meet, dates to rmb.

sorry for the lack of updates.

for those who want to know how i am, im growing :D

things are really fine. dun worry!

What I Can Do For You

Finally caught a breather from work to come here and blog something. Loads of things have been happening, a lot of moulding, nurturing and growing, which, well, kinda sucks actually.

That aside, I've come to realise this:

There is no one in this world who can ever know my deepest secrets, hurts, fears and desires more than God and its humbling to come bit by bit to a realisation that I really can't do anything to heal myself.

And so, healing's done in the hands of the Saviour. I give up being angry at things that I have no control over. Besides, I really shouldn't be torturing myself anymore, I need to start loving myself more than this. Because though I've hoped and prayed, you never did care at all.

At the end of the day, I can really say to God and to everyone out there:

I have tried and done my best :)

Anyways I was youtube-ing one day and came across this guy who said something that made me ponder for a while. He said, "People tell me to be real. But that's just utter bull. Real is for Really Mediocre. If you want to do something in your life, you gotta get out there and do it. Be crazy."

And I want to do crazy things in my life!

I want to travel the world and blog about my adventures so that everyone can share the exciting things I've seen.

I want to give all my money to the poor, get out of Singapore and live a Gypsy lifestyle.

I want to go to places like Paris, Milan, San Fran, New York so that I can say I've been there and done that.

I want to go to England, Scotland, Greenland, Iceland and Switzerland so that I can soak in the flabbergastering scenery that portrays the creativity and awesomeness of my God.

I want to go to safari in Africa so that I can see the animals doing their everyday thing and I'm like the one who has invaded their homes. Speaking of that, I want to go to the ocean and spend my entire life out there with the whales and dolphins and sea turtles!

I want, I want, I want! I want so many things. But there are two things that I really really want, and its something that has been burning up deep inside of me. And it seems that God has been leading me to many opportunities and people who can give me valuable insight and information for what I want.

I want to build a strong community of women in the church. Women who know their identity as Princesses of the Everlasting King. Women who know their rights and what they rightfully deserve. A community where women can openly share about their struggles to other women who have gone through similar situations, and where we all help one another to become stronger and stronger and STRONGER women of Christ :D

I want to see women equipped with the knowledge and skill to know that they can handle their emotions, instead of having dangerous mood swings. I want women to know its common to struggle with issues around lust, and you are not alone! Don't hide and bury it thinking that you are weird, it will only fester and be worse than before! I want women to understand how to properly harness and use their nurturing side, and not attach themselves to anyone who calls for it. I want to expose the lies of the devil and tell you how beautiful you really are in the eyes of God. And I want women to know they are beautiful, from the inside out.

And then, I want to see these beautiful, strong and confident women go out to the world and reach other women out there who are struggling to live their lives without God. Bring them back to the one and only Saviour, their one and only Real Lover.

Enough of cutting oneself, endless sex partners and destructive eating behaviours. We are worth more than that.

I also want to help Angie build a fantastic drama ministry in our church. So much and so good such that we equip people with skills and opportunities to develop fully their creative potential. And this ministry must be founded deeply with the notion that this ministry exists to serve only God. And things of God will never lose to things of the world. Wouldn't a strong, self supporting drama ministry be wonderful? We will never run our of scripts or actors. We have people who know how to do lights, how to create props, how to market our dramas etc etc.

And when I go for missions trip to equip other hope churches in future, I want to be able to confidently say that I am going to hold a drama workshop :)

Our God is a creative God! The Gospel does not have to be regurgitated out in the same way everytime! We can use other mediums, other avenues to tell people about Jesus. And drama is a fantastic way to do that, because people in general love watching shows. And since we have the gift, why not use it?

Hahaha I'm dreaming in office right now. And I pray, one day, I will see this dreams become reality.

Break's over. Back to work.

Facades

I stayed true to God, you, myself and everyone else till the very end. Did you?

Stop maligning me and inventing fables.

Bonds That Bind

I just realised Derrick's leaving tomorrow to continue his wonderful life in New York. We haven even gone out that much until we are sick of one another, and yet he's leaving already.

Oh wait, I don't tink we will ever get sick of one another actually. Haha.

I loved our hangouts together, and wished that they could continue forever. Next time, lets all transport ourselves down to America, and do that road trip together! Reading this Qianjin, Hanyang, Raph, Harry and Xiang? Life's too short to regret, so we should enjoy one another while we can on this side of Heaven :)

I wana go visit all my friends scattered around the world, and talk about the kingdom, the past, the present, the future and everything else under the sun.

Promises

Was supposed to go through past teachings but stumbled across the many stacks of cards that others have written to me through the years.

I stumbled across words, and I wondered whether they were lies. And I hoped that the writer meant every single word at the point in time when he/she wrote my card.

I stumbled across promises, and wondered if I should still keep the end of my promise when the other party has seemed to disappear or forgotten their end.

I stumbled across budding friendships, and I remembered how I've failed so badly at some of them.

I stumbled across affirmations and encouragements, and felt that I'm not worthy of the weight of some of those commendations.

I thought I lost a card, and searched frantically through my stack for it. Found it at last, but found that though I really longed to, I could no longer bring myself to fully trust those words anymore.

The more one cares, the deeper the hurt. I find solace in prayers, and faith.

Someone wrote to me, "I pray that the following year would be a fruitful year for you. And that you'll look back at all you've learnt next christmas, and smile."

No matter what happens, I'll smile.

Choice

Everyday at 10.22am.

I'll keep my end of the promise.

Stay safe :)