My Thursday

Hung out with sheep today for some tom yum and bonding time..we ended up at nexus doing something for the unit..hhahah secret until we show the unit!!


Sheep looks so cute when she's serious LOL.

Love Them

Hung out with the two guys for dinner than a game of L4D..ok actually didnt really have dinner with them cos I was having an open discussion with gerald while the both of them sat at the back and waited for me..but still..so anyways, gerald decided to snap pictures of us with my new iphone..



Never thought that playing L4D can be so exciting and fun!! Had so much fun shooting, shoving, pushing and killing Junyao cos he was a burden to the group hahahhaah..ok la, bao bao you also got help us la..just that when I kana caught by smoker you never come and save me lor!! wait for dewen to come out of the helicopter to save me hahaha..

I love these friends :)

Change

Time to change my skin. This has been with me for preety long.

Pointless Nostalgia

I really like the phrase pointless nostalgia..it just brings across the point so aptly..like, sometimes we tend to tink about the good old times and reminisce of what could have been, but what for? it's rather pointless really, because things have happened and there's no way we can ever go back and redo whatever we wanted to..and even if somehow we manage to do something about our situation, there's really no going back to what it originally was..

Ok, there's no double meaning behind whatever I just said..just a random thought that came into my mind as I was listening to Jamie Cullen cos one of his album's name is Pointless Nostalgia haha..

Well, I'm back from Bintan! It was whatever you can and might expect from a beach resort..the villa's really big and nice..fun to have a chill out with your friends over there..but seriously, please buy and bring your own food from singapore to bintan..the stuff over there is freaking expensive!! like one can, not even bottle mind you, one can of coke costs 6 Singapore Dollars!! 6!! what a rip off! they are taking serious advantage of the effects of the blazing sun on my heat senstive body by charging me that amount..and I was so desperate for a can of coke that I bought it..sighs..

Had my own time out during Saturday when I just went off by myself to tan by the poolside before heading down to the beach to hear the sound of the waves..I did not get a tan!! How upsetting!! I was really looking forward to the sun cos I wanted a tan, but I didn't get any :( How come the rest got tanned?!

So anyway back to the point, the beach was amazing, did I mention that? I am seriously a beach lover..actually to be more precise, I love to see the horizon, where the sky meets the sea and then you can see nothing else..I love to hear the sound of the waves as they hit the shore or the side of the boat..It doesnt have to be the beach specifically, it can be on a boat..just give me the horizon, the breeze, the waves, the taste of salt in the wind and all those elements added together somehow just brings me closer to God :)

And so I was sitting on the beach chair..staring off at the horizon and listening to the sound of the waves beating up against the short..and I just felt calm..and the presence of God was so tangible, like He was sitting right beside me on the other beach chair and sharing my silence as we marvel at the horizon together..And right there at the beach, I praised God for his awesome works, and for Jesus, and for the Holy Spirit, and for certain people in my life, and for everything that he has blessed me with..a little hard and personal to blog what God and me spoke about that day, so I will just leave this part hanging, and tell only those who are close to me :)

Without God in my life, I sure as hell dunno how I will be living. Haha.

Work Work

just got back from bintan and now I gotta do work..sighs......boss shld so give me time off after the course..

Before I Forget

Met pai ka adel for dinner at jp today with wenjun..snippets of a hilarious conversation..

Adel: Eh you come here for what? I thought you said too far?
WJ: Come here to see how your leg is la! Whether you can walk or not.
Adel: Oh, I thought I told you ok le what. I message all of you all that only injured tendon and not break the bone ma. You don't need to come what.
WJ (in his usual deadpan voice): Ok, can. Next time when you die already right, I will not come for your wake. Then when Nuohan ask me, eh how come you never go for Adel's wake, I will say, she die already ma! She's dead already so I go to her wake for what! Don't need to go la!

Hhahaha..adel is a kok la!

These Are Hilarious!

These are some of the older versions if you haven got enough of your laughter!

A Romantic Song

Love it.

Secrets of a woman's language

Omyyyyyyy I've used more than half of these words! This thing is quite accurate so guys, thank me cos I've just divulged the secret language of a female!! I'm helping you here!!

My favourite word is FINE. Now you guys know what I mean hahah.

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

1) Fine.
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2) Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. (Refer back to #1 for the meaning of fine.)

4) Go ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5) Loud sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6) That's Ok
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7) Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome', that will bring on a 'whatever')

8) Whatever
This is a woman's way of saying F**k you!

9) Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

Drowning In Silence

Meiko - The Saddest Song In The World



Lyrics for you
I wake up
And you're gone
The TV's still on
And I sit
And I watch
Another rerun
She is left all alone
Her lover's out to sea
And I can't help her feel that she is just like me

And I gave all I could but it wasn't good enough
And you said that you'd be here before I woke up
Now you're gone

I don't know why
My heart still beats
And I can't feel
Anything

Cuz I gave all I could but it wasn't good enough
And you said that you'd be here before I woke up
Now you're gone
Away
Now you're gone
Away

Why don't you take me with you
Come and take me
With you
Come and take me
With you
Come and take me
With you

Cuz I gave all I could but it wasn't good enough
And you said that you'd be here before I woke up
Now you're gone

Absolutely Sexy!

HEAR THIS!!!

How come saxophone players always look sexy?!

While you are at it, check out something else which is almost as cool.

Unimaginable

I should think that by now most people would have heard about Susan Boyle..found another one of her songs which she sang for a charity cd about 10 years back..you wun ever imagine its her if you just listened to her voice..



sexy and sweet :D

Face chui

having a really bad breakout on my face..really really need to sleep :(

god grant me a peaceful sleep please..thank you..

Old Friends

Hung out with jc friends on monday and this is what i found scrawled on kes' blog!!

~~prissy is still as lazy as eva n nids 2 slp earli.....seriousli.....n nids sumbodi 2 help her peel prawn skin everytimex.....muhahhaha.....
~~maymay is still as lame as eva, love her mutton soup 2 da core n beri easily gets alarmed n goes "ohz!" at every single tingz.....lol.....
~~shuxian is still as blur+funniz in her sorta waez....u tell mi hu ll insist on putting eveyting in her organizer....but den oly circle out da dates wivout indicating wat da dates r circled out 4 in da 1st plc!!!!????.....LOL.....

Kes, gossiping about us on your blog huh!!!! I sleep later nowadays ok! and the prawn skin is because I dunno how to peel ma! I'm going to gossip about you hmpf!

Kes is still as ai mei as ever and will look into her mirror every 5 minutes to check whether her make up is still in place..and she still laugh damn long and loud and will always hit me super hard when she laugh, I also dunno why..hahaha..

On a side note, a simple sms that went "So how did cg go tis wk?" came in this morning and reminded me of my friends who really cared..so thank you :D I am encouraged, next time if I need to be scolded again I shall find you hahahha..

Hard at work

It's one of the busiest fridays I've had in a long while..been busy busy since morning, didnt even go for lunch..but thank god for john mayer and his sexy voice to keep me company, whisking me off to an imaginary wonderland where I walk along the shoreline in the sunset at some whitewashed beach, feeling the waves kiss and caress my feet..the sound of the tide crashing along the shore somehow puts me at ease, no matter what and how much is going on in my mind..

Finally finished most of the work and I'm left with the last and most sucky job of the day..hopefully client doesnt come back at 5.30pm with some last minute work..

Thought I would take a short break and perk up my spirits with some X Japan and my beloved Hide doing his thing on the guitar..seriously, this guy is one of the meanest guitar players I've ever seen and heard! ok, maybe i haven been exposed to many guitarists..hmm, but who cares! u still cant deny Hideto Matsumoto is a legend when it comes to the electric guitar!

If I could have just one wish, I'll wish to turn back time and attend one of X Japan's concerts before Hide died..

Check out his short solo at 3:33..



Ok, back to work! TGIF ppl!!

Omyyyyyyyy

DAMN NICE!



His voice makes everything seem so romantic and nostalgic. Sighsssss..beautifully heartbreaking lyrics......

Bring me out to sea :)

I know this is a bit long

Ok I know this is like, damn long ago..but.....man, still gives me the goosebumps..haha he has such a sexy voice.

When Things Come Crashing Down

Its almost the end of Thursday and frankly speaking, Im not very looking forward to it..reason being that there's cg later, and I think that I am totally screwed for cg..

I'm not going to lie, I feel that I totally suck at leading worship..its one of the roles that I try to avoid as much as possible..give me like, chairing, games, holy communion, testimony or even sermon discussion but NOT worship leading..anything but that! I will even volunteer to buy food for the entire cg if I can somehow wiggle my way out of worship leading..so imagine my immense relief when I heard that eugene would be leading worship instead of me, though I had already prepared a few songs beforehand..

And as we all know, things never really turn out exactly the way you want them to sometimes..eugene has got to OT last min, and so worship leading falls back to ME..and as its too late to get jon, my guitarist, to change the songs (cos I think that would be quite anal and unfair), I am going to stick to eugene's songs, which I don't really know..

And if you have been in any of my caregroups before, or if you know me, I am a total advocate that one should come prepared in the roles that they are leading, and not come with my slidshod work that was done last min because of various reasons like work, school, family blah blah blah..those under me will know how much I stress that cg must improve week after week, if not I think its just a waste of time for the ppl who come for cg..

So now, I'm like super duper stressed..I haven got time to prepare my heart..and that's the most impt thing when given a role to facilitate and be a vessel for god's presence to the people..sighs, I must really really trust in God this time..when Im the weakest, den You are the strongest right Lord?

Sometimes I think my crafty Heavenly Father places such situations in order to remind me that I am nothing without Him..and it is Him, and only Him, who can make anything and everything happen..

So, help please Lord! help help help!

Break Time

I think some of the greatest adverts are soccer ads..just look at these! super exciting!!

Approved!

yay!! mom says ok to new phone!!

thinking of nokia e71..i know im slow but, i cant find any other smartphones that are nice and not touchscreen!! i dun wan a touchscreen phone..except maybe the iphone..but, i tink the iphone's too bulky and im not particularly excited to get an iphone either..

decisions decisions..dear, shld i get e71? its ur phone anyway!

Tempting

Super gian to get a new phone..like a smartphone so I can update my twitter from my phone and stuff..

ahhhh!! temptations everywhere when I need to save money..

Today's Bimbotic Moment

I think I have a bimbotic moment almost everyday with Mr Lee around..or maybe he just always manages to find some way to torment me..like for today..

Background stuff you need to know: I've never ever eaten the flesh around the mango seed before..all the mango stuff I've ate before are either blended or from the sides..you know when you cut the mango, you have to cut out the center part where the seed is, and then you suck the flesh off the seed..well, I've never done that before..

Mr Lee: what! you never eaten from the seed before?!
Me: no! who eats from the seed?
Mr Lee: the seed is the nicest part la! I must let you try..just take the seed, grip it firmly then bite down on the thickest part and pull from there. Shiok!
Me: really meh. Ok I try.

*takes seed*

Me: eh, very slippery leh. How to eat?
Mr Lee: grip it properly! dun press too hard..yeah like that..now bite down..
Me: cannot la! really very slippery. can use fork a not?
Mr Lee: wah lau eh!!! where got people eat mango seed use fork one? You eat durian got use fork a not?!
Me: oh, yeah hoh.

An Inspiring Message

means first of all, jinqi is not going to die

and secondly, jinqi's going to voice out to her leaders and make the problem known..

in whatever decision that her leader makes, jinqi's going to support by showing the rest of the CG and unit that its possible to be tired after work and yet be joyful and meaningful in serving God..

thanks dewen :)

Patience and a lot of waiting

From Pastor Perry Noble's blog:
Pain isn’t always a bad thing…the question isn’t whether or not we will experience it…but rather whether or not we will waste it!

From Key:
Never waste a crisis.

I'm still learning and waiting. More help here please Lord!!!!

Intoxication

Got back from house party at Marc's.

Vodka and cranberry juice is really nice. But I definitely cannot drink more than one glass in future, brings back memories.

Can't believe I'm still thinking about you when you didn't gave a shit about me from the very beginning.

Don't know whether to hate or love you. Just want you out of sight, and out of mind.

Good Friday

Though I've been a Christian for about 6 years, this is the first time I've ever felt that Good Friday is so significant..we used to have a lot of things on for Good Friday..hanging out with my friends, with the JC cg, with my boys, with my cg mates in Adults..but this time, I'm spending it at home with no one else but Jesus..

Imagine imagine, this is the day, where Jesus was flogged, insulted, punched, kicked, mocked, stripped, nailed, crucified and died for all of us..the one day in the whole year, that holds so much significance for those like us who dare to pronounce that we wear the tag of a Christ-follower on our sleeves..if there wasn't Jesus, there might still be us..but if there wasn't Jesus who was perfect who died for our sins, we would still be sinners and probably like, sacrificing animals to atone for our sins..

Thank God its Good Friday.

Thank you Jesus for coming down to earth, go through shiteous temptations and shiteous environments just to save us..us who probably isn't worth very much to be brutally honest..

Thank God for saving me, really.

I've come to realise, but not necessarily accept, the way I was made..my character, my personality and my pitfalls..and one of my serious weaknesses is my emotions..and God has been really really good to me as he patiently teaches me how to deal with this whole messed up package of emotions that he has blessed me with..knowing how useless I am in handling myself even though I know what I ought to do, I'm so grateful and thankful to God for giving me wonderful wonderful friends and people who have helped to keep me sane..

Like today. I met up with bao bao to go for jas' play..we arrived quite early so we just hung around, and I was grumbling about certain things and certain people who have been plaguing my life and messing up my emotions pretty badly..and bao bao said somethings that corrected my focus and perspective which helped me get back on the right track with God..and I was on the train with Shirley after the play, and though our conversation was really short, but I was really encouraged though we didn't manage to talk about any deep stuff..

Small little conversations through the week constantly remind me of how much God loves me..that He will send people who actually care to make sure that my emotions are in check, and that I don't stray off the right path..and because of this gracious act of love from my amazing Father, I also strive to be such a person who will add value and encourage other people through bringing them back to the Word of God..

Sometimes we place far too much emphasis on ourselves rather than God..I don't doubt that we all really do love God..ask anyone in church and I do believe to a certain degree they will tell you that yes, they love God..but, do we love ourselves more than we love God? I think that should be the question that we need to answer..

Sick Again

Been falling sick :(

Listening To

Another rocking song. Enjoy.

Vulgarity Indusive

OMG I SWEAR I AM GOING TO DIE FROM EXCITEMENT FROM WATCHING BLEACH!!

The One That Always Ignites Me

My favourite song of all time.



Somehow this song never fails to lift me up whenever I'm down.

From The Inside Out

A thousand times I fail
Still Your mercy remains
Should I stumble again
I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul
I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

You above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul
I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out

And this is my heart's cry

And The Earth Continues Spinning

Going-home Monday works wonders..It's something I'm starting to look forward to every week..

Just visited a blog which I told myself never to visit..sense my total lack of self control?!! But am glad with what I read..

And life goes on.

Random Snippets of Thoughts

Oh before I forget..I wanted to blog about a recent hangout with Dan and Elise..it's been so long since I've had such a refreshing talk about the church, spiritual life in general, leadership and many other God related stuff with anybody in particular..it seems that ever since I went over to adults, I've been having lesser and lesser of such mind-sharpening, eye-opening talks..and even if I do have any, it's usually with my hommies from Youth..

We REALLY need more spiritual input in Adults. Really.

Anyways, back to the topic..after such a lively discussion with the both of them, I felt that I had somewhat mellowed in my spiritual hunger and desire to reach out for God and like, make the most of my time in Adults..The desire of knowing God more, the deep urgency to make every life count, the excitement of looking at a fellow brother/sister and seeing the gem that sparkles in every one of them..all those things, I've not felt them since coming over..

Instead, I felt that I had been wasting my time with nonsensical stuff that totally blew my life off course..to give God and myself a little credit, I have to say that I really did learn quite a lot about myself, friends, biblical relationships and what it means to really serve God because He is God..I can really say right now, that the so-called prestige of leadership no longer calls out to me as much as it used to..I've seen members who burn with a desire to serve God wholeheartedly lead others much better than some leaders who I feel, just KJW all the time..and I can find no other incentive to submit myself under their leadership except for the sole reason that they are the appointed leaders and I will submit to them because God said so.

And so, as elise and I were pouring out our thoughts and feelings, dan was being his usual self and proposing all sorts of ideas, actions and gameplans short of him coming over personally to carry out his proposals..and it suddenly seems like we were back in the old times, back in the old dmm but right now, the thing that has changed is that..I kinda agree with Dan!! Omyy..never thought this day would come :D

But I don't mind shouting this word out right now: REVOLUTION!!

I am going back to the drawing board to work out some plans.

Hot Bod

Went to the gym during lunch for my personal training session..chui ah chui!! Started off with a bit of running, still not that bad..ran for 10 mins, no problem I thought..den Mr. Trainer thought it was fun to let me do some weights..triceps first he said..alright, I said..12 reps, still alright..another 12 reps, wah tired..another 12 reps, I am going to die..

Ok next, he said..train the shoulders..12 reps, are you sure I'm doing it the right way? feels weird..another 12 reps, ok I am going to die..

Ok next, he said..work out those abs..man I hate working abs!! 15 reps, die liao la..another 15 reps..I am seriously going to die..last 15 reps, I AM DYING!!

Damn tired :( Oh well, there's movie night later to look forward to..hmm, I wonder how did Zul's interview went..and I wonder whether sheep's back in Singapore..I miss my sheep..

Did I mention that I am feeling much better? It suddenly seems that the skies are blue, the birds are racing with the clouds and I am again wondering how the birds in the sky view me as they look down from their air current tunnels, and whether they are secretly laughing at me because they can fly while I can only walk.

My head's in the clouds once again. And it doesn't matter what happens, how it happens, how you are doing, how have you been doing, and whether you live or die. Because everything doesn't matter anymore.

Good riddance :D

Emptiness

It's amazing how I can stare blankly at this space, thinking of what to write and what to do later..when all that's going through my mind are things I cannot say.

The irony of the Internet. I thought its supposed to make you busier?

New One

Mr Lee is back from Bali, and tormenting me in the office again. This is his most recent attack:

Me: Eh, if I marry overseas hoh, will you all come to my wedding ah?
WJ: See where first la. If its in Yew Tee, I go la.

So mean!!