Pixies mood

I'm in the mood for pictures today..so am going to upload a whole lot, and let you guys have an update of what's happening in my life :)

Went swimming with Gerald and Pris today at Safra Mount Fabar after a yummy lunch at Red Star with mom..Pris left when I arrived, so at the end of the day, only Gerald and me were left swimming..talked about many stuff and I'm still struggling to stay true to some decisions, sighs..Pray for me Great Mole!

Oh yeah a little digression for all of my friends in youth, I have news! My caregroup is splitting up cos we are simply too big! Haha, and now Gerald's my new CL! Woots, this should be preety fun *evil smile* Muhahaha..Chilled out at Yakun after swimming for a little break..Gerald picked up my IC and commented, "Oh, you look like an Ah Beng." Hmpf!

I am sad! Why does everyone say the exact same thing when they see my IC photo?

Oh well, the Yakun place was nice tho..I was utterly comfortable..

I heart my Man U jersey with my name on it! Thank you :)

Went Bellini Grande with some peeps in the caregroup yesterday night..that place was really really fantastic! The band was good, and the way they did the whole show was really really entertaining..a real good place to chill out!

People who went.

See, they even had costumes!! How cute!!

Opened bottle so we could get a table.

Lobster Ding Yuan.

Yam Hart! Eh, that is his real name ok! Its' on his IC, how cool is that! Sounds like some WWE Superstar HAHA.

Eugene with his trademark red face again! His face just burns up after like, ONE GLASS! Never seen anyone who is able to accomplish this feat as fast as him before.

Dear loves me and I love her too! I'm happy that you are like, moving on with your life. Great job cute lian!

Oh yeah, it was Dear's bday last Wed, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Lulu and I went over to her house to surprise her and these were the pictures from that day..We had to like, hide in her room with a lited bday cake and waited till she came home, opened the door and shout Surprise!!! Man, Adel was so surprised that she literally gave a blood curdling scream and ran to no man's land! LOL..

Lulu and me were Bored and Hot :( No fan or air con in the room while we were waiting for her to come home.

Decided to wrestle Russell to take pictures with me.

And finally, she came home!!

The really surprised, touched and shocked Bday Gurl.

I like this pic..Keep thinking what in the world am I and Lulu looking at..

Dear, I don't think you will be forgetting this bday for a loooong time hahaah..

Up next, KTV at Liang Court with a few friends.

Nice cup!

And in KTV, when its not your turn to sing, we do what we do best. Camwhore! LOL..

My life rocks! :)

My carefree life

Someone's in a melachonic mood today.

I keep thinking and thinking and thinking about a lot of stuff.

Crap, and now I'm worrying for myself. How now brown cow?

Improving

Jinqi starts off lousy, but she keeps improving :)

Thanks key, and happy birthday my spiritual dad! HAHA

Rocks my Socks

I am a sucker for such quotes. God believes in me! Screw you insecurity, pride, failure, defeat and fear! I wonder how many times we tend to forget that the God who is able to balance the entire universal on the tip of his finger, tells us that he believes in us. 

How inward looking we really are. We must be outward looking! Look at the sun, the clouds, the rain, the flowers, the trees, the little birds hopping around on the streets, that lazy cat stretching out to take in the sunlight, the stars and every single thing that you have zero control over, and honestly, praise God. 

Come on people, life is worth more than your circumstances!

Take a chance and start living life to the fullest! Woots!

Oh yeah Xanthe, please remember to help me pre order that I Belong To Jesus shirt. I really love it :)

Dedication

This post is dedicated to one of my good friends who has helped me a lot in shaping my perspective of life:

MR LEE!!

Today he has once again enlightened me on how I should feel and react to a particular situation in my life, and it makes total sense! I feel so much more relieved now, and it somehow feels like I'm set free of a nagging thought that I have to do something about this situation. But, sometimes, the best way to help, is to simply let go. Let me try this tactic out for 2 months, den see how haha. 

Thank God for great friends like you :) God really loves me a lot lol. 

Lets brush teeth tonight! And come church more often please haha. 

Oh I Love This!

Its like telling me, "Hey babe, shit happens, but God is still here. So move on with your life, its not the end yet." 

Sometimes I think I do have some sort of SM warp-ness in me..I get encouraged when people tell me that I have no choice, so I just gotta do whatever that I gotta do..Just take it one step at a time..somehow, God will make things work out perfectly..Just keep walking :)

Surprises

Its early in the morning and there aren't many people online at this moment..however, xiao mao was online, all the way from Canada, and so, I decided to catch up with my old friend. 

And I remember the date - 28 February 2014. 

That is our pact Harry :) 

Thanks for the short chat, because I feel so much more motivated to face my work life with God now. Its true that at the end of the day, when we look back on our lives while on our deathbeds, what are the things that truly matter? Maybe I'll ask myself why was I so concerned with losing weight and all those stuff at this point in time..Maybe I'll ask myself why I have been indulging my needs though I know that whatever I am doing will only last for a really short time..Maybe I'll even ask myself why was I so concerned in finding someone to spend the rest of my life with. 

At my deathbed, can I say that I have really truly known God? When I reach Heaven, will I have at least a little confidence that God will look at me and say "Well done, my good and faithful servant"? 

Choosing to live a Christian life is hard work, but at the end of the day, its the only life worth living :)

P.S: For all who wants to know how xiao mao is, according to him, he's doing fine and though his course is pretty tough, he's having a great time because he enjoys what he studies..and he has also been learning loads of lessons about relating to God haha..

Anew

have been really sick thru the weekends and i still dun feel too good..didnt go to work today and i had a lot of time to spend at home..staying at home with nothing to do is absolutely boring and i am somewhat looking forward to go work tml..

however, leave a thinker alone with so much time on her hands just makes her think even more..spent some quality time with god today, and i kinda felt like maybe me and him needs to, no rather, i need to work on bridging my relationship with god harder..i am just not satisfied with my spiritual life cos i know that there is something more out there..

i want to know god more intimately.

saying it out loud really makes it kinda weird haha..boy, i sure do pray hard that the big guy up there hears my heartcry to want to know him..ok im going to sound all cliche here but its my blog and i hope you will be blessed after reading my rants :)

somehow, when you know that you really know god, even if just a little bit..the sensation of knowing that you are even that bit close to God is this indescribable, soul-satisfying, mystical joy that stems out from the heart and spreads to every single cell in your body..this everlasting spring that bubbles and overflows and the best part is, it never ends.

its so addictive, so intriguing, so everlasting that once you have tasted it, you just want more..and you cannot get enough of it..and the only way to get even more of it is to work on relating with God and somehow weaving your life into his plans..its like, he's the big tree and im the meandering vine..the tree doesnt owe the vine anything, but it lets the vine twirl around him, circle his big trusty trunk so that the vine is supported and hence able to get the necessities to survive..if that vine doesnt have that tree, man, the vine is screwed up..

and u know, sometimes when you sin, you get a little bit further away from god..and you know it because somehow, you can feel that the spring in your heart has somehow seem to die off a little..and i cannot do without that spring..i need it..man, if i need to wrap my life around something, i would much rather choose to wrap it around a trunk that wun just suddenly die on me..and God is the only constant in this changing world..whose other trunk is as sturdy as his?

i cannot find a beginning to share with you how much i have been blessed after coming to know jesus..i look back and am amazed at how much i have grown as a person..i dunno why god chose me, but i am so so favoured and blessed..my family,my school, my friends, my church, my job, my caregroup, my sheeps, my leaders, my life, has been the most fulfilling and perfect life that i have ever known..

i have experienced joy, laughter, hurts, sadness, anger, patience, grace, love, success, failure, rejection, acceptance etc etc, and im still here! im still flourishing and i still got my great big god holding my back..telling me every single day that he loves me..man, what more can a gurl ask for?

damn, how i yearn to share to you really just how absolutely perfect god is..and i want more of it..maintaining a relationship is hard work, and its the same with my wonderful Almighty :) i haven been really opening up my life to him, and i want to start soon..i wana live my life with him, that thought alone gives me the strength to face another day..jinqi needs a revamp in her life..

dear God, i cannot wait to know more of you :))

When it was fun laughter peace and joy

Taking a look at my youth JC days, when it was still Central F all under Key..somehow, it appears that our smiles were brighter and happier then :)

Wow Xiang, only me and you are left..how i miss the rest, like, really miss them. 

Settled

And so this morning, VPJ woke up early to talk to God.

I guess things are more or less settled and hence, life goes on again :) 

Life is full of ups and downs, and I guess, I wouldn't trade mine for anyone else's in the world. 

Once again, I must say this - Loving God really simplifies a lot of things. 

Changed

I coloured my hair after a long long while. But I doubt many can notice the change in colour haha.



The weekend's been tiring, tho me and adel only sat/lay down for the whole of Saturday lol. Had talks with many people, but I think, I haven had that talk with God yet.



I should do it soon.

The Simple Me

Am talking to Daniel and I realised how far I've fallen from the Jinqi that I used to be.

Since when did I start backtracking on my values and principles that I've set my heart to follow from the very beginning?

Since when did I started to question, why not?

Since when did I started to question whether we have to face the consequences of our actions, if our actions were done in an irrational state of mind?

Since when did I forget that when God is in the centre, everything just falls into place naturally?

Word of wisdom today -
Consequences are to help, never to punish.

Key reminded me that I know what the biblical principles are, deep within me, these principles still exist. I need to go back to the simple Jinqi, the one who only knows that she loves God, and thats all that matters.

Glimpse of my blessed work life

Honestly, I must thank God that I am working with one of my great friends haha.

Lemme show you a snippet of what goes on everyday.

Topic of the day: Cause of hair loss

Mr Lee: (to cut a long story short) Hair loss is also caused by DHT, a male hormone that is also responsible for prostate cancer. DHT is for guys to get in the mood, but if it is not released and a build up occurs, it might get inflamed and hence, prostate cancer. 

Me: Ohhhh, so what?

Mr Lee: So right, when you eat medicine to clear the DHT, you can prevent hair loss, BUT, the side effect is that you have lesser DHT, which can contribute to erectile dysfunction.

Me: Oh! (after a while) Eh, but ah, why is erectile dysfunction so pai seh for guys?

Mr Lee: Of course la! You think ah, for so long, guys are supposed to be able to do it. When one day you realise that you cannot do it, you will be in shock! Like, hello! There is a naked woman over there! Brother (Looks down at xxx) !! What are you doing?!

haha, i tink my work life is definitely much more fun than others. 

Thank you God again :)

No.1 Rule

Remember the No. 1 rule gurl

DUN DIE

Ripped

A New Leaf

by Kathleen Wheeler

He came to my desk with a quivering lip,

the lesson was done.

"Have you a new sheet for me, dear teacher?

I've spoiled this one."

I took his sheet, all soiled and blotted 

and gave him a new one all unspoiled.

And into his tired heart i cried,

"Do better now, my child."

I went to the throne with a trembling heart,

the day was done.

"Have you a new day for me, dear Master?

I've spoiled this one."

He took my day, all soiled and blotted

and gave me a new one all unspoiled.

And into my tired heart he cried,

"Do better now, my child."

Isn't today just somehow, so wonderful? How precious it is, to know that I have one more day alive in this world.

One more day to kiss my baby sister. One more day to work, one more day to talk cock with my friends on MSN. One more day to listen to Jamie Cullen and Jason Mraz, one more day to blog. One more day to sing, one more day to write. One more day to eat, and one more day to breathe.

Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it :)

Jesus said:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. 

Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

The world spins round and round, and life goes on whether I am alive or dead. When it finally comes down to the last minute, will I look at all my hands have done, and ask myself just why did I do all these things for? 

Is not life more important than my job, my hair, my appearance and my worries? 

I think VPJ just gotta learn not to worry so much, and just to trust that her Father's at the wheel, taking care of her life. 

Thank you Lord :)

Something to remind myself

Extracted from my favorite book in the bible: -

Ecc 9:7-10

Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for it is now that God favors what you do. Always be clothed in white, and always anoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with you wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun - all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. Whatever your hand finds to do, do it will all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom. 

Whatever we do, we should do it all for the glory of God. Lord, do remind me of this :)

RE: A request

Dear God,

I have been very dumb, very stubborn, and very naughty. Please help me find the way back to your perfect plan for me :) I want to live and take each step only after consulting you. Lord, where do u want me to go?

Yours Sincerely,

Your preety child :D

Why WHy WHY

Why!

Who ever thought up of this thing! its torturous! 

I really, really, REALLY dun like Demoralising Alerts :(

Mr Lee, why are you on leave today!!!

Its been so long since i last lan-ed. I really really wana go lanning again. Though its the same game, but the atmosphere's different..its been so long since i heard shouts of "WAH LAU EH", "AHHHH", "KILL HIM KILL HIM" and all other profanities that are not too good to be shared on such a public space..

I miss the tensions and the intensity of how 10 ppl have their eyes fixated at the screen in front of them, and killing all those fats in their fingers by clicking furiously on their mouses or keyboards..

God, I pray that I can find some people in adults who go lanning frequently so I can join in :)

Stupid Gurl

Jinqi is a stupid gurl, but fortunately, her God is a very wise and loving God.

So loving that He has put some very very special people in this stupid gurl's life to wake her up whenever she is tempted to fall into sin.

Thank you Daniel Cheah Kian Peng and Jasmine Loh Huey Voon :)

Key, what would I do without you, honestly? Who will be there to scold me and bring me back to reality?! Who else can I count on when I know that I can no longer help myself?

Miss Huey, you are my spiritual rubbish bin..no, rubbish DUMP hahaha..I cant believe I unloaded so much trash into you..Thank you for putting up with my sinful self and forcing me to do the right thing, even though you are stressed enough by your exams and other stuff! I love you much!

Thank you God :))) I am very much favoured by you. 

me

i am one insecure freak.

Levelling Up

i dun like blogs that are not frequently updated because i wouldnt receive any entertainment from them..and i realised,after tinking that thought, that i am one of those..

so, i am going to blog about Romans 7:18-20

I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

being a christian is so hard sometimes..because the christian part in me, is always in conflict with the human nature part of me..sometimes, some things make the human part of me so happy, so fulfilled, but these things make the christian part of me, so so upset..some things that make the christian part happy, makes the human part, irritated..

yet somehow i know, that only by feeding the christian part of me, will i be able to permanently satisfy the human part of me..

u know, living for god is like a levelling up thing..like when i play Dota, in order for me to level from Level 1 to Level 2, i only need to kill like 5 creeps? But if i want to level up from Level 24 to Level 25, i need to kill a hell lot of creeps, and a lot of other heroes as well..in the same way, it just gets more difficult as we climb up the spiritual ladder..

yet while i do not give up in trying to level from Level 24 to Level 25 because i know that when I am at Level 25, i will be much more powerful, my strength will be higher, i will be faster, and i will be much much more buffer than when i was at Level 24..

so i want to bring the same attitude in my spiritual level..its taking such a long time, ive killed so many creeps, and a few heroes, but ive not yet levelled up..just a little bit more and i will be reach a new level..there is something in my life that i have to overcome..

this area that ive failed so many times in, i need to overcome it if i want to reach the higher level..

please pray that i will do the right thing, and not the evil that i want to do..

busy busy

i am super tired.

dun tink i had enough sleep from the chalet yesterday. was just stoning away amdist all the happenings just now.

gonna have a super busy week coming up too, what with drama practices and the like.

i need a chill out one day.

Simplicity

One of my greatest strengths, while some may like to call it a weakness, is my determination to view life simply. 

I dun like complicated stuff, because they mess up my life. I wanna remain simple, like who i am rite now..crystal clear of my identity in god..

God's all that i need. Knowing this, is enough. 

Back!

Oh my god!! I love this familar template!! How did I ever thought of leaving my precious Blogspot?

Anyways back to what I was trying to post up on lousy wordpress, but it was too ancient to comprehend my commands, I was saying:

Its been raining cat and dogs these few days, and the office's super hot in the morning, and suddenly chilly in the evenings. However, someone in office is all stuffed and wrapped up to fight the coldness brought by the rain.

Guess who!!