Look Look!

HE IS DAMN GOOD!

Wynnie, your new JT. Younger version!

Recollections

it's been a preety long time since i had the liberty of enjoying one whole saturday afternoon by myself at home..the only reason why im staying at home today is because i have work to do, if not im preety sure that i would have found some excuse to go out or something..

but, enjoying my room once in a while, is kinda enjoyable :) and after finishing with this piece of work..im going to go kumbaya with god for a bit..an extended date i hope :)

on another note..dad's buying botak jones fish and chips home for my lunch! i feel so blessed with a great family, good parents, fantastic home, wonderful technology, and good friends..

thanks god, you've been so nice to me :)

Bimbotic moment of the day

And yes, another bimbotic moment in the princess' life

Me: eh wenjun, actually I've been wanting to ask this question for quite a while already, just that I keep forgetting

WJ: yeah?

Me: whats the difference between a Visa and Mastercard? how come some cards got visa, some got master one? they like ah?

WJ (looks at me skeptically): ehhhhh well, because they are different companies?

Me: REALLY?!

I thought it was a valid question though!

Listen!

Take a break..listen to this!



Are you shocked yet?

I never did realise..

I never did realise how the combination of pain and a sense of helplessness was able to add on a whole new dimension into my life..I've always been experiencing immense joy and happiness throughout my life, and I can say I've been quite blessed to not have to go through any major setbacks or endure any pain so deep that I couldn't recover in a few weeks and bounce back to my happy old self..

This is not an emotional post, as some of you might start to think..but this is something I would like to share on my little space..

I was talking to Jang the other day, and I was telling him that people who have suffered and undergone more tend to be people who will love more and serve God harder after God brings them through their down times..It's kinda like, the one who has been forgiven much, loves much..but the one who has been forgiven little, loves little..like the murderer who has been forgiven by his victim's close ones is more grateful than the student who was caught not doing his homework but was forgiven by his teacher..

The feeling of losing something so dear to my heart, so intertwined in my daily life, is so refreshingly painful..I never did realise that a human being was capable of enduring this depth of pain..and maybe, just maybe, God has allowed me to learn a little bit more about suffering, so that someday in future, I will be of some help to someone who is also suffering as I have..

Furthermore, to have tried so hard to restore something, to have prayed so hard and long for that something back and to finally gather up my courage and ask for it..but to have that request rejected so mercilessly and ruthlessly in a few words, has led me to experience helplessness that is so bewilderingly fresh..this new experience has pushed me to a deeper level of humbleness and dependency on God..its like I can always say, trust God and put your life into His hands..but the experience of what its like to have control ripped away from you, leaving you with no other choice but to depend on God, is quite a different thing..

I feel that I have experienced so much more of the downside of life, that when the upside of life comes back, I will be 100% more grateful that God has been and always will be by my side..and I have learnt so much about God, and about dependance on God, which I might not have gotten the chance to learn if such painful things hadn't happened..

Pruning means to cut away, and that means its painful - As Mr Prajitna so gladly told me on MSN one day, words of comfort and strength all the way from Melbourne..cutting away doesn't mean only the bad parts, but also the good parts so that something better can come..a thought that I have chewed upon in the past few months..

I feel that somehow, I have experienced life more wholly..and I have learnt that it is possible to still experience joy in the midst of my suffering..curiously, joy and pain is able to co-exist in a human's heart..I wonder if you guys know what I mean :)

Maybe one day, you will experience it too.

Differences

princess prissy says:
but I gotta admit

princess prissy says:
going for the wedding made me wana have a bf, just for that little moment

princess prissy says:
that irritating desire lol

derrick says:
haha yeah

derrick says:
thats what weddings does to girls

princess prissy says:
really meh!

princess prissy says:
so what does weddings does to guys?

derrick says:
it makes me fat

LOL..derrick is hilarious! Seriously Derrick See, I am going to ask you to be one of my bridesmaid when I get married!

The Wonders of Letters

Isn't it cool when you just put a few seemingly incoherent consonants and vowels together, throw in a little bit of symbols and dashes here and there..and TADA! you get something solid and cool from it!

The wonders of HTML :D Now you peeps can add your comments to my blog posts!!

Thank you JX!

My One Desire

I tot Pastor Simon Eng's sermon today was really refreshing :)

When you lose God, you have lost everything.

It's been a really difficult time of humbling and pruning for me..I can't really remember being so down, insecure and humbled before in my life..or maybe that's because my short term memory doesnt allow me to remember such stuff for a long time haha..

It's rather scary how the things I thought were true, turned out to be untrue..and things that I once thought myself to be good at, I now realise I might not be that good after all..people are all growing up, and there are so many paths that seem to lead to somewhere turned out leading to nowhere..even the very words I speak, or the very essence of how I was created have undergone so much scrutiny, so many beatings, so many questionings that I now do doubt whether I am really what I thought myself to be..

Things that seem right, end up wrong..and things that seem wrong, end up right..like the very words I am blogging right now, will undergo much scrutiny from everyone out there, and there will be many opinions of whether I am right, or wise, or wrong to say such stuff and whether I should even be writing out such words on my own blog..

Maybe if we all didn't tink so much, the world will be a much simpler and happier place.

Like at this instant, as I am blogging this, I feel absolutely, nothing..in fact, the dominant thought in my mind right now is that I want to sleep soon..but how many of you will start to feel something on my behalf?

I don't seek to impress anyone, neither do I seek to console anyone..much less counsel anyone right now..this time of pruning has opened my eyes to many many flaws of myself..and many many areas I can definitely improve in..

But one thing I am very much certain of as I go through this humbling period..the only one thing I desire so strongly with every cell in my body..is this:

I just want to be where God is. And no matter how painful, I still just want to be where God is.

That is my motivation.

I'm Loving It

I LOVE my iphone!!! Now I can watch FMA on the train!!!!!

OMG, im so excited!

On another note, I had a God-ordained moment with elise yesterday..it was great :)

New Song!

Went for youth service today..heard a new and rocking song! And I thought pnw was GREAT :)

Wake Up the World by Gateway Worship. Enjoy!

The Evil One

I am convinced that the computer and the Internet connection is the dark hole of Evil..it will suck you in if you stare at it for too long and brings out evil things that you dun want to..

DIE COMPUTER DIE!

my blog doesn't make sense most of the time..cos I dun make sense modtst of the time too..but after all,sense is subjective isn't it?

it's 11am on a Saturday n I just woke up without that noisy alarm that shrieks n shrills it's lungs out as if there were no tomorrows every weekday morning..am still nua-ing in bed,tinking of the day in front of me..it seemed so long ago where i'd jolt myself out of bed on Saturdays cos I might be late for some meeting or another..seems like so many things happened in the past 3 years of me moving over..how come I rmb myself being more excited about meeting those whom I meet every weekend compared to now?

the back of meridian n istana park brings back memorys where we fear nothing and no one..where the skies seemed to be always blue n the days always sunny..I think I've done more things out of my comfort zone over there then over here..n it seemed that I was happier doings things outta my comfort zone then, than doing things that I know how to now..

we always think back to the good old days..but sometimes I think that our memories can deceive us quite a bit..

ok, my date just got cancelled so my thoughts got lost haha..time to go back to thinking wat I have to do today..

Heartfelt

One day, I will get my mojo back.

I promise you.

The Wonder

My baby sister has taught me more things about wonder than anyone else in this world.

It was my dad's bday last Tuesday, and my brother and I had 'shared' a present for him, which was this bracelet which I bought from SK Jewellery..something that my dad would like..my sister made a present for my dad, but we all didn't know what it was because she had refused to let all of us take a peek at what she was making..

So at Jack's Place, my brother and me presented our present to Dad, and of course he was happy with the bracelet..my sister decided that it was time Daddy focused on her present, so she presented to him this super long piece of string that seemed to be made by connecting many short strings together, along with a handmade card..and the conversation went like this:

Dad: Wah thank you! But ah, what is this?
Sister: Your present la!
Dad: I know its my present. But what is it for? Jie Jie and Kor Kor gave me a bracelet, but your present is what? Necklace ah?
Sister (throwing her hands in the air with excitement): No!! It's a string!!

There was a stunned silence for a second, and then we all burst out in laughter.

Don't you see? The sense of wonder provided by the simplest things in life that has captivated us when we were merely a child, has grown in appetite as we become physically older. As a child, the idea of a string as a present is wonderful enough for us. But as we age, the idea of a string can no longer fulfill our desire for wonder..as we age, we need to know the purpose of that string before we can be filled with wonder, and even then, the knowledge of what that string is for may not even captivate us as much as the idea of that same string to a child..

Our capacity and appetite to wonder grows as we age..and that is why you see teenagers, young working adults and tai tais jumping from one thing to another..from that lollipop, to that desired canvas shoes that all your schoolmates are wearing, to that latest top from Zara that you just have to get, to that limited edition Chanel handbag, to that new series from BMW..where does it stop?

Maybe it doesnt have to be material items, maybe in terms of relationships..from that first crush in primary school, those puppy love days..to holding hands, to little hugs here and there, to the little kisses, to the deeper ones..where does it stop?

How many times did we obtain that which we thought would give us the ultimate satisfaction, only to realise that it has failed us completely?

From my opinion, we can't stop that natural growth of our desire to obtain wonder. God, is the only person big enough to fill our appetites for wonder. Nothing else is ever enough.

The Wrong Choice

If I could turn back time, equipped with the knowledge of the aftereffects of the decisions I had made, but also fully aware of the aftereffects of the decision I had not made,

I would have chosen you over you instead.

I would rather live with the aftereffects of the decision I did not make.

Champions!

I put this up on my facebook, on my plurk but I forgot to put it up on my blog!

Man Utd, Champions!! Our 3rd straight Premier League title and our 11th Premier League in 17 seasons..nxt year will be the 19th time, I'm sure :D



Rejoice! ECC up next..Im sure the lads will win that too! can't believe Mr Chee is over there watching the match..ARGH!

I find stuff like these Hilarious

John Mayer Is Creepy

It’s a miracle John Mayer gets any women at all. He’s a 6ft something douche who writes shitty music, a lumbering retard if you will. Not only that, but he’s also super creepy. Jessie James was on WFAN Sports Radio telling a story about how she met Mayer and why she thinks he’s a douche.

“He had someone send for me [from] across the room,” James related. “He had a bunch of girls with him and he said, ‘We should [all] go back to my apartment.’ ” She said Mayer left first to avoid the paparazzi, and when they got to Mayer’s apartment, “We were all hanging out and everyone started to gradually leave. It was just he and I at this point. I told him, ‘I need some taxi money, I’m gonna go home now.’ ” Mayer asked James for her number and she gave it to him before leaving. She recalled, “He texted me throughout the entire night while I was at the hotel room,” leaving messages like, “Let me tuck you in. I want to see you.”

Wow. Was he going to come over and kill her too? And then preserve her, dress her up and dance with her lifeless body under the moonlight every year on the day he murdered her? Because that’s what it sounded like he wanted to do.

Criss Angel Weird Stuff

The short version of this is Jeff “the midget-loving impresario behind Beacher’s Madhouse revue” Beacher accused Criss Angel of stealing his cat and now he’s suing to get it back. Beacher claims Criss has been leaving him voicemail messages such as “I took your cat. He lives with me now,” “The cat no longer likes you,” and “that cat and I have become close friends.”

Beacher’s lawyer, Robert Reynolds, wrote to Angel: “After both of Mr. Beacher’s parents passed away due to cancer [two years ago], his family’s cat (”Hamlet”) was bequeathed to him by will. At the time, Mr. Beacher was residing at the Hard Rock Hotel [in Las Vegas]. Accordingly, he allowed his friend Jennifer Madden to temporarily care for the cat until he moved out of the hotel.

Intense Gorgeous People

I'm seriously going gaga over Sutan (Raja) as I think that he's one of the most gorgeous persons I've ever seen..both as a man and as a woman, I think he's so good looking!

How come all the good looking people are never straight? :(

Visit his MYSPACE profile to find out more!

Here I shall post some fabulous pictures of him!




amazingly pretty!

so hot!!

Two of my favouritest people on ANTM..Sutan and Mr Jay!!! So handsome right!

Crash and burn

oh my, its been a long weekend. haha.

need time out!

Bitter,not always sweet

why so bitter, oh my soul? put your trust in God.

I must always rmb to die to my rights..jiayou gurl!

Back

It's up again! The next best thing apart from McFlurry on a hot sunny day in Singapore!

Check It Out!

I even made a cameo (apparently).

Retards: Redefined

I have no ties with them, really. hahah.

Going deeper

am pampering myself with a face mask on my favourite piece of furniture in my house - the bed..so am using my wonderful iphone to type this..it's bemusing that I've got more things to blog abt when I'm not at my com..

read a chapter off nehemiah while having my chill out session with god n I was rather intrigued by something..in chapter 7 verse 2, nehemiah put his brother hanani n commander-in-chief hananiah in charge of the security of jerusalem, because they were men of integrity n feared god more than the other men..

what does it really mean to fear god? how do we show that we fear god?would there be a change in our actions,our speech or our demeanor? what changes when we truly fear god? n most imptly, how can I fear god?

isn't it amusing how we men try to find fulfillment in almost everything n anything besides seeking it from the only true source n provider of contentment n fulfillment, the great n almighty himself?it's as though to prove we can live without god,and then failing miserably in the end..on the deathbed, what would be ur greatest regret?

A whirlpool of nothingness

It amuses me how we allow our dreams to grow smaller as we grow older. How we conform to what is the seemingly normal and turn up our noses against the younger generation, thinking to ourselves "yeah yeah dream all you want. wait till reality catches a hold on you. dreams are just that, dreams."

How I long to break out of this cycle which disguises itself so well that almost all of humankind have been deceived by it.

Went to nursery - Dreamt of being a fireman
Went to college - Dreamt of changing the world
Went out to work - Dreamt of having the dream job
Met someone and fell in love - Maybe this person is part of my dream
Married that someone and have kids - My dream can wait
Growing old and the kids have left - What was that dream I had in my youth?
On my dying bed - Oh yes I remember, I wanted to change the world.

Will I die if I stepped out of that cycle? I wana live, and not just survive.

We never learn

two years ago as a leader in youth, I was worrying about some stuff about the caregroup.

two years later right here in adults, I am still worrying about the same stuff about the caregroup.

this bittersweet feeling of worrying..how long since I've felt this way again.

For keeping me in check

The bible says:

Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.

In my case, I gotta say thanks to two sisters..ms ruiz chong and ms loh huey huey..thanks for all ur nagging and pushing hahaha..until now still pushing and nagging me, and making sure I dun fall back into where I was..even now, loving me though you know all my ugly secrets..

Eternally grateful, I am :)

Love you gurls so much.

having an iphone is like having my computer with me wherever I go.. isn't technology wonderful sometimes?

heard something just now which enlighten me n made me reflect on how I've been leading my life thus far:

in whatever you do, seek not to glorify god first. seek to glorify him only.

imagine how much more we could accomplish for god with that sole purpose in mind..

Have you ever

Have you ever done something you know that you shouldn't time and time again, and every single time you promise yourself that you will never do it anymore in future..but somehow, no matter how long, there is one fine day when you will fail..and the whole cycle starts again?

Have you ever been afraid or think about something you know that you have no basis to fear or think about..but that thought just keeps recurring in your mind that you actually start to feel real fear and you can't sleep..and every night you try to keep your mind occupied till the point where you feel so sleepy that you fall asleep the moment your head hits the pillow..so that you wun tink about that baseless scary stuff that instills nonsensical fear in you?

Someday, with God, I believe I will overcome. Jiayou Princess Prissy :)

The Anchor, The Start

Knowing God does not guarantee that all our problems will be solved. But without knowing God, we do not have even a beginning to start solving our problems.

Reminder

am on the way home now after meeting tamar for shepherding..llamma came along too and somehow,he reminded me that I've been in adults for about 3 years now..wow, 3 years is a long time..wat have I been doing?

while talking,I was reminded that I'm supposed to exercise self control,patience and grace this year..feels like I've been harshly tested in these few aspects ever since transferring to Sunday service..

rmb jinqi..self control,patience n grace..the pillar of faith cannot give up so easily :)

on another note,harry lam xiao mao called me from Toronto airport today!! gave me such a huge surprise! once again, I'm reminded of the good friends whom God has given to me..though miles apart,we r still friends who support n encourage one another..rmb 28 feb 2014 harry! we have a date then :)

Glory Glory Man Utd!!

We ROCK!

Too much loving

I really enjoy the walk from the station to my house late at night..the darkness tinged with the orange glow from the streetlamps, the leaves rustling in the night breeze and the moon above my head is a concoction that envelops me with the love of God..

Tonight Chris Tomlin accompanied me on my journey home..and I just wanted to raise my hands up right there on the street and sing with all my heart and soul as I sing praises for my wonderful Father..His unfailing love is too amazing, too complex and too overwhelming for my simple self to comprehend..i feel the need to shout out loud so that I can release all the love that's pent up inside of me :)

And everything, You hold in Your hand
Still you make time for me, I can't understand.

No, I can never understand my Lord :) I love you so much.

Dreaming of things to come

I love stringed instruments but I have totally no affinity with them, sad :(

Here's Sue Son from Britain's Got Talent..I think she's quite good, and she's looks rather preety..but not super gorgeous like some ppl say she is leh..anyways the point of this post is that Sue Son is 23 years old and she's got this huge talent, and she's doing something with her life!! I'm 23 and I dunno what I'm doing, yet..

Maybe I should really pick one passion, and dedicate all my resources into it now..rather than procrastinating and tu-ing..after all, dreams come to those who chase them, right?

Dilemma

Ok, I shall STOP THINKING.

Xiang stop goading me! I very pek cek now :S Never thought I'll feel this way again!

Makes Me Tingle

I LOVE the intro to this song! Love love love Chris Tomlin's songs! Super super ministering and nice :)

Gosh, I just got a thing for bassists hahah..teach me to play the bass chong yk!!

Sleep is good!

I think sleep is a very important event in our everyday lives.

Goodnight world, time to sleep :)