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Something about this picture warms my heart very much :)

Much more than whatever material gifts I have received so far. 

Man, what would I give to see this testimony being shared that day. Anyone got the video for me?

Ripped from Danny

Church does not make sense to the partially committed.

It calls for too much effort, without monetary incentive. You will be misunderstood by outsiders and under appreciated by your people. It takes up your weekends and consumes your life.

Church only make sense to the fully committed.

I fully agree.

Loved By God

I am thoroughly loved by God and I know it today! Lemme share with you guys what happened..

You see, I wanted to buy this top from Dorothy Perkins for my xmas drama because I didn't have a suitable top..so I went and tried it, checked out the price and got a shock cos it was 99 bucks!! 99 bucks for a tunic! So I decided that I should try to find a cheaper alternative before I committed 99 bucks into it.

So I took a pic of the dress and showed it to Angie, and lo and behold, Ray actually had a 20% discount off Dorothy Perkins stuff and gave it to me..plus, I had a $20 Dorothy Perkins gift voucher for my birthday from Pris, so if you do the calculations, in the end, I would have to spend about:

99 x 20% - 20 = S$69

And I thought, hmmm 69 bucks is still a bit ex..so I shall try finding something similar first..so off I went on a hunt, and I didn't manage to find anything remotely similar at all! And I thought, ah well, just part with the 69 bucks and get the top..so before drama today, I went to Dorothy Perkins with the thought of parting with money..

Walked in and went straight to the where the tunic was but when I got there, the whole line was missing! I panicked for a bit cos I thought they changed the season, but something told me to go to the From $49 rack and I went there..and TA-DA!

MY TUNIC WAS ON SALE!!!!

It costs only 49 bucks now, and I could still use my 20 bucks gift voucher!! In the end, I got the same tunic for 29 bucks ONLY!!..

The first thought that came into my mind when I saw it was "DAMN GURL, YOU ARE SO LOVED BY GOD!"

Man, until now, I still believe that I am superbly duperbly loved and favoured by God :) I am still the apple of His eye. Thank you Lord, for I felt your abundant love for me today! I will love and serve you forever.

I promise :D

Yours sincerly,
Your Little Miss Favoured

Days I Will Never Forget

Headed down to Singapore Sports School yesterday evening with Ruiz and Shuz for the Youth camp..Why did I go down, I really dunno. Was having dinner with ruizhen and she asked whether I would be heading down to the youth camp and I thought, why not?

The atmosphere of worship and display of youthful exuberance was a stark contrast against the more seemingly mature environment that I had been exposed to for the past almost two years, and one which I had almost, got used to..

Shirley was preaching when I stepped into that familiar hall, and I took the first chance during break time to go do a little catching up with my guys..There's 20 of them now, something that I remember we were aiming for when I was still leading them..I remember talking to some of them like two days before camp, and they were telling me how they are fasting and praying so hard for 20 sji peeps to be at camp because they only had 17/18 thus far..and when camp came, they had 20 :) God is faithful indeed. Guys, we need to meet up for supper soon. I am going to contact your gang leader soon hahah..

Shirley was talking about her vision for the youth when I was there..About how she sees a godly generation rising up and becoming successful in the future..Godly youths who will bring glory to god in their careers next time..It was a vision that I had heard many times, and I had believed in it, and I had asked God numerous times to bless me so that I can channel all my successes for His name.

And it suddenly struck me - I am the Future. 4 or 5 years back, when I was still in school, I too was one of those youths sitting on the floor, sitting through teachings after teachings, immersing myself into the Word and being inspired by visions drawn out by great leaders..Back then, I really really believed that I would be successful next time, and I hungrily told God that I will bring glory to His name in future..4 or 5 years later, I am now thrust into the working world..and now, it is my time to put whatever I've talked about into action. The future is now for me, and its time to do my part in bringing glory to his name..So dear God, continue blessing me, because I will be successful for you.

Youth camp never fails to inspire :)

On a more random note, I decided to post up some pixies of when me gerald and adel were hanging out at T3. To cut a long story short, we were duped into dressing up for an event and ended up overdressed..So decided to change our destination to hanging out at T3 instead..wasn't in the best of moods that day, and insisted that we took lots of spastic photos to keep stuff off my mind..just a snippet, the rest are in facebook haha..

I Am Free

This is the nth week that we have sung I Am Free consecutively in Sunday service lol..Elise and I are having the time of our life predicting which songs will be used in service these few weeks and laughing whenever we get it right.

Though I dun really think that its a easy to sing praise song, the lyrics really make quite a lot of sense:-

I am free to run
I am free to dance
I am free to live for you
I am free

Yes, I am free to live my life for God. No one can dictate my life, and no one can make me do things which I dun feel right in. Yes Lord, I am free in you :)

Christmas is coming and I am going Korea soon! Finally a time to get away from everything that has been happening and just relax.

Day by day, step by step

It's Friday!

Came to office early cos needed to do some urgent work for client. I like being in the office alone, where I can blast the music and allow my brain cells to come alive for my press release.

Had a mini talk with Yam Hart yesterday night and its intriguing to hear stories from the lives of people around me. I love stories, because that's what life is all about. Everyone has a story to tell, its whether we take the effort to listen to them :)

Everyday is a fresh beginning. Every morning when you wake up, two choices lay in front of you - to move forward, or to remain where you are. 

One thing I've learnt from life, is that the world doesn't care if you are hurting, or sad, or depressed, or happy, or excited or nervous..it doesn't give a damn, and it just moves on day by day, minute by minute, second by second..And us, powerless human beings are only left with two choices - to move forward with the world, taking in the little surprises along the way, or remain stuck at where we were yesterday, reminiscing about the past and how much we long for things that have long since left us. 

The start of the day brings two choices - which will you choose?

Being Me

I think I've been too not myself for the past few weeks. And this is not good! To go back being the usual happy me, I've decided to post up a picture of my everlasting temptation. Feast your eyes on my dream husband!! (See, I am so good to share him with you guys)

The Amazing Things

The PJ that dear bought for me. It fits and looks so preety! Haha, thanks dear! I love it!


It was a date we made long ago, but one which had never been successful until today. Even till the last min, last min work and tomorrow's presentations almost again stalled our meeting. But against all odds, thanks to God's grace, we finally fulfilled our promised meet up.

And so at Raffles City's Soup Spoon, ruizhen and me sat down for dinner and a little sharing of our lives. Among the uncountable people I've ever had the chance to come across in my short 22 years on Earth, I have never found a single person who reacts the same way as me when we are thrown in similar circumstances, until today.

It's cool when you go through simiar situations and learn similar lessons, but it's amazing when you find that a person who goes through similar situations reacts the same way as you and hence, knows exactly how you feel in that situation.

Sometimes I think God is really amazing. How He plans our life's route and how He intertwines it with some people that you will never thought you will meet.

Time is no friend when you are having fun, and before we knew it, it was time to head home. We left with this mutual understanding of not knowing whether this friendship was meant to be, but marvelling at how God threw us together. Maybe, God has some plan for us, who knows rite?

I remember a few years back, I was still lamenting the false notion that I had no friends and no one was there for me when I needed company the most. At that point, I presumed I had no one to turn to except for God, and He used that period to strengthen my relationship with Him. But now, God has blessed me with many many friends.

So I take it back. I have many friends who are striving to build biblical friendships with me and help me in my walk with God. And for friends who are not helping me with my walk with God, I wonder why am I holding on to them so tightly? Right now, it doesn't make that much sense at all.

Once again, I have to say that I am really Little Miss Favoured :) I dunno why God showers me with so many blessings when I am still so sinful and still disobeying Him at times. It really reminds me how God's love is so magnificent and so big that I am unable to comprehend how he can take all the nonsense that I throw at Him. I'm not going to complain though haha. Dear God, thank You for all You have given to me though I totally dun deserve them. I will love, serve and worship you forever :)

On a heavier note, I am afraid of one thing cos I dunno whether I am prepared to take the lashing that I believe will come from it. Am I prepared to take the misunderstandings and anger? Will you believe that I truly want the best for you? I highly doubt so. 

But I guess, God holds me in His hands rite? So, I am well taken care of.

Spiritual Food

I am starving for some spiritual food. May Hoong said that I should start fasting, which I admittedly thought was not very effective. However, I ripped this from Craig Groeschel at this place.

What Keeps My Passion Alive

I am as susceptible to spiritual droughts as the next pastor. Because I know my vulnerabilities, I work hard to keep my passion alive. 

Here are a few things I try to revisit:

• See God working in another part of the world. God is so much bigger than what we see week in and week out in our churches. 
• Visit an impoverished place at least once a year. Some moms choose what to feed their children. Some moms have to choose which children to feed. Putting yourself in a place that crushes your heart keeps the passion alive.
• Fasting. I don't know why fasting works, but it does.
• Develop friendships with non-Christians. Caring about people far from God helps keep me closer to God.
• Devoted time to prayer. If I don't spend time with my wife away from all the other pleasures, it is hard for us to stay close. My relationship with God is the same. If I don't spend time with Him, how can i know Him?
• Give extravagantly. Something about giving big breaks the grip of this world and connects me closer to God.
• Cry. For a number of years, I didn't cry. I'm not sure I could cry. By God's grace, I broke through it and can cry easily now.
• Visit a cemetery. Seeing today in light of eternity always changes me. 

I should start fasting. It's something mystical about fasting that works wonders but you just can't explain how and why it works. Like, we cant explain how and why wind forms or blows, but we know it exists. Crying works in the same way :) Being a crybaby, I can vouch for that. 

And, I really, really would want to go visit a cemetery soon. Anyone wants to go with me? Jasmine, Xiang, Gerald???

Sleep

Growing. Pains. Really. Hurt. 

I want to go home and sleep this whole process away, just like how a polar bear hibernates when the winter comes. And when I wake up, everything seems to have changed and the world seems bright and cheery again. 

Sleep, is a wonderful gift. I want more of it. 

I am such a puddle of wooze, saying one thing and doing the opposite later on. All because I am unwilling to give this up. 

But giving up, is the most logical and fastest way to recovery. I should stop being a stupid gurl. 

Covenant Part 1

Am talking to my brisbane covenant buddy and she was encouraging me in my daily walk with god and on serving in church, and i am really convicted to make a covenant with the opposite gender. Thanks Wynnie :D I love you and I miss you!

As I am a very lousy covenant keeper, I don't tend to make lots of covenants in fear that I cannot keep to them. But I am going to make this one:

To the guys:

I promise to build close friendships with a group of you and not make any exclusive.

Yup, thats my first stepping stone to becoming a biblical woman of God!

Help me!

Jinqi Trivia

I don't like being alone, because being alone makes me think of unpleasant stuff and the unpleasant stuff makes me feel down.

When I feel down, I would love to go to the beach and listen to the waves crashing on the shore. Or I would love to go down to the nearest cafe, armed with a book and a hot cup of coffee, and listen to the noises other people make while pretending to read my book. Or I would love to blast X Japan songs while lying on my bed and thinking about nothing at all.

I cannot stand being alone.

Uniquely Me

Its 5 more minutes to 6pm, and its the start of a long weekend..Thank God for the Malays, who have contributed to an additional off day for the whole of Singapore. 

Got caught in a sudden mel mood, and I was just thinking about life. 

With so many things happening around me, sometimes its not that easy to find a quiet spot where I can sit down and reflect on my life. Coupled with my innate nature to find all sorts of entertainment to quench my fun-loving soul, its sad to say that sometimes I do neglect my own need to simply, be still. 

Life is all about experiences ain't it? What made up my 22 years of life is a montage of experiences - a mixture of happiness, sadness, anger, guilt, disappointment, joy, excitement, eagerness, nervousness, brokenness, indescribable hurts and mountain top moments of love. Seemingly mutually exclusive fragments of our lives when thrown together, blended with a little sprinkle of love from God, serve up a dish of the most exquisite and unique taste. 

I never did quite agree that we should aim to forget the unhappy portions of our life and move on. Maybe the thought of forgetting some hurtful past brings comfort to some, but to me, the down parts of my history adds a more realistic dimension to my life. Whatever experiences that I have gone through shapes the way that I am and how I will be. 

If we just cling onto the happy portions of our life, how boring life will be then. 

Ok, Mr Lee is currently practicing his basketball skills in office and distracting my thoughts. So I shall log off and go crap with him.

I love this song

The pathway is broken

And the signs are unclear 

And I don't know the reason why You brought me here

But just because You love me the way that you do

I'm gonna walk through the valley

If You want me to

Cause I'm not who I was 

When I took my first step

And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet

So if all of these trails bring me closer to you

Then I will walk through the fire

If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen 

When you lead me through a world that's not my home

But You never said it would be easy

You only said I'd never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me

And I'm all by myself

And I can't hear You answer my cries for help

I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through

I'll go through the valley

If You want me to