my sis said

something really funny that my sister said while on the way to jack's place..

brother "buy one dozen roses"
mom "jinhui do u know how much is one dozen?"
sister "one thousand means a lot"

HAHA..the childlike-ness of a human being is so rarely seen in today's society..even towards god, we haf all tried to become sophisticated..but wat we all really need perhaps, is juz to retain our childlike faith in god, and trust him..

new crush

my new sexy crush of the year!

Name: Joseph Zheng Yuan Chang
Full Name: Joe Zheng Yuan Chang
Nickname: Xiao Zhong
Country: TaiwanOccupation: Model, Actor, host
Birthday: 1982.06.19
Horoscope: Gemini
Height: 188cm
Weight: 78kg
Blood Type: O
Fave Colours: Black White
Hobbies: Watching movies, playing online games, drawing, playing tennis

he has the sexist mouth alive i tell you..lol, but of course, no one beats my vanness :D:D

cny

hello..cny has been a really fattening time..its good that im gonna exercise with dear tml..haf to complete 20 laps at least..

i got sick with my hair, so i chopped it off..

now i look like this..with short hair..

xiang baby decorated this pair of shoes for me..isnt it juz so nice? thank you!!

my niece nana..

honestly, my brother is a moron..

met eelee on chu yi at ps..preety shepherd with preety sheep :D

my precious and me..on the way to visitation on chu yi..

anyways heres some food for thought..

when grass grows, they need water and nutrients to flourish..but even without water, the grass would still be able to grow, for a while..they might seem ok, still greenish and flourishing..but after a while, the grass will wither and eventually die..becos of the prolonged lack of water..

im like grass sometimes..how many times do i haf to constantly remind myself that i need to drink from the living water every single day? that i cant afford to not drink for one day..sighs girl..when will u grow up?nvm, i ll try again..

harry said

i saw harry in service today..the first thing he said to me was..

hey! did u cut ur hair?
oh no u didnt..i know! u combed ur hair!!

-_-

is there such a big difference?lol.

vpj

dirty babe
u see these shackles baby im ur slave
i'll let u whip mi if i misbehave
its juz that no one makes me feel this way

woo. kinky lol.

my uncle treated us to ah yat abalone yest at allson hotel..and the very first dish was the alaska snow crab! yum yum!! i forgot to take a picture of it manz!! nvm maybe i ll go online and search it for ya..the meat on the legs were like the meat of the pincers of a normal flower crab..imagine the size of that man!! superb..and the soup was fantastic too! its some double-boiled tonic soup with whole pieces of sharks fin, one juicy piece of abalone, sea cucumber, mushroom etc etc..really very nice..actually the whole dinner was quite tasty, except for the noodles..not nice!

my uncle booked a room where there were 2 flat screen tvs so u could actually watch tv while eating..and they had this whole karaoke system with A LOT of songs..more than kbox one..my aunts and uncles were enjoying themselves singing oldies along to martell and red wine and sake..LOL..the younger generation sang more trendy songs like from jay chou and tao ze..haha..

argh regretting not taking the pictures.

anyways, had service today and i really liked today's cny service..god said reallu reassuring words to me and it was kinda like a time of renewal for me..tho was a bit sick but the input i got was much more worth it if i had chosen not to go service..so, im glad i did :D

petals around the rose

waiting for jackies to come to do our research project..as usual, i tink everyone will be late..

in the meantime..for those who are extremely bored and wan something to pass time, u can try out this game petals around the rose.

its quite dumb.

wana sleep

when i went msn juz now to see who was online, i saw that justin's personal message was as such - sleeping..ARGH i wan to sleep too!!!! so tired now la..plan didnt go as i wanted it to today..today's plan was to wake up at 515 and get ready to go to airport for work at 745, go home after work which was at 1215, reach home at abt 130, sleep till 530, wake up wash and get outta house at 6 to reach valentine's dinner by 7..perfect plan for mi to recuperate after an early rise..

BUT NO!!..plan went accordingly till 1215 till work ended..den there was a change where dear and me went to vivo to eat burger king with frank and ronson..walked ard waiting for ah moon till like 250 till we were super hungry and we couldnt wait anymore so we ate till 315..slacked more till 4 and it was too late to go home :(( so i m now here at smu watching daniel wrapping his business flowers while lamenting to myself tt i shld haf gone home juz now..am dying to know how my virtual villagers are doing la!!and im so so so sleepyy.. i wan to sleep too justin!! wake up and suffer with me..LOL..ok that was quite bad..

anyways since im in such a ranting mood rite now, let mi continue ranting abt my super dang suay day yest..i tink cos it was nicholas' bday hence all of god's favor and love that were initially on me were somehow transferred to him yest..nick u better thank me la..i gave u my abundant god's love, mercy and favor yest..i tink u enjoyed it!

so anyways, yest i was so suay..the stupid dhoby ghaut station person confiscated my ezlink card and was so dang rude that i felt like making a lot of noise juz for the fun of it..PISSED OFF!..now i haf to keep buying cards for travel fare la so sian..and after the party while on the way home on the mrt with dan and sida, this WEIRD INDIAN guy who was sitting down suddenly looked up at me and said - you look very funny..imagine my horrifying look that dawned upon my face..i was like, excuse me, did u juz say i look funny? and he had the horrible guts to say YEAH..and i was like, ok u look funny too..and he ended by saying thank you..EXCUSE ME..saying that someone looks funny is definately NOT a compliment u cuckoo!! he looks 30 40 plus so u can juz keep watever words u wan to urself and leave me alone!! ahhh the accumulation of suayness yest was juz so so so annoying..

today doesnt seem so good either..i juz wana go home now and SLEEP..and tml hafta do project..i realise i gotta study thruout cny cos my exams are juz ard the corner..zzzzzzzzzzzz i dun tink i will study lor..im juz saying this now so that somehow during cny i will rmb wat i wanted to do and at least feel guilty for a while..and hopefully this guilt will prompt mi to study LOL..ahhhh so wu liao..

this is a useless post..

as i was reading

it struck mi once again how amazingly amazing the bible is when i read it juz now while doing qt..was reading 2 cor 10:6 where is says..and we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete..

isnt it true like before u wan to help other ppl in something u muz first at least be consistent in doing that thing? like take for example if u wan to help others in not being late, u muz first not be late before u haf the credibility to tell someone not to be late..or maybe in lecture, before u tell ur noisy classmate to shuddup u first cannot make so much noise too? or like in sermon, if u wan ur grp to be silent and to hear wat the preacher is saying, ufirst muz be silent?

but how? human beings are bound to fail sometime or another..so u cant really do something so consistently cos u would almost certainly not do it..like no matter how much u try, there are sometimes where u are bound to be late not, maybe cos of ur own fault or maybe cos of things that u cant control, perhaps there was a jam on the roads..or u might be so tired that u uncontrollably fall asleep in lecture and dun even realise it..so one will never really haf the full credibility to do anything at all rite?

i dunno leh actually..but i tink like this..if a person really really tries his/her best..like if i took u up to god now and u can clear consciously say that u really tried ur best in doing something..like u can tell god that yes lord, i really try my best to be early in every situation but sometimes cos of things that i cannot control like jam hence im late..and not like, eh god im late cos i came out of the house late..well, if u really did try ur best..i tink, that u are credible enuf..

of course, there are some ppl who manages to say some excuse that seemingly looks as tho it isnt their fault..like maybe if they were late cos they overslept and along the way, there were some probs with the MRT..they might say, oh im sorry i was late cos there were some probs with the MRT..but that isnt really true as well cos u know that in the first place u shldnt haf gotten out of your house late..sometimes, i fall prey to that too..

guess this applies to many other things in our life..not only for relatively minor probs such as being late and talking in clas..maybe to things such as faithfulness, being obedient to god's word, manipulating people to do things etc etc..i guess, we all really muz take note of our thoughts, motives and actions..

again, the bible proves to be amazing :D

excite

yeah finally got the pics from the 2nd ess service which was EXcite!! hahah..that service was really a success and so thank god for putting everything together so perfectly..like i still rmb te times when we had filming till late night and how everyone was so shagged from practising..hahah but oh well..i tink biggest thanks muz go to jiayi aloy and joseph for editing the video!!

a picture of everyone who went onstage for the performance..this included dancers and actors..

jasmine jacq and mi!! mismatch trio SHE..lol..

jas and me..yeah we were quite bored backstage..cos finish make up and everything already so slacking ard..
jas and her back-up dancers..hahah she was damn funny onstage la!! really can become a STAR!!..
junyao or wayne with his 'cool' dancers..all black, like some mafia gang like that..

mi and my handsome korean price!! VPJ + handsome korean prince = VPP (Very Preety Pair)..thanks brandon for being so willing to do a lot of silly things!! haha..

pic of the four actors..

pic of dancers..

and us doing retarded things again!!haha..

oh btw, wheres the pic of us with boss? and we also need to take pic with 2nd boss aloy and joseph too!!

virtual villagers

i finally bought virtual villagers!! i tink wj and shimmy muz be flipping over in disgust as he reads this..lol..he told me he couldnt imagine i wanted to buy virtual villagers when i had dota..oh well..my com is DYING anyway..dunno whether can play dota for long anymore..argh i really need to get a new com soon!!

wats the average price to get one ah?tell mi so i can save up!!

back to virtual villagers!! woohoo!

kbox

hello..here to update wat the jackies haf been doing..i wonder y we are called the jackies anyway..OH cos we are jack in the box..lol..now i know..alright alright, we went to kbox on friday for klunch and towards the end, we went quite mad..thats wat kbox does to you..or maybe it was the food..

well if u want all the pictures, u can go to adel's blog here!

or maybe i shall post some of the pics..oh well im too lazy..so much editing to do..but i shall post the spastic video..cant stand it! thank god the faces cant be seen too clearly..




ahhh going airport for work later..kinda sian..but oh well..its money for US trip..hahah..

EMO

EMO emo EMO emo EMO emo EMO emo EMO emo

i absolutely hate being emo..the world doesnt seem like a big happy place anymore..things arent going wat it seems..u juz wan to go against every single person..u wan to let loose and heck care some ppl..u wan to not know wats right, but juz be right..u hate everything and everyone..u wish time would pass..u wish ur EMO mood will end RIGHT NOW..u wish that everything was juz a dream..u wish everything didnt happen before..u feel like no one cares at all, no one's there..

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

i hate wat im feeling right now..i wan it to go away..i tot blogging would help, apparantly it doesnt..

u know wat, i shall go sleep.

tml ll be a better day.

virtual villagers

ahhhh im in such a dilemma..i came upon this new game juz yest and i tink i really am hooked onto it..its something like my favourite game of all time - knights and merchants!! but im damn sad cos my knights and merchants disc had some probs and couldnt be played anymore..haf been looking for that game for AGES..like almost a decade? yeah really no kidding..

shld i get virtual villagers? its like so fun la..arghhhhh..how?

tick tock

ahh so far so good..ive been waking up at 930 everyday..i always tot i was more used to doing qt at night..but ive come to realise that doing qt before getting out of the house everyday is an even better idea..unless u are in school and u haf to wake up at 6am to prepare for school..i tink everyone shld do qt in the morning..unless u can wake up at 5am to do qt den thats good too!! hahha..

i hope cg goes well today..we've been having great cgs so i pray we can continue such cg and nxt time when all the boys have their individual cgs, they would be even greater..glory to glory :D

amount of time

issit me? somehow i juz feel that i haf loads of time on my hands these few days..been home early and i dun really haf anything to do..its not i dun haf anything to do..i haf scheduled shepherdings, cg, outing with friends, meeting ppl and pioneering..but somehow i feel more free than the past few weeks..i reached home at 730 today please!! and tml i haf nothing on till evening..

weird weird..haha maybe its cos of school plus late-night filmings the past few weeks that made my schedule seem packed..but with all those gone, i realise im actually quite free! lol..maybe i shld start looking for those reseach stuff soon as one of my new year resolutions is to not leave work till the last minute..

nothing much to do in front of the com..even youtube is not letting mi load my fav variety show at the moment..argh sometimes youtube really makes mi mad..juz as how blogger makes mi pissed sometimes cos i juz cant type in my username no matter wat!! infuriating..

u know wat, i shall go sleep :D

the day

it is frighteningly amazing how i could stay at home the whole day and do almost nothing..i guess its cos i haven been home the whole day since a long long time ago..feels as tho its a waste of time..slept from 630pm yest to 830 this morning..goes to show how tired research methodology made mi and the amt of sleep i had to catch up on..

today was self-declared retreat day but it really feels weird not to be out there meeting ppl or doing something..but i guess it was impt that i spent time at home with god..read 1 cor something where paul said that he was preaching the gospal of the resurrection of jesus..and he stated the ppl whom jesus appeared to after he rised up from being dead..den he said this, many of them are still alive, tho some have fallen asleep..

it wasnt till i read thru the whole passage where i realise wat paul meant by some who haf fallen asleep..he was referring to ppl who died i tink, becos of god..and these ppl arent really dead cos they would be risen up at the last day and be with wonderful jesus forever..but when i first read it, i tot that oh gosh! even ppl whom jesus appeared to can turn away from him and renounce their faith..like, u can never really know how strong a person is in his/her faith at any point in time..once we arent careful and let satan gain our hearts a small bit at a time, soon we will lose the battle and backslide too..i really dun wana be like that kind of person..i dun wan to be those kinds where jesus appears to me face to face and i explain him away in some seemingly logical explanation..that would be really stupid..

looking up some courses to enrol myself into for the future..really praying hard that i wun slack my time away nxt time..tho responsibilities over others might not be that great..but i still haf a responsibility over myself..i cannot let god down! no, i muz be diligent in wanting to grow..yes! i decide how much i wan to grow..maybe nxt time, i will bug my shepherd for more shepherdings than ever..hahah..exciting, yet a bit saddening..

got this from ruisi's blog..these things are fun once in a while..

fotos and more fotos, plus a little tok

a mixture of different pictures of how i spent my past weeks..

went out with mismatch to shop at bugis where we met shumin..i tink its a god given chance for us to meet her so that's one good thing :D

jasmine adored this pair of glasses..and yes, adore is the word..

celebrated my grandma's 86th bday juz now at my house function room and took a couple of fotos but not with grandma LOL..those pics are in some digicam and i was too lazy to use my fone to take fotos which i could ask my mom to send to me so i juz took some other ones instead..plus i realise all my nephews are really cute!! haha..i tink they shld all stay as infants and toddlers and not grow up..

me with dad..everyone says i look like him..

and me with sis..look at my eyebag!! damn black and big..MUZ SLEEP..

celebrated mark's bday yest with cg..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK!! hahah i tink he was quite shocked and surprised when i turned ard and showed him the bday cake..hahaha totally wasnt expecting it!! that is amazing..lol...

mark looked like a happy small boy!! hahah..

joshua and issac..issac dunno doing wat with his eyes la!! purposely one!! hahah..and joshua isnt so quiet anymore..thats a good thing :)

june and me!! hahah we finally took a pic together..FINALLY..

on tues, i tink or was it wed? aiya i forgot..followed dear to the docs before going to bugis to get her cny stuff and den ate nydc with TEA members plus matmat..went to wj's house before the docs cos they only opened at abt 2pm..

introducing wj's revamped room with the carpet to lie down while he plays dota..

dear with shimmy..shimmy is so cute!!!

another pic of shimmy..so cute!! like a toy dog like that..but she is really a damn excited dog..keep jumping and scratching and dunno doing wat..shimmy shimmy!! and behind her is her spastic owner who was asking her to sit down for like 3 secs to let me take a pic..

this was while waiting for jiehui and daniel to finish discussing their stuff at carls junior on friday night..they tok so long la!! i was so bored so i used daniel's fone to take some narcisstic fotos of myself..

i was bored u see..lollll..and they toked for so long i was so wuliao with nothing to do..

so anyway, had clm this morning with pastor david as our speaker..he's one powerful man!! really amazed at his simple faith and his simplicity while looking at spiritual things..its an amazing balance..on one hand, he really is juz so simple cos watever he does, he has that idea that its for god so juz do lor..on the other hand, he is really very wise and very very strategic in the way he manages the church..caught a glimpse of how wise and tactical he was at doing stuff..

like for example, he was in india and he spoke to these 2 young indian men who converted and they told their dad..ok in india, there isnt as much religious freedom as there is in singapore..so if u venture out from their main religion like hindu or sikh, u are in real deep trouble..not only from frens but even ur closest family members..so their dad asked to meet pastor david, prob to give him a talk on how could u convert my boys..so david arranged to meet this dad at the best restaurant in town and u know why? so that the dad cant shout at him there!!! LOL i was damn amazed at that..

den he ordered the best food, took care of everything, made sure the dad enjoyed his food and when the mood was right he said this - hey uncle, u traveled almost 2 hrs to come to new delhi to meet mi becos u love ur sons rite? well jesus loves u that he came 2000 yrs ago to die on the cross for u! den he continued toking to the dad abt family stuff..saying for so many years,u haf been taking care of ur family, has anyone cared for u the way u cared so much abt them? well jesus does!!

oh and the bestest part..this is WOW..he asked the dad - wat do u tink of all these food? the dad said nice..he asked the dad..if i told u that this dish is made up of oil salt eggs and flour would u know how it tasted like? the dad replied no i wouldnt..david asked den how would u know how the dish taste like? the dad said by tasting it and david said thats the same with jesus! all u haf to do is taste this love that jesus has offered to u and see if its nice..it doesnt matter the religion like hindu or christianity etc..juz taste and see for urself..

im am utterly awed by pastor david chen.

y-hope is gonna make 1000 a history in the near future..sounds like an oxymoron yeah..haha..but yeah i will be so proud of yhope den..how i wish i could stay and achieve even more grounds with the youth..maybe, i ll go help the youth ministry of other countries nxt time..yeah, thats a good idea indeed..