wat do u do if u dislike sum 1?

wat would u do if u dislike some1?...i know its wrong..but this person has been irritating the crap out of mi for a very long time...everytime i c this person..i try to forgive and forget..but everytime, this person does sumthing tt makes me wanna slap the person's face and telling him/her to SHUT UP!!..and if u r so good..den u do lah..stop criticizing others lor..and the things tt u come up with aint so good either...

god tells us not to judge..im trying not to do tt..but this person is really getting on my nerves..worse still..this person is sum i in my church..and in the same sub-district..so i c him/her every week...god tells us tt whoever hates his own brother or sister cannot be my disciple..but sum ppl r juz NOT lovable...haiz...how ah...can sum 1 pls come and enlighten mi..

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im so sian now leh!!...wana go stay overnight but mi mom wun let mi...y!?!?...oledi 18 yrs old leh...i wana go!...b4 i haf to mug for my A lvls..haiz...kes and meisa having a feast now..their phy teacher is treating them to buffet dinner...so good leh..haiz...its fri night after prelims and i haf nothing to do!!...ahhh...

ok this was wat i did for the whole day..in the morning i went to kbox wid kes may shu and meisa...from 11 to 230..of course...we arrived late...me and shu went up at like 1120..still not tt late...the other 3 arrived at like 12 sumthing lor!!..may was the latest...anyway we r all v used to it le lah...its our custom..hahaha...wah today was quite high..esp at the end where we sang 4 very rock songs..zi you by zhang zhen yue, meng zhong ren by faye wong, jump 2003 by machi and wu xie ke ji by energy..we were all jumping ard like crazy..keep banging our heads and everything..haha...den aft tt felt like going clubbing!!..ahhh..but im underage so we cant go!!..so sad..but morning was quite fun...den they came to my house to watch horror movie...again!!..aft i told them sooo many times tt i dun wana watch in my house cos i scared!!..cos they say my room got tv den can on aircon and watch..wah lau..haha...den we drank the sparkling juice which kinda suck..the show was so boring lor..spirit of vengence..even i was not very scared lor..den aft tt we crapped awhile...watched the hillsong united dvd..den meisa and kes had to leave for their buffet and shu wanted to meet jian chang..left mi and may..aft complaining for awhile and coming up wid sum unrealistic plans..she decided to go home and i went lot 1 to shepherd crystal..

now im home and i haf nothing to do!!..ahhhh..cos i haf no money..no money means i cannot go shopping!!...and i cannot go anywhere else!!..sianz!...cant wait for tml..when i can finally go church again..but in the morning haf to go help my mom wid her work..she really know how to use free labour..rite aft my exams call mi goher workplace to help her...hahha...i tink im following aft my mom too...opps..

cant wait for the lantern festival thingy tml..praying hard tt it will be fun and everybody will enjou themselves...how ah...my whole mind is tinking of playing only leh...like no studying at all lor...and still planning for our end of year trip to bangkok...die le..haiz...

in shu's house now

im in shu's house now...mi shu meiyan and may..we're baking shepherd's pie...waiting for the pie to finish baking...wah a lot of work lor...den now very the tired...hahah...we were supposed to meet at bukit panjang plaza to but the ingredients at 10.30...and as usual...we were late again la...except for meiyan...ahhaha...i tink she still dunno our trend...we are the permantly late grp...ahahha...

when we reached her house...we were all sweating like pigs lor...so hot today...den we ate cup noodles...slack awhile...den finally at bout 130...decided to start baking...den now we are juz waiting for the pie to finish baking...so long lor...but its gonna turn out well...yeah..success!!...

later having class bbq at mi house...budden me n the gurls haf sum other plans...heehee...oh well...shldnt post it here or else we'll get killed...sianz...i cant wait for the lantern festival on sat...dunno wat we are gonna do..guess it'll be preety fun cos me and jo r planning it...hahaha...i cant wait to go to church again...i wana go and jump like siao...dunno y i always feel like letting mself lose in church..like jump like crazy and stuff...but sumthing juz keeps holding mi back...only when i sit beside eesiew den can...

the pie's done!!...shu juz carried it out...gonna go taste it now...hahaha...too bad u guys cant eat it...

im back!!

hey ppl...as u can see...im back again...noe y...cos i juz ended my prelims today and rite now..i got nothing to do...so im blogging twice...hahah...

juz had cg at mi house...today's one was fun!!...enriching too...was so encouraged after hearing geral's testimony lor...i really hope that god will repeat the miracle in my studies also...hahah...today i was leading sermon d...n guess wat...i learned sooo many things aft it...today's discussion was about storms in our lives and how wod god's help we managed to pull thru it...the storm tt i initially tot of was the incident when my parents found out bout my belief...wah tt period was like typhoon lor...budden juz now i realised tt i actually went thru a storm without knowing it...the time was when we juz split cg...and i was with shuyi anf the pj nj ppl...wah...i tell u hoh tt time i really didnt tink tt our cg could work out...firstly, we werent very close...secondly, the ppl here were relatively quieter...and it was very small...our first cg we saw only like 5 ppl attending lor...but surprise surprise!!...god had other plans for our grp...even at the 1st cg...we all had a chance to speak out out most inner and sincere tots about the change...both good and bad ones...den we played this quite erm...body battling game of rock scissors paper...and den we had to sing p n w to a cd player...hahah...thru tt time...we grew closer to one another and tt was the start of our bonding...i juz realised today when i asked the ppl wat was their most memorable cg...they tot tt the first new cg(which is the one now) tt they attended was it...the games and everything...see...god pulled us thru again...he made the impossible possible...he made us closer to one another...and slowly...im beginning to tink tt this grp was not as such a failure as i expected...quite bad rite...to tink so lowly of our new grp..but thru this god has shown me how not to judge anything by the cover...and tt the things tt he can do is limitless..thru his grace..we can acheive anything!!...tts wat i love bout him...he can do everything tt i myself confirmes was not possible...time and again...he has proven me wrong...aiyo...god ah...u r really very the cute leh...hahah...

since we were able to pull thru this storm...we are able to pull thru all the other storms as well...y worry bout any exams or setbacks u meet in ur life?...if god is for u...who can be against u?...hehe...goes out to everybody as well...god is amazing!!...everyday u're learning sumthing new about him...and he surprises u everyday..now i truly understand the meaning of i can do everything thru him who gives me strength...phi 4:13...and the verse and i will be wid u always...to the very end of the age...

iTs aFteR PreLiMs!!

my prelims are over!!!...yeah man...now in the library wid shu and may...ok...tt sounds quite sad...aft prelims le still in library...juz slacking la...wah juz now was econs paper mcq...den we got back the answers at the same time...aiyo those teachers r crazy one lor...straight away aft exams den give ansle...makes us so demoralised le...i got 17 out of 30 lor...ok lah...

having bbq tml...wid class...and our sparkling party...*hint hint*...heh...cant wait leh...having cg later...at mi house..doing sermon d..oh well...got nothing to blog now...gonna go off...maybe i'll blog again later...

a stupid guy named bra**on!!!

guys sucks...they r so freaking childish, immature freaks...esp this kid named bra**on...want to eat more than ur share...and dunno how to cover up somemore...den give a whole lot of stupid excuses...CRAP la...anyone can c tt u ate the cake lor...u got cream all over ur mouth...and the most stupid thing is that u dunno how to clean it up...always knew u were not a good thing at all...still tot tt i was quite prejudiced against u at first...but no man...u r juz as sucky as i tot...even worse lor...u proved mi rite man...dun u dare show ur face to mi...i'll slap u till u die lor...grow up kid!!!...dun mess around cos u cant afford to...and u r juz plain lousy at it lor...

lets not tok bout him la...makes my blood boils...tok bout sumthing else..oh yeah...i cut me hair le...i tink many ppl were shocked...esp eesiew...at first she tot i was a loanshark lor...hahaha....cant stand it...but the more i look at it...the more i like it...cos was wat i used to want..budden after rebonding den cant bear to cut mi hair...so left it long...sian man...

tml is mi last day of exams...yeah man!!den im gonna go play like siao...gonna bake shepherds' pie...den going out wid tamar to shop...cant wait man...hahha...guess wat...yest i was at eesiew's house...den we played the hillsongs cd...wah dne cant stand it...got all our fav songs...like all i do...now that u're near...king of majesty etc...den we were jumping in her house like crazy...keep jumping ard and worshipping god...till we were like sweating like pigs...so shuang eh!!...u guys shld really try it one day...the feeling is like WOW!!!...den i rmb tt every fri got praise and worship night in church...we made a decision to go when we can...but muz go check it out first...i love god man!!!and tk god for jenn yang!!!...he finally accepted christ!!...all praise to jesus!!...we r growing!!... yeah man!!!

i need u here...i need u here...u're like the rain tt falls...fall upon this heart and make me new...i look to you...i look to you...u're king above the earth...u haf put heaven in my heart...i only wana be where u are...holy holy is the lord...king of glory...forever...saviour of the world...amen

hi again~:p

hi again...haven posted for so long le...cos of my prelims...i finished mi chem and maths papers le!!...yeah...heh...wah god really helped me thru the papers le...as expected...i didnt really study la...so was quite scared bout my prelims...esp chem...my worst subject ever...so i did wat i could and den i prayed to god...wow it was a miracle leh...i didnt feel so nervous as i expected and i had a clear mind to do my papers...but of course still got sum dunno how to do la...budden i already did my best...heheh...so now its up to god le...yea!!...next wk i juz haf another day of exams den i haf break all da way to next next wk!!...hahah...so excited...also...tml is sat again!!!....more excited..heehee...jenn yang is coming tml...praise god!!..

juz had caregroup on wed...i tink it was one of the best cg CE5 ever had so far...it was held at guan' place(tks guan!!) and there was full attendance!!...shermaine attended!!...i haven saw her for so long le...den tamar and cathy also came...so tt day our cg was quite big...it went quite well la except for my sermon d...wah it was a total failure leh!!...cos of my prelims den didnt haf much time to prepare so it came out as a total disaster la!!...aiyo...i muz really work harder at it and improve leh...all my sermon d is not very good one...nvm...with more practice i tink it will come out juz fine la...

gonna cut hair today...jac's bringing me to her saloon...dunno wat style i wanna cut leh!!...eee so exciting...hahha...but wid jac's style...i tink i trust her la..hahha...but wun be too short cos i look damn sucky wid short hair la...so...juz haf to wait and c ppl...

**its saturday!!!**

its saturday!!...yeah...i went to church today...my favourite place in the world...Hope of God Singapore...was finally refreshed by god after mugging for the whole week...i juz wana go to church everyday...i dunno y...i juz wana be there..to be filled with god's presence...hahah...i mean...at home also can do that la budden...church is where i get to meet all my brothers and sisters again...i tink this idea of meeting up every week is such a wonderful plan!...we can each strengthen our faith in god...

was supposed to meet up wid geral and joyce today to study...at orchard emerald at 9 am...so early leh...but i needed to study lah and since i have image at 11...so ok lor...it takes me abt an hr to go from my house to orchard...so i set my alarm to go off at 7 am...guess wat time i woke up?...815 am..heheh...so naturally...i was late...again...i reached there at 10 den joked with them for a while...did 2 maths questions den went for image le...haiz...but at least i did 2 questions!!...its better than nothing...oh well..

jac and elisha came for image today...and germ la of course...ying and shelby also came...from 11 to 12...we were juz slacking there waiting for tamar and eelee to come in...cos they were supposed to wear sumthing special so we had to do sum make-up for them...during the slacking time...i toked to joel/jewel(sorry la...dunno how to speel ur name...) about hair...poly...obesity...juz crapping lah...den nell came in and ask us to go c tamar's outfit...it was supposed to be a kimono...but it looked like a pajamas la!!...it was blue and it looked like there were clouds on it lor...den we were all like NO!!...u cant wear this on stage...so me and germ went to meriden to find a kimono for her...while elisha and jac did eelee's hair and make-up first...we went ard searching and searching but we couldnt find a kimono...so we ended up buying a cheongsam lor...but it was quite nice...its white and blue...and it costs only 32 bucks...which was quite cheap for a cheongsam la...actually was 38 bucks but we slashed it all the way down to 32...germ said tt she would take it home so she could lend tamar for now...whew!!!...tamar's outfit was saved!!...hahah...den we hurried all the way back and did tamar's hair and make-up...both eelee and tamar looked so chio after the make-over...all thanks to us...hehehe...oh boy...i really love image man...and jac promised me to bring me to her hair-dresser to cut my hair...i want sumthing totally diff...and judging by jac's style...i tink ican trust her...heheh

the service was so cool...we sang evermore...i was juz listening to it yesterday and tinking how cool it would be if we could sing it in church...and ta-da!!...we sang it this week...god is sooo cute one leh...heh...this week's sermon was on missions...den pastor jeff was saying sumthing like nxt yr they would be organising for this group of youth ppl to go to sum strategic place in US to plant a church...so cool!!...i really wanna go...and its aft my A lvls anyway...but we'll see how la...cos im still so young n dunno if my mom would kill me a not...so...up to god lor...eheh...i really tink tt its a blessing that i was born in singapore...there this feeling of safety ard me...praise to god...hmmm...i muz really start bringing ppl to come and know him le...he is so cute and good lor...everybody shld come and know him...hmmm...wondering how raphael's fren cindy is doing...i tink i'' go msg her later...den me and crystal were toking bout sook kim...i tink sook kim is on the way too...yeah!!!...we're growing!!...i really wana c a PJ caregroup...heh...and tks to everybody who contributed to the cd collection...there were so many lor...deadline is extended to nxt wk ppl...so bring more k...tks to missy jane who was so glad to take the cds home and sort them...u rock gurl!!

i wana say sumthing...i did sumthing surprising today...dunno whether it was stupid a not lah...when i was walking home...i saw this family beside me...the parents and two kids and a grandmother...den the grandmother was like hobbling along trying to keep up wid the family...and she was holding 2 plastic bags from NTUC...when they stopped at the traffic light...they grandmother gestured to the man to help her take the bags...den the man scolded her leh!!!...he said in chinese...so light only also want me to help u take...everyday only eat sleep eat sleep...useless...wat the!!...i was so pissed at the guy...the lady was old leh sir...exccccuuuusse me...den i dunno y but i followed them to c where they were going...den when they reached the lifts at their blk...the wife and 2 kids went into the lift but the man stopped the old lady from going into the lift...den he showed her the way to the staircase...and asked her to climb!!!...and she was still taking the plastic bags and hobbling...how could he do this???...how could he treat her like this...wat kind of son was he?den i couldnt stand it anymore...i wanted to walk away but sumthing prompted me to go up and say him...i said...excuse me...is that ur mother?how could u treat her like this?...den he started shouting and stuff la...saying tt this was his family business..actually quite true la...i also dunno y i interfered...but i felt so sad for the old lady lor...den thru all the shouting i managed to gather tt they live on the 14th floor and he wanted her to climb all the way up...reason..cos she has diabetes and needed to exercise her legs or else she cannot walk...wat a big fat loser!!!...jerk lor!!...i climb a few steps i also wana die le lor...he still ask an old lady to climb 14 stories lor!!...wat kind of son was he?...i said wat would u feel if ur son treated u this way?!?!...u sure haf retribution one u jerk!!!...how could he treat her this way?argh!!!...i dunno y there r such losers in this world...dunno lah...but is it stupid?..i mean..it is their family...and the most surprising thing was tt i was kinda calm throughout the whole thing...to me...i didnt raise my voice at the guy...in fact...i was like trying to tok sum sense into his thick skull...and i also dunno y i even interfered lor...its juz not sumthing i would do la...but den got this thing kept pushing me to speak up...funny hoh...also cannot say if its holy spirit prompting me leh...holy spirit would prompt such things one meh?..wat if i worsened things...haiz...but im juz glad i didnt scold any vulgarities or punched him in the face...like wat i'll do last time...the man was juz attracting all the attention to himself lor...by shouting so loud...i tink god is probably laughing his head off in heaven lor...joke of the century...den aft tt i felt so sad for the lady i cried all the way while walking home..den kept crying on the fone to maybeline...tks may!!...for listening to me...this really tell me tt there r such ppl in the world...but i shldnt judge them lah...leave the judgment to god...this is wat meisa reminded me...i dun know y this happened budden its over...juz pray tt god will show me the answer soon...

better go study le...my chem paper is on monday!!!...opps...god ah god...u really haf to help me leh...i can feel tt im juz gonna flunk the paper la...help me pls!!...

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its friday!!....already...how how how?...i haven study yet...i cant get anything into my mind...oh no...but luckily may and shu r coming my house later...so we can like force each other to study...heh...but most prob we'll end up doing sumthing else la...oh yeah...juz for the update...i tink tt we haf changed our end-of-yr holiday destination to redang instead...cos its cheaper and nearer...and its beaches r more beautiful too...so cant wait...

was toking to lily juz now...den we were again complaining like how A lvls suck and everything...its a huge obstacles for all of us now...there is only like 40 more days to it...so fast leh...when it ends...im so gonna juz drag all my books and worksheets outta the house and go find a place to burn them...alright man!!...and i'll burn the yrbook and the uniforms and the badges and everything associated with PJ...cos i dun ever wanna remember anything bout PJ...i mean...the only good thing was tt i found a group of good frens there...may meisa shu roy zhiwei soonhui minyee syifaa and lingfei...and of course...its there tt i came to know god as well...those r the only 2 good things bout PJ...other than tt...NOTHING!!!...

ok..i know...its a bit unfair to say tt nothing good comes out of PJ...or else y did god put me in tt school?...there muz be a reason...i tink im slowly finding out y...its to grow the PJ group and to widen his flock...look at the miracles he has done...at 1st...there were only me and eesiew...for almost a yr it was juz the 2 of us...den there was ban ban but he soon left for CJ la...when we backslided(me and kes)...there was really nobody in PJ left...den this yr...so many pionners started coming in...first there was crytal...den cathy brought in yinchong and geral...and now jenn yang is also coming...wow!!...all this happen in a timespan of only a few months...god is great amen!!...i cant believe how crystal chris and geral has grown...so much in such a short time...praise to the lord!!...hey pioneers!!...lets bring in more ppl for god k...lets expand the PJ group till we haf to find a classroom for the weekly lunch...heehee...gurls...lets work towards a PJ gurls caregroup...YCE6...how does tt sound?pretty cool huh...den we can haf cg in school...heh...but better do it fast...cos me eeesiew and chris r gonna graduate le...we leave it all into the J1 hands...but we'll always be there to help u guys...okok...maybe i wun burn my PJ uniform yet den nxt yr can sneak in to help u guys as well...heh

tml is sat!!...yeah...tml most prob i'll be meeting jane in the morning for shepherding...den i'll be going for both services...accompanying crystal to the 2nd one...oh yeah...speaking of jane...tts another miracle tt the lord had bestowed on me...missy jane...or susan boey(evil laugh)...miz priz here...hahah...its my 1st shepherding wid u...kinda scared la...later sumthing goes wrong or wat...but anyway..i'll give my best and god is always beside me yeah...heh...its funny to write wat miracle im toking about...cos i want to let u be the first to know...since it concerns u...so wait till tml...when i give u sumthing k...

i recently found out tt there r actually a lot of things that i took for granted when i juz shifted to the sat service...things like the harmony and the bonding that the very first central E shared...although it was a very big group...but there were very few problems...or i tink lah...maybe im juz blur and i dunno anything...budden...now at this period of time...i realised tt problems r starting to sprout out...shuyi shuyi...dun worry k...its only thru problems tt we actually grow and mature...there muz be a reason y god put problems like these into our lives...juz haf faith and follow his will k...i'll be right there supporting u all the way...thats wat a CLA is for rite...hehe....to assist u the whole time...juz call me anytime den we will surely find a way out...trust in the lord!!...i can do anything thru him who gives me strength...is this the verse?or maybe i rmb wrongly...anyway...u know wat i mean...

gonna go off le...may's coming anytime...oh yeah... a final reminder ppl...YCE5 is collecting unwanted cds tml to collect funds for hq...bring tml and give to missy jane k...and jiehui...no!!...we do not want pirated ones...tks anyway...we'll be noting down how many cds each group contributes too...so...bring more k!!...lets save hq...

i tink i almost died today...

i dun tink i'll ever eat so much again...i went for high tea at hotel pheonix today...today was my family day so yeah...my mom dragged us to haf high tea again...so off we went...me and my lil bro and sis...took the mrt to somerset to find my parents...the high tea started at 3.30 so before tt, we went shopping!!!...yeah...i had to go shopping myself...cos my mom wanted to bring my sis to the childrens' department and shopping wid the two guys in my family is quite sucky...i ended up shopping by myself...which i hated before...but yesterday i found out tt it wasnt so bad...frankly...i enjoyed myself so much...and since i didnt haf to pay a single cent for the things i bought...it was all the more greater lah...

den it was time for high tea...we were all so hungry tt when they said we could start...we rushed to get things to eat...my dad kept reminding us to eat slower but den..as usual...we ate quite fast lah...i ate so much...2 bowks of laksa...so many chicken wings...so many pieces of cake...etc...den at last when i stood up...oh my god...my stomach almost exploded...trust me...it was a horrible feeling...i felt so bad tt i went to the toilet cos i almost puked...i kept praying to god to save me...finally we reached my father's car den i could juz relax all the way home...when i stepped out of the car...i felt better...thank god!!!...truly...never again will i eat so much...i learnt my lesson the hard way man...goes out to u peeps too...dun eat tt much..u'll regret man...

to meisa may and shu...WAT STUDYING WERE U ALL TOKING ABOUT?...wake me up so early to go may house...den we ended up toking bout our phuket trip and went to find all the info bout hotels and transportation...den keep calculating how much each person haf to pay...we didnt study anything lor...hahaha...den in the end i left at 12 and didnt do anything at all...tink we will all juz die during prelims lor...

sat is coming again...time to go back to church...so cannot wait...erm btw ppl...im still a bit new on this blog thing so link me cos i wouldnt know how to...luv ya k...

*this day*

i juz set up this blog today...i wasnt in it till i see the ppl around mi all having blogs...i tot it was cool so...here i am...heehee...today isnt a very good day...i juz had tuition...for chem...chem totally sux...i juz pray tt i can pass my prelims...

today was pretty messed up...had sum friction but i hope its all settled up...hey geral...i know how u've grown...n i know tt u got ur priorites straight...u've been telling tt to me since the start...u tell me to be concern...can i?...i can honestly say tt i've tried my best to not irritate the hell out of u by wanting to noe everything tt happens in ur life or wat ur doing now...i know tt feeling sux cos it was how my ex-shepherd used to treat me when i was a new b...maybe its my first time and i made sum mistakes...i dunno...im real sorry if i was like always on ur back...but sum things r beyind my control...u noe wat i mean?...

things tt happen today really got me tinking if i had the makings of a shepherd...dunno lah...but i trust in God...if HE says can...den i can...oh yeah...G...u can be one too...trust me...dun tink u'll fall in the task...hahha...u're strong enuf...

called es today to get sum counselling...felt so much better aft toking to her...tks gurl!!...tts y u're my bestest fren...hahah...u noe me so well and r always there for me...u noe i'll always be there for u too!!...even tho we not same cg anymore but we still share sum pretty cool stuff huh...dun tell anyone k or else i'll juz die lah...hahha

oh yeah met dewen on the train today...at dover...he was going to his cg too...dun worry brother...i go find sum commonwealth ppl for ur group k...keke

i tink im gonna log off le...tml may and shu will be coming my house to study...at 9 am leh...i tink i most prob aint awake yet...hehhe...u guys will haf to wake me up...aft tt...going to high tea wid me family...im gonna get soooo fat!!...steamboat den high tea...my diet plan is so totally gone...

one more day to the end of A lvls and helllloo phuket...