PISSED OFF

This is what I have been pissed off at for the whole of today..i was so sad for the uncle!

IN the end, they didnt even pay him the 5 bucks..and the poor uncle had to ferry three grown ups at like a combined weight of almost 200 kg with his weaker body!! its not abt the ppl, its abt the deed!! they shld respect him more, he's already so old and still working such a tedious job for a living..

gosh, if i ever do see them, i will give them a piece of my mind.

bday

obviously, you're out of my league
how can i win, but you keep dragging me in
and i know i'll never will be good enough for you

obviously, you're out of my league
im wasting my time cos you'll nvr be mine
and i know i'll nvr will be good enuf for you.

FACEBOOK IS CRAP! i totally dunno how to use it and im not going to figure out anymore. There, it can just stay there and rot while ppl keep sending me pictures, poking me, sending me booze mail, and all those nonsense. I will remain a noob in my own world..

xiang and i were talking recently, and i was telling her abt my bday this year..and she said that im always insecure when it comes to my bday..which i figured out was true..i do get insecure when my bday's approaching..i guess its because, ive always tot that bday's were really special, and ive always reckon special days are meant to be shared amongst special ppl..but special ppl always seem, busy..

guess i shld be more secure..doesnt really help that its my 21st this year..like its supposed to be something grand..

oh well.

benefit

saw this but haven had time to blog about it..i browsed thru the benefit catelogue in cleo magazine and just thought that it was so preety!! im so totally wow-ed by the nicest looking packaging! gonna check it out this sunday after service..after all, pay day's approaching :D

so preety!! yay am gonna check them out on sunday!!

the gallery

a galore of pictures!!

i rmb i still haven blogged abt my graduation..so thats what im going to do now..when was it? oh yeah, 6 Oct, Saturday..ritz carlton is a super difficult place to find! ayu and i walked THE WHOLE of marina square and STILL didnt manage to find that hotel..argh! wats the point!

the place where we will go on stage to collect our fake certs..

before graduation, in the midst of robing and looking weird..

this was while waiting for emu and ayu, who were taking a long time in the toilet..

and here's the whole grp of jackies!! haha we finally graduated! btw, if we compared a pic of us when we first went into MDIS and with this pic, im sure there will be a whole lot of difference!!

and here's us again..haha, we really dun care abt other ppl

adalini and me!

we tried throwing our hats with minimal success..

lulu and me, who by now, shld be on his way to hanoi to go for the in-line skating with that person..i cant rmb his name..and lulu! i still haven forgiven you for taking my pic when i was sleeping thru all the speeches!!

so this is my warning to you..better not do it again..hmpf! and i dun sleep a lot :(

three preety gurls..coming to tink of it..where did the weird malay run to? hmmmmmm...

and so, we graduated BMCD1 0508A..cya guys when i see ya..

next up are pics of angel's bday party which i attended..

HAPPY 21st!!

sue's and mine bday kiss to the bday gurl! MUACKS! hahah..drunkard arse, still holding the wine in her hands..

Look who i chanced upon at the party!! jieyan!! gosh, this gurl was my sec sch fren and i haven been in contact with her since we graduated from css..and now, she and angel and sue are frens in college..small world huh..grown preetier :D

the guests..

and finally a pic of sue and me!!! sue, u NEVER take a normal picture!! love ya!

my babies

i just came home from lunch with my family..and i forgot to buy food for my babies..i tink they must be really hungry..i haven fed them since last night..dropped the remaining food all into the tank and they gobbled it up immediately..i tink ive spoilt them too much..they simply refuse to eat any sort of vegetable now, only meat like hotdogs, shrimps, prawns and fish..

poor babies..i promise to buy you food when i get my next pay..which is on wednesday..

look at the size at which they have grown..i tot terrapins were supposed to remain small and cute..but ginny and hermie are simply too huge for me to call them terrapins now..poor things :(

noob

lemme tell u something stupid i did 2 days back..i brought hot dog buns to work, and they were wrapped up in aluminium foil..wanted to eat them during tea break so i set the microwave for 15 secs and popped them in, still wrapped up in the foil..

well, u werent supposed to do that, i didnt know.

and suddenly, when the timer was counting down till 3 secs, a SPARK flew off the foil!! i got so freaked out i tot the mircowave was going to explode!! i mean, look at all those movies and horror tales of things exploding in microwave!

so i risked my life to shut the switch at 2 secs, and was deliberating on what i shld do..honestly, this thought was running thru my mind - what if i opened the microwave, and the cool air gets mixed with the hot air and there was a combustion!! i didnt wan to die u know!!

and crippled with fear, i managed to come to my senses to run away from the microwave to the desk of my fren with a plea for help..she came to my rescue, gingerly pressed the switch to open the microwave and took out my stuff for me..whew, no explosion :D

damn, im such a noob.

pixies

i found this quite hilarious..

u know, this is my very first picture with shirley i tink..ohwait, maybe it isnt..hmmmm..anyways, shirley is taller than me now!! im sure she must be very happy!

prayer unlocks miracles

felt that i should do some justice to my regular readers and blog abt something more interesting that has been happening in my life..

been busy with 13 for the past 2 weeks..i got a shock yest when i washed off my make-up at home and looked into the mirror..my dark eye rings were THE worse i had ever seen in my life..im serious!! it was DARK..i got a shock..which means i gotta sleep earlier tonight to try t0 rectify the damage done..

being overall in charge of this event taught me a lot of things..and it was a truly wonderful experience because
1) the event happening by itself was a miracle
2) i got to make loads of new frens
3) i understood myself better
4) i learnt how to relate to people

being realistic, i can honestly say that organizing this event with a drama, song presentation, dance and the likes within TWO weeks is simply, impossible..its beyong the scope of human understanding..the script wasnt out, the song wasnt chosen, the dance had not been cheorographed, the actors hasnt been sourced, and we had a problem with the venue..

i have to say a big thank you to god, for helping all the actors get into their character within that short period of time..it is an amazing feat, just simply amazing..it is beyond nature's laws that ppl who haven acted, or haven acted for a long time, to get a script and be able to get into the character in just like, 5 rehearsals! i tink wynnie must have been fretting out when we had our very first one..but god pulled us thru huh? yah, he did :)

and a big big thank you for everyone that has helped out! esp logistics, lighting, ushers and receptions, MM, sound, drama cast and music team..you guys have simply been fantastic! thanks for working with me to help make this event possible..i know i have been a little stressed out while talking to u all, and i might have sounded choleric and kinda, you know, ordered ppl around a bit..so really, thanks for tolerating my harsh-ness in some points, and im sorry if any of you feel like, insulted..

but without you guys, i would have just died..thank you! it is also through all of you, that i see how vividly the hand of god is working for the good of all who love him, and who have been called according to his purpose! all of you are ppl whose faith is not just all talk, but action as well..quality :)

yes thanks to adel wenjun and nuohan who painstakingly took the trouble to BLUFF me that they were not coming and turning up at with this sunflower..i was thoroughly surprised, so i guess you guys achieved your goal haha..

all that moving to arts house at the very last minute got us a bit flustered, but im sure that was god's idea as well..he gave us an even better venue with air-conditioning, a proper stage and our private room where ppl felt comfortable in..so i learnt, that no matter what happens, the big guy up there still has everything within his control..

u know, when ppl are pressed into a corner, where all hopes are seemingly impossible and everything looks like its just gonna flop..it is then when we can truly see, how god lavishes his love and help on his children..because it is only then, when we know we are helpless, and god is the one, who made everything possible..

thank you father :)

hatred

i let my mind wander off for a while..maybe i was too exhausted and let those reigns go for just a little moment..

i tot of him, and i tot of her..and it was frightening how much i hated the both of them..i got afraid of the intensity of my feelings, and i was left wondering whether this is the real me..it shocked me to learn how fast scenes of revenge can squeeze themselves into my mind, and i have no doubt that if i were ever to enact one of those scenes out, i would totally relish it..

and so i picked up those reigns once again..and i made sure that i held them real tight..and i tot of him..how he can love them after they have hurt others so much..maybe, i should show her more love..

its still a struggle to love him, how do i love her?

my lord, my shepherd and provider, please help me.

many told me to keep my options open, matthew 6:33 came up once again..michael recited ecc 3:11a to me..dear lord, i know u are trying to tell me something.

fire

logic is preety simple at times, but still, humans just dun get it.

when you play with fire, you will get burnt. if you are a good player, maybe not so often. if you arent that good, maybe frequently. if you are a seasonal player, maybe once in a quarter. but the bottom line is, you still get burnt.

its like how a professional fire-eater trains himself to 'eat' fire..he gets burnt many times initially im sure..and im sure the burns hurt a whole lot..but the more he trains, the tougher his skin gets, the more tricks he learn to detech his mind from the pain, the lesser burns he gets, and the burns start to sting a little less..but once in a while, not being careful, he still gets burnt..and that once in a while, im sure that burnt must have felt preety bad.

the bottom line is, he is never totally free of not getting burns.

its like sin isnt it?

when we play with sin, we get burnt..when we play with the same sin over and over again..we learn tricks to deal with it, we learn to detech our mind from the gravity of what this sin means, the consquences start to get a little less pain, lesser and lesser till somehow that pain seems to have dulled against our once sensitive senses..but once in a while, being careless, you get burnt, badly..

in the end, you still get burnt, and you pay for those burns.

if one commits the same sin over and over again, do you tink god will still love him? pls assure me that it is so.