amusing

i find it amusing how a person's imagination can enable him/her to tink of situations that would prob nvr occur in life at all..or tink of horrible scenarios like the sky is gonna drop or watever nonsense..i find it amusing that i haf such a mind..

u know, maybe i shld adopt the heck-care attitude..cos when u see thru such lenses..u wouldnt really care or be affected at watever life throws at you..plus, it would make things a whole lot easier and more enjoyable..sometimes, i tink i tink so much that god is silently laughing upthere..he muz be shaking his head and tinking "gosh gurl, for the hundred and fifth time, stop tinking and start trusting. how many times haf i shown u that im there to gather any mess and help u thru anything in the world." yeah, god, how many times? i cant rmb cos there is SO MANY..seriously, take my brain away from mi and let mi be like spongebob, without a care in the world..that would be juz oh-so-nice..

i really hope things turn out enjoyable..rmb wat u told urself ytd! u find it exciting, not dreading! excited excited! u know sometimes, life is abt psycho-ing urself..in nicer terms, to haf positive tinking..lol..dun underestimate the power of the mind..oh yes i rmb this now, someone once said to mi, scared still muz do rite..gosh, wat an irony..

being a spontaneous person has its perks and downfalls..it juz depends on the occasion..gosh rest oh mind..its not good if u keep tinking cos u are making mi feel so sleepy..now i know how escapism comes abt..cos when the mind starts tinking, ur body starts feeling weak..maybe cos more energy haf to be channelled to fuel those made-up scenarios in one's mind..LOL i juz realised how stupid i am..channelling energy to unforeseeable things..wat a waste..alright alright..time to move on..

mistakes done mistakes made..i hate mistakes..cant live with them, cant live without them..argh sucks..

life sucks at this point in time..but it will get better soon, prob in a couple of hrs..the day is young..welcome world..

changed

decided to change layout cos maybe it would inspire mi to blog more..haha..babe of jesus christ, beloved me :D its a monday!! the start of a brand new week and loads of challenges ahead! lemme blog abt my yest, which was really exciting..

first i had ulm, which was once again really fun cos i got to hang out with caregroup..its quite saddening if there is a week without ulm or if anyone of the 8 of us cant make it due to some really unforeseeable reasons such as work..shows how much i enjoy my cg heh..den went for water bap and ting (the ultimate blog spy), tracy and jiamin got baptized! so now its kisha, mia and desiree, which i tink is really nice and im glad they tot abt the meaning of their names before choosing cos i didnt, and i chose the name first without knowing the meaning and i got a shock when i learnt it..priscilla means woman of honor, whoa, a hard name to live up to..but i can do it, with god's help of course..

den we had the ex-jc gathering at tamar's place and we had cg! but worship was cancelled so we played mafia THREE TIMES! and STUPID matthew yong was being irritating and im gonna get back at him VERY SOON..we had tremendous fun and shared abt wat we are doing now, in terms of school and ministry..glad to see us still there and lets pray no one gets missing the nxt time we meet..and thanks tamar for letting us use ur house..heh..1 Cor 3:10-15, i ll always rmb that..

many things going thru my mind recently. i dunno how im gonna go thru it or how im gonna like hang onto till im a-ok..but oh well, i only haf one way to go and that is to strive on..sometimes i tink, wat if there were no one there to support mi? den i get sad and depressed but now, i haf tot of an answer..den i go on myself lor..LOL..i cant believe i didnt tot of that till recently..its quite true that im on a wonderfully amazing journey and trying to bring ppl onto it cos i feel superbly selfish for hording god, but if ppl dun wan..den i done my best i say..

i tink im growing a lot..seriously a lot a lot..wat eelee says is true, even if nothing happens, u can say that u haf grown a lot..and that is enuf..yeah, sometimes ppl can too engrossed in the ministry..i was almost sucked into that horrible lie that satan set up too..being a christian doesnt mean juz doing things, but it means a relationship with jesus..im never alone :) lalala i know wat i gotta change.

bejewelled

hello world..been watching movies lately..cos there are juz so many nice movies popping up like weeds..so ive watched silk, which isnt very nice but made mi cant sleep, the departed, which has the EXACT same plot as infernal affairs, death note, which is wheeee!! i loved it, and the prestige, which is DAMN NICE tho a little sick..haha..

gosh i dun haf any nice things to blog about now and i dun tink anyone is interested in wat i did today or tml and even if u are my secret admirer and do wan to know abt my day..im too lazy to type out stuff here..and i would appreciate it if my secret admirer reveals himself u know..hahah so i wouldnt haf to be stressed..lol..

above is crap.

smile one for mi

u know wat..today was exceptionally cool, cos keith nick and quankai got holy spirit baptized :D:D:D..heard that keith waited for very long already..hahah..at first i tot that maybe shld only baptize keith, but..we cant deny the holy spirit to anyone..so i decided that what the heck, juz holy spirit baptize nick and quankai as well..holy spirit is SO GOOD..who doesnt want him? heh..

reading haf u felt like giving up lately by david wilkerson..he's one of my fav authors! his book the cross and the switchblade really changed my life..

actually when i was bathing juz now i had loads of things that i wanted to blog..but i kinda forgot everything now..oh well..

fellow martians

today's been a LONG day..early in the morning at 12 o clock..i accompanied xiang to cut her hair..den we went to eat lunch which wasnt very nice..tho it was cheap..after that at 3 o clock..we went to surprise daixuan at her house cos it was her bday! llamma came along too..and she wasnt really surprised cos her sis kinda leaked..oh well..

was so tired that i fell asleep at daixuan's place for abt 45 mins..and i didnt wan to wake up to go floorball..hahah wanted to go home and SLEEP..but still managed to convince myself that i needed the exercise..so lounging my forever horribly heavy bag to the mrt, i went to floorball to find out that there were quite a number of ppl there..esp sji :D:D:D..i played 2 games and after not playing floorball for abt 3 weeks..i realise i kinda suck rite now..depressing!

joanne ANG came and we had a talk in which i soon realise that i was kinda falling asleep..ang said i shld go home and rest and since there were so many ppl there anyway, i went home..but on the way i decided that i hadnt exercised enuf..hence, i went swimmng! not for long tho for abt like 20 mins and finished 10 laps..cos i found out that if i swam anymore i tink im gonna haf cramps..hahah lousy mi due to the lack of exercise..plus, i tink i sprained my leg while running ard at floorball and it got worse after my swim..opppss..

swimming at night is good..i love swimming, i enjoy the feel of pulling myself within the water and how my muscles strain to keep up the fast pace i set for myself tho they are screaming STOP ALREADY..and no one is at the pool at night..can swim really fast..u cant feel tired when u are swimming..its only after that, when u get out of the pool denu realise that u are seriously shagged..haha good for a time like this! i can fall into a DEEP sleep and wun tink of anything..

covenant - this word keeps coming into my mind..lets see wat dictionary.com defines it as..

covenant - an agreement, usually formal, between two or more persons to do or not do something specified..

i tink some ppl take this word too casually..i tink im one of them..sighs, i kinda haf a phobia for such things now..u know, sometimes ppl tell u that hey, we make a promise (covenant) between u and mi ok..if anyday one of us decides to backslide, we muz slap the other person and remind each other that we cannot forsake god..but when the day really arrives..i dun tink the person who wans to backslide would care anyway..to them, the decision is made and they juz give it all up..its a facade..everything looks really good when u are doing ok, but things juz fall on deaf ears when u arent doing well..y cant ppl take covenants seriously? im still keeping mine..am i the only fool doing so? but oh well..it keeps mi going..i cant give up, cos that means i lose..and i hate losing..

give mi a J..give mi an O..give mi a Y..wat does it say? JOY..yes, give mi joy :)

greetings

hello my fellow martians..lol..i haven blogged since when..oh juz tuesday..wonder y it seems like such a long time..maybe cos of the lack of words..so many things haf been happening..and these few days always TIRED..cos of SCHOOL..but school is officically OVER!! today's the last day..im a happy gurl.. pictures pictures



















this was taken in the mrt when dear and mi were on the way back home from where ah..oh the museum trip..gave mi the scare of my life cos her eyes opened super big and she was like wth wats that?! den i tot got insect or something..when i turn i saw this..acutally, it looks quite freaky..but hilarious..



















my fav dali sculpture taken at boat quay..when yk and i were there..really very very nice..im totally in love with this piece..


















emu dear and mi after the museum trip..super shagged and we were hanging out at coffeebean at wheelock with murali and jiahao..waiting for mr lee but he didnt turn up cos he waited for mrs lee till really late..and we were all alr on the way home den..he saw some drunk guy vommiting in the bus and told us that disgusting story the nxt day..


















some deutse bank thing rite outside the museum..dear and mi again..lol..


















and this is the art walk from tanjong pagar to city hall..in the morning as early as 9 am..siao one..and our lecturer is like how healthy can?! she walks faster than us!! and she's like 60 plus years old..exercise!!! maybe i shld go swimming tml..but theres floorball tml..hmmm..

xuanting! i keep forgetting to take pics with you..can u remind mi on sat?! thanks :D..

OH AND ITS DAIXUAN'S BDAY!!..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAIXUAN!!

watched 2 movies this week..seems like ive been watching quite a number of movies today..tho not as much as melvin..caught silk last wk with the unit..and that night i couldnt sleep cos i was SCARED..den i watched the departed on tues with eelee..its EXACTLY the same as infernal affairs..we were like, ok we know wats gonna happen nxt and all that..so boring..maybe if we didnt watch the andy lau and tony leung one we would find the departed nice..after all, theres leonardo dicaprio :D:D:D..and today, i watched death note with emu, ayu and wenjun..its really NICE..and the death god is SO CUTE tho he's supposed to look scary..i cant stand the protagonists in the show..they are BOTH so SMART!!..genuises they are..theres death note 2 coming out..i cant wait to watch that..haha..

listening to my pace from sunset swish now..from the anime bleach..its a super nice song..im juz hooked onto it..and i dunno y..been listening to it during the whole 2 games of dota juz now..its so captivating lol..juz like the cross and the switchblade..superbly captivating..AND I FOUND IT FINALLY !! at trumpet praise..got it for jem for his bday..gosh ive been searching for that book for a long long time..and im so glad that i got it for jem..it changed my life..i hope it changes his too..haha..

cg was ALRIGHT! and thats cause for celebration..haha..i like the DTY meetings..reminds mi of ulm..i pray that cg would continue to always be EXCITING cos i cant stand a bored cg..i rather go out and PLAY den go for a boring cg..wats the point? god's there and its supposed to be the most exciting cos theres god..so, cg shld always be exciting..i would like that..haha..

plus, i realise that im a rather spontaneous person..i juz do wat i tink of..like maybe in cg i would wan to do something and i would do it..and get others to join in with mi..like those spastic times where i asked them to do all sorts of weirdifying things..but, everything that i tink of doing, has an objective..cos im not so wuliao to tink of retarded things to do that haf no meaning..cos den, it would simply be a waste of time..and i would rather PLAY den waste time..so, catch my spirit behind it :)

school's over..im happy..i played warlock juz now with the help of llamma..hmmm now, its time to write in the DMW journal..and to tok to god..

damn long time

its been a superbly long time since i blogged..been real tired these few days cos of SCHOOL..seriously, im getting sick of school urgh..cant wait for school to end on thurs..so i can sleep later..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMIAH!!

yk and i juz went to his house to surprise him..and it worked!!..hahha and now i gotta go do my 2nd draft, figure out tml cg teaching and study..its gonna be a long night, and a tired day tml..

exams are over

exams are over but i still haven gotten my pics yet..but nvm i ll prob get them today or something..because the person is coming to my house! haha..school's started and its really tiring cos my schedule is totally changed to waking up at 730 everyday..so early!!..

my mom bought 6 tubs of ben and jerry's ice cream and im so happy!! cos 3 of them are NEW YORK SUPER FUDGE CHUNK! like oh my goodness!! thats my fav ice cream of all time..haha..ben and jerry's remind mi of claire..cos i haven gone to her house to eat yet..lol..but claire thanks for sharing ur stuff with mi..im still here and will be here for you..haha..lets cry and laugh together..

cos i feel like crying now.

anyways, taking the module arts and our world..learning all abt ancient arts and stuff..and the horrible text costs 45 bucks and we all agreed it shld be thicker..tho we wun read it..but at least, u kinda feel that u are paying wat its worth..hahah..glad to be back with the peeps in school..being really spastic and rushing for school cos we all are always somewhere between being on time and being late..

take away the hurt, cos i know u can

hello

im not gonna post till i get some pictures

and when my exam is over

cant wait for cg on fri cos i would get to see the guys again

i kinda miss them

paper

GASP! theres only like 5 days left to exam..and i haven completed my project plus revision..i can sense this impending doom that im gonna DIE horribly..its the same feeling i get when i play dota and i know that if i continue im gonna get killed..

lord really pray that i ll haf the discipline to rush my paper and give mi supernatural speed plus ability as well as..argh i dunno! hmmm..concentration? god i wana trust you..i really do..