candy

first drama prac today was fun..even tho there was only 3 of us..AOC has grown on mi..i cant believe im fitting in so well..fun ppl click well together..hilarious..

as daniel says..the world is my candyland..cheers!

desperate for freedom

its amazing how the human heart works..well, since i dun really wana confide in others wat im tinking..i only haf myself as a judge..so..maybe it aint all hearts but only mine..or maybe..its juz mi..

some ppl say that horoscopes really describe a person's character well..like lets say u are a scorpio, so u are like some passionate time-bomb which explodes at the faces of the ones u dislike..i used to believe this myself too..but i guess..it isnt the horoscope tt defines who u are..its kinda more like..we work to be wat our horoscopes say tt we are..so if im a scorpio and i juz made life hell for someone whom i dislike..i prob ll excuse myself by saying that im a scorpio so i act like tt..makes sense?..

how long has it been?..i said this to emu, i tink tt it is v obvious when i dun like someone..yeah!! she agreed, nodding her head enthusiastically, but depends on the person also la..i said to jiahao..i really try to control and to forgive, but its juz so hard isnt it?..try lor, no one's perfect. juz keep trying..he said..juz keep trying..easier said than done..

it isnt a big secret to those who know mi..that i really make life hell for those whom i dislike or haf done a small thing to earn my wrath..i dun get angry easily, but once i get angry, i stay angry..for a long time..and i hate it..its wrecking mi knowing that i cant stop murderous thoughts from popping into my mind when the person whom i dun like is within seeing range..and as i haf the uncanny 'gift' of spotting people along the streets thru the corners of my eyes..tt is saying a lot..so wat do i do?..now, i try to keep myself as far away from the person as possible so that hurting words wun slip from my mouth..

its hard to forgive ur enemy..its even harder to love them..lord this is crazy!!..how do u expect mi to love them?..its so darn hard!..and im breaking myself into pieces trying even to forgive!!..my mind can turn my best fren into my hated associate overnight..and my anger burns as i run over each small incidents which adds to my fury..and evil tots run thru my mind..i love to see them suffer, my god..im inhuman..i aint all that good myself..wat right do i haf?..take away my evil mind..

im desperate for freedom..

too tired to sleep

yup!!..juz too tired to sleep..its gonna be a busy busy busy month..my eye rings are gonna get darker by the minute!

few ppl came service today cos most were on holidays..but looking forward to nxt week when everyone would be back!!

fierce rehearsals scheduled all the way from nxt wk till christmas..scripts still waiting to be memorised..costumes needed to be finalised asap..its gonna be exciting..

thank god for helping mi thru my exam..he really amazes mi..

well..back to harry potter!!

help quick!!

this gurl is doomed i tell u, doomed.

i haven finish my assignment - burning the midnight oil tonight (hopefully)
i haven studied my text AT ALL - cramming everything in tomorrow (haf to!!)
i haven designed the costumes for camp - after exams (is there enuf time?)
i haven come up with a complete dresscode for xmas - (ll qianjin kill mi?)
i haven did my character analysis - after exams (whew at least there's still time)
i haven plan cg roles - RIGHT NOW (jinqi u are so dead)

im reading harry potter book 5 - theres so much time for it after exams (wat am i doing?!)
im updating my blog - when u can use the time to do assignment (i need to vent!)
im binging - i need to stop eating (maybe its stress?)
im scrolling thru friendster - i haven been there for a long time! (u are so dead)
im wasting time worrying - (you are dead)

who says that it would be easier after the As? i need to listen to my music, it helps mi relax..

sorry for spelling ur name wrongly joyce!..i didnt know it was really CHI-cken tt chi..haha..

back

hi im back!..so sorry to those whom didnt know and tried to contact mi..i was in genting for the past 4 days eating junk food, sitting rides to get myself nauseous, sleeping late waking early, looking out for cute malaysian guys and having a wicked time with my family members..genting's cold..it was a nice change from the sweltering heat here in singapore..its weird but recently im in the craze for coats..maybe its the influence of the winter season where shops like mango and zara are stocking up on winter wear..but its useless really..who would wear a coat here?!..they muz be mad!!..they would melt beneath those layers..however, coats are nice!!..i saw this really nice coat in zara the other day..it was soooo pretty!!..i really really love it..it is lined with fur and white in colour..emu and dear said it was nice!!..im gonna get it when i migrate or sumthing..hahha..

ok back to the topic..genting's a great place but i dun like going there!!..cos of all the people!!..i tink my lifespan was shorten by a year after this trip..the ppl are sooo rude!!..they keep pushing u for everywhere?!..they say singaporeans are kiasu!?..please!!..not only us ok!?..i tink the whole world is kiasu!!..there was this old lady who pushed mi so hard trying to get to the cable car first tt i tripped over the bench and got a big bruise on my knee!!..irritating!!..other than the ppl..its a cool place!!..nice shops (tho the things there aint tt cheap)..cool rides..and really cute shopkeepers..hahha..im serious!!..even my cousins agreed..

my coz got pickpocketed there..it was scary!!..one min her bag was zipped and the nxt it was opened and her wallet was missing..the police there wasnt much use at all..reported lost and stuff..was sure tt she was pickpocketed cos 3 other ppl lost their handphones at the same shop and place as well..damn those ppl!!..hmpf..another thing tt scared mi so bad was..my sis got scalded by one whole big potful of hot tea..it was really really really scary..when u guys haf kids or really young siblings..i guess u ll understand wat i mean when i say they haf diff catergories of crying..like if they dun get wat they wan they haf a cry for tt..when they are angry they haf another kind of crying..and the worst is the kind u hear when they are in pain..cos it is really scary..it chills u to the bone..and tt was the one i heard yest..really loud and screeching..her skin was all red and stuff..it was horrible..and after the whole incident..i was so scared tt i couldnt control my tears..its like..a sort of scared-ness u know..after a great big shock and stuff..thank god she's ok..really thank god..

read the last book of narnia when i was there..tt whole series is really good..oh!!..and i watched 2 movies while in genting!!..harry potter and dragon squad!!..for ur info, my dream husband (as derrick puts it) acted in dragon squad!!..vanness wu u know!!..i had to watch it!!..its quite predictable really..an action packed one and it was nice!..harry potter was quite a disappointment..so many parts of the book were cut out and if i didnt read the book..i wouldnt understand wat was happening..really disappointing..fred and george looked good..puberty was nice to them..but not harry and ron..hermonie is going to be a really preety gurl when she grows up..ahahha..cedric isnt handsome!!..sad!!

no back in singapore..back to studying..exams on friday!!..last module cant wait for it to be over..and i missed church..back to my hectic schedule again..may god support mi..

free?

after looking at choonmin's comments i decided to go to the official Apple website and check out the charger..and this is wat i found..



guess how much it costs?..29 US dollars!!..i mean like..shldnt this come free with all the ipods instead of calling it an accessory and charging such an exhorbitant amount for it?..i read thru the comments of various users and they said when they first bought their ipod mini, this charger came free with their purchase..trust apple to sell this seperately!!..i mean..u are making so much money already and cant u juz give us a free charger?..

tink of ppl who like..go travelling or sumthing?!..who would bring their computers along with them to charge the ipod?!..so i can use my nano for only one day on tour and ta-da!!..the batteries die?!..den wat for do i haf an mp3 player in the first place?!..im not saying i cant afford this charger thing budden like..they shld haf better customer service!!..they cant juz always tink of making money u know!!..this is soooo infuriating!!..

studying

y does an ipod takes so long to charge?!..this is so infuriating..

ive been procrastinating a lot..heres a list of what i haf to do by hook or by crook..

1) pack my bookshelf (been wanting to do this since the end of As)
2) do my assignment BY TODAY
3) do a definate planning of image for xmas and camp
4) buy materials for costumes
5) plan cg BY TODAY
6) read harry potter goblet of fire

im sure theres a lot more..and ive procrastinating!!..this is not good!!..im guilty of one thing today..i woke up late so i missed school!!!..im really really sad abt it..i want to go school!!!..

added a counter so as to boost my ego..HAHA..kidding la..im lazy and bored so decided to do sumthing..see im procrastinating!!!..someone slap mi please!!

waiting for ipod

waiting for my ipod to finish charging so tt i can go to sleep..tml hafta do finish my assignment..yawns..so tired..while waiting..i haf decided to upload fotos again..haha..



this is my current display pic on my msn..taken on 4th nov 2005 itself which is...MY BURFDAY!!..yup yup..hahha..my dearest frens from pj..shu and may..they celebrated my bday at lot and 'surprised' mi with a cake..may..i seriously tink u look better now..i tink its cos of ur glasses..its really nice..hahah..i love this pic!!..cos we all look so happy!!..(and i tink my hair rocks)..



this mi mi and my cake and bouquet..courtesy of may and shu..the rose looks so nice!!..i love roses!!..thank you guys so much..bestest frens 4eva..muacks!!..



mi and shu..hey sorry didnt msg u on ur bday..i will do sumthing special for u nxt yr ok!!..



us again cos i tink this foto is really nice..we look happy again..I KNOW!!..may ur camera is damn good la!!..all the pics we took turn out so nice lor!!..good investment..hahah..the flowers in the middle..(and i tink my hair really rocks)..

actually i kinda miss my long hair..ok it wasnt really tt long..the longest i had was abt halfway down my back..but i was so bored of not being able to do much with it so i chopped it off to wat i haf today..and mary is really doing a great job!!..but when i do the hairstyles of ppl, i ll miss my long hair too..well some ppl dun believe tt i really had long hair..so..this is evidence!!..



ok i look like a cancer patient..mi and my family were at a kelong somewhere in malaysia..gosh i love fishing and going to kelongs..getting cut off from the rest of the world and stuck in the middle of the sea is such a nice feeling..it feels like time never ends and the world is at peace..i love the sea and ocean..



this is mi and emu..my classmate from MDIS/dance partner/fellow crapper/losing weight fren/swimming kakee/ex-pj schoolmate etc etc..if u are wondering y she is dressed like tt dun worry..she usually dresses like this..she's mad..HAHA..im kidding la!!..emu was working for her coz so she had to wear this costume thing..actually its quite nice lor..she was embarrassed to eat lunch alone so mi and jiahao went to acc her..



another pic of mi and her..btw im wearing the jacket tt my cg gave mi for my bday..its soo nice!!..thanks u guys so much!!..



this pic is damn ugly!!..jiahao wanted to try with the flash on and it turned out as a disaster!!..our skin looks..sickly..and we look too pale..oh well..hahah..

lemme check whether my ipod has finished charging..HAVEN..wah lau..i wan to slp already!!..and i tink its a waste of money to keep the com on while i sleep..blah..they shld haf a charger for ipod lor..wat happens if my com spoilt?!..hmpf..

full of nonsense

juz woke up from a nap..wana go sleep again..tired..yawns..school tml again..kinda like this module + lecturer..guess sumtimes i cant be too picky u know..im paying the money and im gonna study regardless of who is the lecturer..got my results back for PR already..A again!!..whew!!..im so happy..god helps mi so much..

went to play fatal frame 2 with the gurls yest at x-square..not only were we there but like the whole of central b and c were there too..and all the gurls were screaming whenever like the ghost pops up or sumthing..come to tink of it now..it was kinda hilarious tho..hahah..the guys were like, wats so scary?..nothing wat..guess u know like if theres more than 3 gurls together watching or playing some kind of horror movie den..when one gurl starts to scream..the whole grp scream too??..and since there were like more than 20 gurls there yest..the screaming was preety loud yeah..hahah..surprisingly, it was miss janey who suggested to play the game..surprised surprised..hmmmm..

caregroup outing for gurls..tanning at sentosa this week..going genting on friday..so fast..hahha..

we are idiots

blog blog blog..lemme tell u sumthing which happened today..sumthing tt made all of us look like the world's biggest idiots..we can form a pop group or sumthing..

this was wat happen..school ended at 5..mi jiahao emu ayu and kai were on the way to the mrt to go home..as we walked out of the school gate..we saw the MDIS shuttle bus..(background: the shuttle bus goes back and forth from queenstown mrt and my school)..jiahao shouted,"hey got shuttle bus!!..wan to go a not?"..and us being such a lazy bunch of ppl..we rushed up to the queue and went up..on the road, we realised the bus didnt turn to the mrt..so emu said..maybe its going to redhill..(btw emu stays in queenstown)..guess wat!!..the bus didnt turn to redhill either..so panicking a little..we asked the person in front of us..and wat she said freaked us all out so badly..the bus was going to.....KATONG!!..wat the?!..katong leh!!..so we were praying praying praying and den..jaihao mustered up the courage to ask the bus driver to stop when we were at bugis..so..we ended up at bugis..and emu stayed at queenstown!!!..hahhaha..we are the world's most perfect idiots..thank you very much..

watched pride..love is juz a game..game over?..maybe..no, must be..

work?

announcement: anyone wants to work as waiter/waitress?..6 bucks per hr..preferably in northeast area..at seletar camp..urgent i guess..contact mi ok..

thanks to all

i haf been greatly blessed today..really seriously greatly blessed..yes i was expecting a celebration and all that from all the peeps in hope..BUT..not tt big one and was definately not expecting so many gifts..seriously..

ok this post is gonna be like a thank you post, so its gonna be rather long..juz scroll down and see look for ur name..dun haf to read the others if u dun wan to..hahaha..ok pls note tt the names here are only peeps from hope whom celebrated my bday today..so..yeah..hahah..with all the affirmations that i ve got today..now its my turn to say sumthing in return..

SHEEPS

xiangyu: thank you SO much for the effort you put into making the card..from the bottem of my heart, i really thank you..the motiffs at the sides rocks and so does the design (tho it was all guys)..hahah..i know u did till real late yest and i juz wana say i love you so much for all tt u haf done for mi!!..and also thank you for ur present of the jacket and the vouchers..seriously i wasnt expecting you guys to give mi 2 items..i tot it was only the jacket..i was shocked at the 2nd present of the vouchers..serious..hahah..i thank god how we haf grown to be so close and how we can chat and pour out our probs..u rox!..u arent juz my sheep, but my fren as well..

ruisi: thanks for the vouchers and the jacket!!..and also for tt wonderful brush..hahah..im using it now as im typing this..and yes i know u love mi very much too..once again..juz wana say..i love u very very much too!!..hahaha..all da best for ur As ok, i ll be praying for you..jia you and do well!!..after ur exams we ll go fellowship and i ll ask u all sorts of difficult-to-answer questions again..ahahha..be prepared!!..the road which we haf walked together is amazing..i look back and see how much closer we are and i thank god so much for you as my sheep..and i thank god more for u as a crazy fren..

choonie: hey tho u haven been my sheep long but we haf been frens for long!!..hehe..isnt it funny how we wanted to be spiritual buddies and now we are shepherd and sheep?..thanks a lot for the present!!..all da best for ur Os k..i ll also be praying for you..do well!!..i know u can and will..u haf gone thru many things but the fact tt u are staying on means u ll only get stronger..god bless you gurl and thank you for being with mi on my bday..

janey: thanks for the waterfall yeah..hahaha..i wun forget tt..nxt yr your turn..also thanks for the presents and ur note to mi..you are really my good fren since i forgot when le..hahaha..yes i ll give u double for xmas la u petty gurl..(juz kidding!)..anyways this might seem surprising to you but im really relieved that u are afraid of revelations..hahah..because it means tt u wun fall away from god..and with the right motivation..u are going to be someone tt even u urself would admire..obedience is a very impt thing in a christian's life..i wun say much..u march on gurl..i will always be by ur side..

cheryl: last but DEFINATELY not least is you..on my bday, i wana thank you for opening up to mi..hahah..u are an amazing person and very very fun to be with..thank you loads for ur present!!..thank YOU for being such a great sheep and fren..i see how much we haf progressed since we first met and im amazed at the relationship we haf now..but definately, we can become even more..love you loads gurl..

FELLOW CLS

llamma: thanks a lot for coming to the dinner today..like really thank you..cos i know u wana study for As yet u still came..i appreciated it very much..hahha..thanks for the jacket and the card too..sumtimes i tink tt we are really full of nonsense you know..and sumtimes we can crap so much and not get any work done..i know we made mistakes when we first started out but..we will learn, right?..hahah..great to haf u as my support and my fellow CL..we will grow those JCs and make those who say the JC grp cant grow eat their words..all da best for ur As!!..and also thanks for enduring all my nonsense..(yes i do know tt i always scold you)..and yes i feel previleged tt im one of the four gurls tt u can tok with..hahah..

dan: thanks for the dinner and the present that you and the rest of central 2 CLs gave mi..you really are a brother who is full of crap!!..(in a nice way)..hahah..all da best for ur As too!!..i ll keep u and llamma in prayer..and thanks for saying tt im smart!!..hahah..take tt jiehui!!..and thanks for ur affirmation..it really means a lot to mi..gong gong nxt sat yeah..

angela: yo fellow PI..thanks for coming to the dinner when u haf to study for ur Os..really appreciate it a lot..and ur card is sooo nice!!..yes we dunno each other much but its funny how much we haf to say to one another..thanks for the present too..i ll keep u in prayer k..u are a great sister and one who is so much fun..looking forward to know u more after ur exams!!..lemme tink whether i haf any more news(gossip) to tell u soon..hahah..thanks for the affirmation..it meant loads to mi..luv ya loads!!

samuel: thanks for the present and the dinner!!..also wana thank you for being the ONLY guy who can tolerate my crap without making any stupid remarks after u hear all my jokes..u really are the only person who juz smiles even after hearing the lamest joke ever possible to haf been created..thanks for the affirmation and encouragement..really appreciate it..and rmb our transaction ok?!..muz ah!!..hahah..

elise: gurl, you are really a wonderful sister to mi..thanks for the shawl and the dinner..going out with u is v relaxing and enjoyable..read ur note and yes!..we muz get to know each other better..now i know wat is ur love language, i know wat to do le..haha..thanks for the affirmation and excouragement..it left an impact on mi..love you loads!

jiehui: ok this is to you..surprised surprised?!..thanks for coming to the dinner and for ur affirmation..yes i rmb all the times back in PT when i was juz bo chap..haha..juz wana say tt u might be the youngest but definately NOT the weakest..in fact, the strongest..cos god put u there..so god ll give u his strength..haf courage to do his work k..u haf been a really annoying yet entertaining brother..hahaha..thanks for the card too!!..

hey fellow CLs..since now we are all under AOC already..let there be no more segregation in out different groups..lets scrap the idea of central 2 and central f and concentrate on being juz one grp, AOC ok?..im looking forward to tt day..

LEADERS

shuyi: dearest shepherd!!.. i love you loads!!..i cant bear to see annoying ppl come up to you and bully you!!..but i cant go there and give them a piece of my mind cos that is not portraying the love of god..so you muz take care of urself and protect urself ok?!..i ll be ur armour-bearer in any way i can but sumtimes, i can only do so much..anyways wana thank you for ur note and ur bday present..i love the song saturate..hahah..all da best for your exams!!..looking forward to the nxt shepherding!!

key: wana thank you for the card, dinner and the present..i love the pink billabong strap!!..hahah..thanks for organizing this dinner for mi and also for ur LONG affirmation, which i really do appreciate a lot!!..but most imptly, i wana thank you for ur trust in mi and the opportunities tt you gave mi to stretch my abilities..u always force mi to do the scariest things tt i would NEVER envision myself doing (like teaching seed), hence shaping mi to do more for god..and i know tt u are not a lousy shepherd la u insecure thing..you really are a very open and approachable person..and i thank god for a leader like you..AOC ll surely grow..it will not pass us..haha..

SPIRITUAL BUDDIES

puay: thanks for calling mi for the affirmation..hahaha..i nvr tot we can become how close we are now..its funny how god works isnt it?..and thanks for the card too..i will take good care of it since u dun write long ones often..heh..thanks for the times toking to mi on the fone till i fall asleep..ahhaha..wherever we go, we will always be good frens and use all our abilities to the fullest ok?..get mi the present after ur As ba..muacks!!

xinyi: thanks so much for the card!!..simple and sweet..SO UNLIKE YOU!!..tt means there is sumthing more after tt..hahaha..u haf been a fantabulous fren to mi..always pulling mi out of the deep dark ravine of sin..i wouldnt know where i would be without you..on my bday i wana thank you for ur patience and perserverance in guiding and teaching mi..tho we dun tok much now but i know our relationship will never be diluted..actually i haven given u ur present too..hahah!!..all da best for ur As..after ur exams..we will kumbaya and haf fun again ok..love you loads!!..

SISTERS + BROTHERS

choonmin: thank you for the lipgloss!!!..and tt wonderful card with ur pic and mine..u really are a very very sweet sister..i mean it!!..hahaha..i bet u are like choking now..i dun care..u still are a very sweet sister..thanks for crapping with mi and tinking up of nonsense all the time..we will continue to be good frens one la..i really hope u can motivate mi to run man..im juz too lazy..u are mature for someone ur age..and tt to mi, is beautiful..lets work hard in keeping up with god and not lose hold of him ok?!..luv ya!!

central f peeps: thanks all for your messages!!..they really touched my heart..i LURVE central f to the max!!..we muz continue to work hard ok..cos we are the pioneer batch..and god has given us this job of spreading the gospal..mi llamma and jiehui cannot make it if it were not for ALL of you guys..each and everyone of you is precious to mi, and to the whole team..thank you for showing mi how much u peeps love mi during this special day..i will nvr forget each and any one of you..dun pang seh us in this marathon for god ok..

siong guan: HAHA i didnt expect u to rmb mi bday..thanks a lot!!..all da best for your As!

victor: hey thanks for coming up specially to mi to wish mi happy birthday..tho its a simple move but it left an impact on mi..you really are a special brother to mi..ive seen u grown and am sooo proud of you..even tho u are quite young, but having undergone all tt u haf went thru..i really admire u for ur perseverance and faithfulness..god has a special plan for u..im very sure of it..u muz continue holding on to god thru every situation ok?..all da best for ur As!!..i ll keep u in my prayers..camp is coming soon again..are u excited?..

alvin: haha you really surprised mi by knowing my bday..thanks a lot..ur hair rox!!..

albert: stupid idiot!!..hahah..thanks for the bday greetings..

MESSAGE

ok i tink tts the end of it..yup..if i rmb any more i ll add it here..

sumtimes when we haf worked so hard,
putting our best, our soul and our blood.
it disappoints oneself to see and tink,
that all one's efforts amount to nothing.
the feeling of wanting to quit lays strong,
and the body tires after so long.
but because of the people that surronds us in church,
we persevere and hang on, leaving satan in the lurch.

it is because of all u guys tt im still here..and i thank you for tt..if u wana pray for mi on my bday..pray for these 3 things:
1) tt on 4th nov 2006, i will look back to 4th nov 2005 and confidently say to myself: 'God, i know u so much better',
2) tt god has mercy on my family and allow them to come to know him soon, and
3) tt by nxt yr, AOC has grown stronger physically and spiritually.

came and went

and thus, so my burfday ends..well, the day itself anyway..celebration with frens still continues on..a big shoutout of THANKS!! to all who haf msged mi and wished mi happy birthday..so sorry if i didnt reply u but i figured out if i did..my handfone bill ll explode..i only replied those peeps whom i haven seen or heard of in a lonnnggg while..so if i didnt reply u, tt means u are my good fren..ahahaha..

went out for dinner with family yest at guess where..jack's place again!!..hahah..yeah may i know i told u long beach..but my sis fell sick so went somewhere nearer lor..also thanks to may and shu for the mini bday celebration u two had for mi..may u cant lie!!!..ahhaha..so funny..and the rose is beautiful..send mi the fotos soon!!

also tks to missy jane for the waterfall..on ur bday i treat u to it also ok..i dun care!!..u dun hum ji ah i tell u..u better drink it too..send mi the pic too ok..and also to lulu, who pai seh mi by asking for a birthday song..luckily no one else was there ah..or else i ll kill u..hahha..

parents getting mi a nano!!..yeah!!..so so so happy..

birthday!!

its my bday tml!!!..yipee!!..im so so so excited!!..its not tt i want to remind all tt its my bday..im juz really excited tt its coming soon!!..u dun really haf to give mi presents or anything..this time im gonna celebrate it well cos..theres no freaking As this year!!!..WOO-HOO!!!..

i wonder wat should i do after dinner with my parents..i tink i can be excused to come home later tml cos its my special day!!..hahah..now who wants to date mi!?

the poem

i knelt to pray but not for long,
i had too much to do.
i had to hurry and get to work,
for bills would soon be due.
so i knelt and said a hurried prayer,
and jumped up off my knees.
my christian duty was now done,
my soul could rest at ease.

all day long i had no time to spread a word of cheer.
no time to speak of christ to friends,
they'd laugh at mi i'd fear.
no time, no time, too much to do,
that was my constant cry.
no time to give to souls in need,
but at last the time, the time to die.

i went before the Lord,
i came, i stood with downcast eyes.
for in his hands God held a book;
it was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said,
"your name i cannot find.
i once was going to write it down,

but never found the time."

at the edge of a cliff

i stood at the edge of a cliff,
looking down at the waves crashing into the rocks.
i feel the wind blowing against mi,
and breathe in the smell of salt.
i looked at the blue-ish green of the ocean,
which stretched as far as i could see, finally meeting with the setting sun.

i stood there and took everything in,
seconds, minutes and hrs passed.

i look up to the black sky over my head,
and gazed in wonder at the many stars that shine ever so brightly.
i closed my ears and listen intently,
and hear the calls of the whales as they cross the oceans.
i stretched out my hands,
and feel the soft spray of the ocean against them.

i took a step ahead,
and feel the coldness of the water as they embraced mi.

wat did it mattered if i died?
because the earth would still keep spinning.
the gulls would still be flying across the ocean.
the waves would still come, and the sun would still rise.
the stars would still shine, and the wind would still continue circling the earth.

suddenly, nothing seems important anymore. always carry ard a spirit of joy and thanksgiving. worry bout nothing and live ur life to the fullest. because in the end, the world would still continue on, even without you. i thank god that im alive.

work is fun..im a lucky gurl..