BT supper gang

the bukit timah supper gang went out for supper again yest! minus a considerably large amount of ppl namely - qianjin, derrick and ruisi who pang seh-ed us :( well, also partly cos we went out so late..at abt midnight..so anyways, the handful of us - mi xiang ben and xinyi decided that we shall juz go out and enjoy our long awaited supper time anyway..along the way, we found jiayi at yishun (after a LONG ride) and settled down at chomp pang nasi lemak for supper..oh my goshie! the chicken wing rocks my socks!! really..if u haven eaten at chomp pang before, please go there and eat the chicken wing/drumstick..superbly nice :D:D:D

and we haf to really thank benwai for driving us all around and den sending us back to our individual houses after supper..which ended at like 245am..he was so sleepy and i was trying my bestest to keep him awake in the car haha..alright!! next time i will drive!! which reminds mi that i haf to sign up for my basic theory test SOON..

school has officially ended..no more going back for classes..no more falling asleep in class..no more hearing the various interesting tidbits of news that seems to leave no rest to the different grps in my class..no more joking with jackies how we seem to be the most bochap ppl in the class..no more seeing ayu doodling nonsensical stuff on the table..no more nuggets! :( goodbye education, welcome corporate! im not looking forward to that..it might be better if i do find a job that i like..

its the first time in like almost a decade since i last watched a channel 8 drama..and i started watching again!! this time its the 9pm show switched!..partly also cos it was shot at my school and i wanted to see how lousy jenatte aw really is..cos that was the impression she gave mi when i saw her acting..well, maybe its part of the script, who knows rite haha..all i know was at that time, the jackies and i kept hearing the director scolding her like MAD..she's evil in the show anyway..xiang and i watched till we almost wanted to grab her out of the tv and give her a bashing..EVIL! and she cant act btw..lol..

jenny's flying off to cambodia today..i hope she learns loads of stuff over there and come back and share it with me :) so excited to go out for missions now..im so not looking forward to looking for a permanent job after i graduate..cos i wana take the chance to do a lot of things that i would never get the chance to do if i found a permanent job..things like, going for missions, learning driving, learning french, stuff like that..i had it planned that im gonna work part time or freelance or something till end dec this year, save enuf money to get mi an air tix and fly off to America to work next year..5 months after i graduate! thats a lot of time indeed! i can so use this chance to fly to other countries..

i know wats the prob with me..i hate commitment..i honestly cant rememeber anything in my life ive ever been committed to except for staying on in hope for 4 years..and honestly, im quite surprised that ive stayed on for so long..time passes real fast huh haha..goes to show that theres something abt god's love that has managed to capture this short attention span of mine for a considerably long period of time..

oh gosh, im in the mood to rant :) which is kinda good, cos i haven got this feeling for a very long time..and how can a sanguine stop rattling off watever that comes to her mind? hahaha..so many things that are happening in my life..school's ending soon, exams coming up, changes in my grp soon, the corporate scene beckoning mi to join into an endless cycle of boring work etc etc..somehow i feel that im juz drifting along, and i feel, that im not maximising my strengths enuf to add value to the kingdom of god..hmmm..but god juz told mi wat i can really do now, is to study hard and do my best in my exams..which im still procrastinating at..stop procrastinating! start writing ur assignment!!

i haven posted up pics of my US trip huh..theres so much fotos that i simply lose any interest in uploading them on blogger whenever i gather enuf courage to face the humongous stack of fotos..

ok i shld start on my assignment..this post makes absolutely no sense and adds no value to anyone..lol..

busy

im starting to really dislike the word busy..everyone's busy..everyone always has stuff on..so wats everyone busy with? they cancel out on you cos some impt stuff juz happens to pop up suddenly..when ppl haf been so looking forward to it..

everyone's busy.

where's the time for frens?

so, wat goes on inside?

i realized i haven updated my blog for quite sometime..so i was ransacking my daily life for the past few days to come up with something exciting to write abt..something that might capture ppl's attention, or something that would be somewhat nice for one's reading pleasure..

and i find that im trying too hard.

so, i shall do wat i like to do best..ramble on like no one's business and type down wat im feeling, or wat ive learnt, or wat im so currently into, or wat i love the most..sometimes i do come to a conclusion, that im one conflicting, confused gurl..

there are many concidences in the world..juz today, i found out that one of my fren's fren is the brother of a fren whom i knew back in secondary school..

gosh, i really haf no motivation to continue on this post any longer..and i really dunno why..maybe its the weather, maybe its due to the feeling of being real sticky cos i haven had my bath yet..or maybe its cos my eyes are feeling super dry and i hate it! or maybe cos, something (prob the holy spirit) is poking mi every now and then to remind mi to give the best time of the day to god, and not to give the remaining time..

so im going to go off, and pray to god. maybe i ll post again later..i really dunno wat im feeling now..

yesterday

i was superbly proud of myself yest cos i woke up at 745 am and rushed out of the house by 8..and i reached school early!! explains my black eyebags and ruffled look..

but i wasnt very proud of myself today..cos i woke up at 710, somehow switched off my alarm, and woke up to a jump at 1030am..so i didnt go to school today..im really upset abt that..and worse, i didnt do much today :( i really procrastinate too much..well, god forgives me! and ive started reading stuff, and doing my script for unplugged this saturday! im gonna study at the library with mr lee tml, shall mug hard for quiz!

met up with many ppl yest, and i tink i had a really fruitful time of fellowship indeed! first-up, i met half of y-budd gang, jasmine and junyao at city hall to catch up..as usual, junyao started taking a lot of pictures and a lot of them were UGLY..its a whole bunch of pics of mi and jasmine, so i lumped them all together..

jasmine and mi..beauty before brains club!!!

and this is the acting dumb/cute poses..ended up at gelare where they ate waffles, but i didnt cos i had another date later at gelare too..

we didnt do much, juz sit down and chatted, update one another abt our lives and figured out how each of us were doing..missed jac and dewen badly! so hoping that we can haf a full y-budd gathering in the really near future..

i really like talking to christians that haf chosen to stay really long in hope..cos hope isnt a church thats for ppl who wana slack, seriously..at the end of the day, when u haf served god for so long, u come to the realization that the only reason why u are still serving ur guts out in a church like hope, is simpy because he loves you, and no matter wat happens, u will still serve..all the practicalities, occasional negative thoughts, endless excuses that we've tried to come up with for not serving, fails in comparison with the wonderful amazing love and grace of jesus christ..so in the end, lord, not my will but urs be done :)

im glad i haf good frens in church.

after that, i went off to haf shepherding with jenny! who is going to cambodia for missions at the end of the month..i forgot to take a picture with her! hmpf..angry at myself for that haha..and i didnt know she reads blog!! really inspired and encouraged by jenny..my shepherd rocks my socks!

ended the day by having dinner and dessert with sandy and ting..bumped into many others along while sitting there..like key, harry, leon, zelanie and abigail..and we all sat down, ate waffles, and played real spastic games ard that tiny table..haha i miss them so :) its awesome to see youth serving god..and its awesome to know that in heaven, we will all see one another forever and ever and ever..

my room

i was reading some school material late one night, after i did my QT and connect journal, when i looked ard my room and realize wat a horrible messy state it was in..and for some rather warped reason, i find myself tinking that this was the best place one could ever haf wished for in a lifetime..i really really do like my room very much..after all, ive been staying here for the past lets see, 8 years?

and my room has bore witness to all my crazy frens that haf the privilege to come here, and for some, even to stay in my cosy little place which i value a lot..now how many frens would that be i wonder..some dwcg ppl, ex-shepherds and ex-sheeps, jackies (esp for halo, which we all loved! prob not emu tho), the sji guys, y-budd..

i declare that my room rocks! and to prove so, i took a few pictures of how it looks like every day..

my other source of peace, joy, comfort and rest, apart from jesus christ haha..the 4 most impt ppl that accompany mi to sleep at night..the 5th's dumbo, tho he's hidden somewhere cos he's so small..

my beloved tv..the best thing that happened to me when i shifted in..ive got an x-box, a dvd player, and scv connected to this thing..loads of wires running on its back..and one of the most impt thing in my room - the tissue box! it has to be right there, at that spot..i need it!

my awfully messy table which supported mi right thru many exams..and this horrible computer which im going to change soon and very soon cos its so darn slow! i need a new com badly :(

my bookshelf which i never bothered to clear till my mom's nagging becomes too unbearable..

the personal corner..where i position all those creams so i can reach them whenever i need to..messy, of course..

and the only two posters that are on my walls!

willy wonka!! i really really like johnny depp, so i wouldnt mind if someone wans to give mi a pirates of the carribean poster too :D gerald is prob cringing at the sight ofwilly wonka..

and of course! vanness :) THIS is a need!

yeah i really do like my room indeed, all it lacks now is a fridge and i can literally live inside my little cosy corner..and i like it messy! wats the point of a neat room i do wonder..when u haf a neat room, its not a room anymore..its a SHOWFLAT..and people dun live in showflats! they live in real homes! and where ppl haf lived, that place tends to be messy..i like it in this state..tho i do appreciate certain frens who tidy up my room for me every now and then..saves mi one more day of nagging from the mom :)

camp

HELLO!


im back from adults camp in malaysia!! and u know wats the best thing?! its the first time that my parents allow mi to go overseas for church camp!! my mom even said that make sure its church stuff and not other things..gosh!! im starting to see god work in my family..soon, my dream of all my family members in church is gonna come to pass..im so so so excited!!

adults camp has really been great..even tho i only attended it thru the weekends..but im glad i went in the end..talked alot to veron on the way to malacca and sang childhood cartoon themesongs on the way there..im so sad that u are leaving, really :( when i reached, i was juz in time for a sermon by pastor simon eng..pastor simon is a very happy pastor..he is like the smiling buddha, always smiling one..and he looks like he's got the joy of the world in his heart..of course, he has jesus christ :D and he encouraged mi a lot..pastor jeff preached the remaining 2 sermons i attended..and pastor jeff is sure one good speaker indeed! im so inspired by him after the camp..now i look at my life, and i know a direction im working towards..thank god for camp, and thank god for god..



i bunk-ed in with ms wynnie during the camp..and i talked a lot to her at night before we were too tired and drifted off to sleep..seriously, im quite thankful that wynnie's in the grp, and that we can get along really well..im so excited to go thru adults with ya..thanks for telling mi a lot of stuff abt urself..somehow we are similar in certain aspects of our lives..ive heard abt u from others..but knowing u personally is simply a wonderful thing that god blessed mi with :)

tamar, wynnie and me..

priscilla and priscilla!!! this is my beloved UL..who inspired mi a lot on the way back from malacca..and you helped mi understand some things that i was going thru with someone..and im like, enlightened LOL..thanks a lot..i will do my very best to contribute to the group..

apart from that..xinyi and mi celebrated shuyi's 21st bday today..both of them went off on an adventure to find a closed golden mile food court before ending up at island creamery for the day..and i went there to surprise the bday gurl, whom didnt know i was going there..and xinyi is very lousy, she used mi as a surprise :( im number 21..

the birthday gurl and her island creamery apple pie and ice cream cake!

ok, started taking spastic pictures..but shuyi cannot make it HAHA..

these are frens whom remind mi that - frenships do not depend on the frequency of meeting :)

check it out

oh man, this is cool..check it out..it's sung by an indonesian christian band..seriously not bad..i wan the song on my ipod-y..

afraid

the one thing that im most afraid of, besides that of anyone close to me dying, is of ppl whom i love start changing..

im very afraid, that one day when i speak to frens whom i haven met up for a long time, to realize that they haf somewhat changed..that they arent whom i have known in the past..im very afraid, that one day, my closest frens would change to be strangers..

maybe that is why i used to believe in meeting up frequently..for im very afraid that u guys will change..

as we each move on with our lives, meeting new frens, doing new things, learning new stuff, making new mistakes and accomplishing new things..would we still remain the same? would u still haf me in ur hearts?

im very afraid, that someday, i ll get replaced.

my free days

hello! i haven been a good girl today cos i didnt study much before i went off to play dota :( so i shall make it up later by reading all of teddy roosevelt before i knock out..but on the other hand, i tink reading american reborn will knock mi out preety quick..

but before i do that, i shall give a little update on my outing with ms cheong wyn nie..gosh! thats her name you know..no chinese name, juz wyn nie..how zai la..i also wan like that..i rmb cheryl sim also got no chinese name..juz cheryl sim..alright! next time when i have children i shall do that to them..den they can choose their own chinese name! haha..

so anyway, we went vivo to eat den shop and walked ard! gosh, we had better discussed our script in camp really really soon haha..ate at toast box cos poor her had her braces tightened and it was preety painful for her to chew anything..braces seems preety painful :S haha i guess we managed to identify with quite somethings, cos we both transferred from youth to adults..and i guess we made a somewhat pact to go thru adults together :)

she wore this killer heels that day and i was so not used to having gurls taller than me lol..ok that sounded quite sucky but, its the truth! deal with it lol..and i tink this pic of us looks really nice! hmm, wat does god haf in store for us i wonder..time will tell ba :D

apart from having a whale of a time with wynnie..i went for teochew porridge lunch date with adel and emu..ended up taking spastic pictures..after lunch ended, we met up with wenjun and did NOTHING for the rest of the day..we are best at procrastination and wasting time..this is an example: adel - ok how are we going to do the activities that we planned? me - hmmm, i guess we will find some way, probably procrastinate and shuffle somehow and ta-da! we'll get there..sighs, not a really healthy lifestyle huh..

started taking look cool and spastic poses..

im sure there are somemore lor..but ms adel didnt post them on her blog lol..or is my memory playing tricks on me hmmmm..

and last but not least, a pic of ayu and me!! who were damned bored in class so we decided to risk getting caught, took my fone in the air and snapped this ugly shot haha..

okok time to go read! byes!

challenge

a challenged issued by you, the two weeks deadline that u set. im taking you on, and u had better not let mi go easy.

i wan a brand new me, i wan a breakthru after two weeks. u said that it is possible, and im taking ur word for it. u said that u will go thru it with me, im trusting you den.

im loved by you. im so loved by you. wow. im sure that i can go thru this, cos im working within victory.

god, help me.

loads to say

im so sleepy :( but if i sleep now, i dun tink i can ever wake up by 1030 to record my mom's show..and if i dun record her show, she will kill me when she gets back from genting (my family hates it when one another dun help to record their shows - we will be called irresponsible ppl who dun give a hoo-hoo abt the family)..and so yes, im home alone, till wed..that means i can go overnight, or ppl can come my house for overnight..

and so, ive decided that i shall upload loads of pictures on wat ive been doing for the past few days..as ive been busy watching corner with love in all my free time, i shall take this chance to upload everything here..

yest was BOX outing day!! to celebrate sue-anne and wui's bday..its been AGES since i met up with these kool frens of mine so i was super excited! and yes we took a lot of pics..BUT not as much as i wanted to take..gosh, im becoming super lazy to use my fone to take pics now..

bday gurl wui and me!

angel's hair is gorgeous i tell u! i wan locks like hers! and NO she doesnt perm her hair, its 100 percent natural..so preety!! and han has grown preetier too!! gosh, everyone's grown preetier..haha

OH let mi introduce you to afton chan sihan..she is a protege fashion designer..ive asked her to design my wedding gown in future and im sure she would do an awesomely superb job! she juz won some fashion designing contest thing and she got into the semi-finals for another project! PLUS u know the internship challenge? she's on it! every saturday 930 pm on channel U i tink..muz go see alright..her fashion sense, clothes she designs are really really fantabulous..when im famous in future, i shall wear all of her clothes! haha..rmb her name cos u will definately see it in stores in future "AFTON"

so back to the topic..pictures of our three appetizers..

heavenly tasting nachos with spinach and antichoke dip..(where two selfish dipper dipped everything before sue got here HAHA)..

chicken salad which is really nice..BUT i still like cafe cartel's chef salad the most..

real cheesy garlic bread with nice tasting tomatos..these are the only tomatos ive ever eaten in my entire life (that doesnt count ketchup)

the two bday gurls..PLUS dumbass me forgot to tell u guys where we went to eat..forum's california pizza kitchen..and we surprised these two chicks by asking the manager to bring up the cake after we had our dinner with the candles lit, and we started to sing their bday song..im sure the both of them were touched :)

hung out at cine's xing wang cafe after that..

and let end off with a foto of sue doing her usual stuff..having a NOT normal face while taking pics..her face's never normal in pics!

really love boxies! meet up again soon!

dear came over to tan on thursday before we were supposed to eat our teochew porridge..but yes! my fault, i forgot to check the timing and we realized lunch is only from 12-2 pm..so we didnt get to eat that..sorry dear..but we went to wisma food republic for our sergeant chicken rice instead :D and emu bird met us there..

reminds mi of the states.

i shed a few tears (alright not that few) in service today..went hopekids in the morning with veron and i was reminded of the guys in CB3..i actually saw ben lam there!

i miss those cheeky but really sweet boys :) i rmb their balloons, joseph that they gave mi, and the cake during the farewell, which most of it ended up mine and june's faces..

den i tot of caregroup..and i miss them too..god! why did u make mi to haf such active tear glands?! hmpf..so i went home, and read my little brown book of promises..of which i haven posted its pic before..

xiao mao drew it..isnt it beautiful? haha..and den, im reminded that frenships does not equal to the frequency of meetings..

YES vanness and me at the back :D my caregroup sure knows mi indeed haha..

wynnie CHEONG and me talked quite a bit today..and i was so shocked to find out she lives at balestier! i always tot she lived somewhere in serangoon or something..but anyways, thanks gurl for sharing ur life with me..

and she bought dumbo for me!!! i lost the previous dumbo that eelee gave mi..SORRY SHEPHERD..its somewhere in my house..i promise ya i will find it real soon..den i will haf two dumbos :D:D:D

dumbo looking so cute!! and they added toenails (alright hoofs if u wan it that way) to him!! couldnt resist taking a few pics with him..cam whoring time..

ok mr lee has juz passed the verdict for gogogo time..gotta go now!! bye!