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so many words going thru my mind now and all i wana do is punch her..real hard in the face and hear her bones crack, maybe that ll wake her up..many things i would love to say but i wun..i guess, this frenship aint so strong after all..haha..isnt it weird that the frenships i make always seem not to last..hmmm maybe its time to start looking for frens in the right places..this kinda sucks rite now..

thanks mila for encouraging mi whenever i come online..and im looking forward to ur cheesesticks..glad that everything between you and ur bestest fren is a-ok..hahah..i cant wait to bake cookies with you too..lol..i hope wat happened to mi didnt affect you a lot cos u said she encouraged you when u were down and now she does all these things..cos i ll be here always, and i ll never lie to you..god is good, and i ll stick with him forever :)..

sandy u really showed mi so much concern thru this whole period and im really really grateful..we used to only laugh at silly things i guess this thing has brought us closer to one another..its only thru tough times that you know whos ur true-st frens i guess..thanks for being one of them..

my dear sheep xuanting also..haha i like getting ur sms-es cos its really nice and i know that u are there..really like spending time with you and toking abt all the things under the sun..ahah..cant wait for our nxt shepherding and i pray that ur promos would do fine :D..

and to xiang also for calling mi at sms-ing mi at unearthly hours to chat and asking mi to wake u up..tho i dun tink ive been doing a good job..haha..really takes my mind off things u know..guess its kinda harder now cos of horrible EXAMS..but thats ending on sat so..singapore dreaming nxt wk? haha..

thanks to winnie too! my beloved DMW sister..and to the whole DMW which key always says that its VERY IMPORTANT!!..lol..hope our nxt outing would be MUCH faster than yesterday's one..dun take 4 months to plan anymore hahah..

so i (maybe) lose a fren but i get so many more closer frenships in return..would u consider that a trade-off? nah, im not so shallow..yes i ll be praying for her to return too..hopefully..i wouldnt like to make myself a nuisance u know, its not like im obliged to go seeking after u when u dun wan to be found..losing mi, is ur big loss..but losing god, is ur greatest loss..i hope watever u haf found in replacement is worth it, tho i seriously doubt so..oh but lemme say this first, u are not my disappointment..nope u arent..call mi when u wana come back..

its weird that i get support from everyone else except ______..but i wouldnt expect too much ba..i really hope that my grp would continue growing really strong..sometimes, im at a loss of wat to do too..plus i realise this year's lvl of stress has upped a lot from previous years..everyone stressing makes mi stress too..gosh i shld really juz rely on jesus thru this whole thing..i wouldnt even call it a saga..bec she's not that mighty yet..im crying now, but i really dun know why..

tml ll be a better day :D