to nicole

ok im gonna trash everything out here and im gonna stop tinking abt you and go do my project because im so ditracted and hurt by you that i cant really concentrate on wat im doing..this is to ah xin (as ur mom calls you) cos i cant write ur other name here or else everyone ll know who u are..

this is my last resort to reaching out to you..cos i dun haf any replies from you or any contact at all so this is the end..i tink u are really selfish to put others thru stress when u urself is having probs and running away is actually a cowardly thing to do..and i know u are not a coward so i dun understand y u are doing this..i treated u as my fren but now im not sure whether that was a right thing to do..bec now i dunno whether u still treat mi like ur fren a not..

many memories between you and mi but u haf somewhat chosen to forget those memories..and i find it no point if im the only one who is hanging onto those memories..i tried to reach out to you cos if i dun, im responsible and accountable to god and bec i valued u as a fren..but when u refuse to repent, den ur blood is off my hands..god knows that ive tried to contact you..god knows that ive tried to find you and tok to you..but u put up a facade which is oh so sickening..

there was a similar incident before where my best fren left mi in the lurch, and how i went thru that time was to close up to everyone and anyone..for fear of hurting myself again till u came along and i opened up to you..and now u are doing the same thing, putting mi thru the same cycle again..so wat do i do?..i guess, i haf to figure out some way..i realise closing up isnt a solution..so from today onwards, i guess..i ll search for frenships, that ll last..

alright..i shall close my mind off u now since im having exams..