stretched

feeling a little tired and stretched..slept at 5 yest and woke up 2 hrs later to study at kap with david and jarvin..its really madness to wake up at such an ungodly time to study, but i cant deny that i actually memorized like half of my exam text juz this morning..studying with them is actually good..haha..went to queensway after that to get jarvin's shoes and slacked awhile at macs before going home..company was good, and objective to study was acheived..haha..

its quite funny to see u shy..

so anyways went home on bus 961 with david and learnt some disciple stuff from him which i tot was quite useful..i juz hope that i would be able to do them rite..started to pour when we reached sixth avenue and u could actually see where the rain started from..its like one minute we were dry and the nxt, the bus drove INTO the rain..like how cool is that?!..haha..realised i shld haf got down at bp but oh well, took all the way to marsling to take train home cos it was raining oh so heavily..slept till 7 and started to type my project again..

there was something wrong with the whole internet thing so i really didnt haf much distraction on the com..juz typed and typed and typed..and i did quite a number of things!!..juz finised media schedule and im so tired so i tink i shld go sleep..its weird not meeting anyone tml so i haf to maximise my time and study..i dun wan to restrict any of my grp ppl from learning abt god juz bec i need to study..i cant be so selfish..see key, i know the principle..haha..its juz that i didnt commuicate wat i meant well enuf..

sometimes i tink my attitude towards higher discipline sucks..its like, when key tells mi some stuff which i shldnt be doing and i know it, i juz ARGH CANT STAND IT..guess its pride..i know wat he said is rite..i juz hate to admit it..see, i knew it was pride..and i ll go all moody and start dunno, yeah, ok lor, like that la..sighs horrible attitude which is really isnt good..i wan to change this badly..i muz remind myself constantly and DMW!! help mi with this..haha..

i tink god loves mi a lot, bec he likes to test mi so much till i cant bear the weight of my burdens anymore and juz go to him..and it usually happens when im having exams..sighs, tink i really gotta change my perspective abt certain things..i rmb someone told mi this before, past hurts were not meant to scar..im super burdened so i tink i shall go tok to god now..and get some of his peace in return..

meeting eelee tml..i cant wait :D