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its 230am and im enjoying solitude in my room listening to here i stand on itunes..toking to david hoe on msn now and im enjoying his chatting..i juz realise that im left with a year in youth..haha..guess i ll really miss it when i move on :D..

didnt do much today..went to jarvin's place to slack..and we cooked mee sua for him cos it was his bday..and it was NICE..

sometimes i tink no one really understands mi at all..i dun even understand myself sometimes..i dunno why im procrastinating when im supposed to be studying..i dunno y im feeling some feelings..i dun even know wat are the feelings im feeling..sometimes i sit in my room and cry, when i dun even know wat im feeling..it feels good to cry..cos everything comes out..things known and things unknown..it all comes out..den i ll be emptied..thats where god comes in..

thats y i love jesus so much u know..i juz dun understand how he can understand mi..even as i sit in this room all alone, i know he's right beside mi..somehow someway, i can feel his presence..he's waiting for mi to go tok to him..and sometimes im such an ASS COS I PROCRASTINATE!..i love him so much cos he loves mi much more..he didnt love mi cos i did something..he loved mi becos he is he..he chose to love mi..and he understands mi!..even when no one does he can understand mi!..he sits besides mi as i cry..i rmb someone once told mi that god collects all our tears..man, i muz haf an ocean already..aft i cry, he fills mi with his comfort, and he gives mi this weird sense of peace..a supernatural thing that cannot be explained..

holy one, prince of peace
great and mighty is your name
all i need, is found in you
come and touch my heart again

i will lift my hands to you
i will lift my hands to you

here i stand, lord i pray
let ur glory fill this place
here i worship, touching heaven
lord i long to see your face
here i stand