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dear god,

i wana confess something to you..im so sick of going to church every sat..tts because i realise that when i go to nexus..i ll be reminded of the many sins that ive committed throughout the week..and i ll feel so guilty and i ll be busy repenting of all my sins..sins that at that time i know i shldnt haf done and yet i couldnt take good control of my emotions, speech and thoughts..sins that im aware of and yet i still do..this is worse den committing sins that i do not know of..tts y sometimes i dread going to church..

but i dun wan it to be this way!!..i dun wan to dread going to church..i wan to be so so so happy, elated when i go to church..because im going there to meet you!!..to sing and dance for you..to praise and worship you..to fellowship with the people there..to feel peace, love, joy and freedom..i dun wan to feel burdened when i go to church..i dun wan to waste extra time repenting of my sins!!..i wan to go straight there and worship you..to learn from ur word..to be renewed and touched by you..

and so..i haf decided to do something that i pray so hard that u would help mi..i ve decided that i wan to try my very very best to control myself on everyday situations..i wan to aim to stop sinning..because i know that when i sin..im reluctant to repent..because i would feel guilt..so in order not to haf any of these guilt feelings..i would nip the prob in the bud..and not sin..i know its easier said den done..but i wan to try it..i dun wan to waste time in church!!..

i would take wat shirley said and apply it in my life..THAT was the last time..not this time..THAT time..no more chances for sinning..from today onwards..its a brand new day..a brand new mi..a brand new sheet of paper without any markings..

by doing all this lord..i wan to show you how much i love you..u haf constantly told and show mi how much u love mi..now, its time for mi to show you how much i love you..and by loving you, i hate sin..and i will do all that is within mi..to stop sinning..

i love you so much..
jinqi