mood swings

having a little bit of nood swings now..loads of things on my mind and im not doing anything..haven blogged for so long and there are many exciting things in my life that i can blog abt..but..juz no mood for it now..dangs..

i wana dwell in ur house

i got my results for my graduation project..i rmb i blogged abt it in dec..it was grad project and i only did it in 2 days..supposed to write 5000 words but all i managed to scrape up was 4500 words..and i got an A!!..praise praise praise god..

ok before u guys come to the wrong conclusion..lemme tell u y i only used 2 days to do this project..dec is the period where us hoppies are super busy..firstly, i was involved in camp games com and we had loads of meeting and preparation for it..and it turned out well!!..three cheers to the games com ppl - samuel (our head), llamma, weisong, maurice, matthias and puay..after tt, the rest of my time till 25th dec was dedicated to preparing for xmas drama..and it was a success too cos many ppl cried!!..three cheers to tt drama team - hendra, dan, xiang and weisong..my first drama and im totally loving it!.heeh..so in the end, i was left with 26th and 27th dec to do my project..i didnt wan it to be slipshod work..put in much effort as i could within those 2 days..and god blessed mi!!!..

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

another aspect of god tt ive experienced..learnt tt when u wan to experience sumthing of god..u haf to be REALLY stretched first..u haf to come to the point where u are so so so desperate that u cry out for help..and den..god ll help u..wana do this in the finanacial aspect as well..sighs my exams are coming and i know this aint the same as dec..i got loads of time but i didnt use them well..ll god punish mi?..noo!!..i repent i ll study now till den..god im so sorry!..

let mi share abt the drama on sat for wired svs..oh before tt i wan to say tt i tink the dance was AWESOME!!..i can never dance so well and im like..whoa!! when i saw them..really really good and i know they practiced like mad..according to geneie seow..the drama went quite well too!!..tho i made a little slip up in the first svs..no one noticed anyways so GOOD!!..hahah..we only had one day to practised and it turned out so well cos of the dedicated ppl like - claire, jerel, dan and yushan!!..great experience, and a chance for mi to spread god's msg..

had a gathering with the coreteam yest..many things were shared and i really really am so comforted by the thought of them..im so thankful tt god put mi with these ppl in the jc grp..cos they are one bunch of excited and committed ppl!!..we are gonna make a diff in central becos central is NOT meant to be like tt..lets show them wat living for god means..the true meaning..and i know tt it will be a very long and hard journey..but we haf one another to encourage us if we are down and tired..u guys rock!!..be in the 50..no, be in the 15..heeh..

watched memoirs of a geisha already with dear ruisi..yes i know im slow!!..it was quite a nice show!!..maybe cos i haven read the book yet so i dunno the injustis tt was done..dear is gonna lend mi the book soon (i hope!)..cant wait to read it..ending was a bit disgusting tho..i love ruisi loads loads loads!!

after exams this sat..im gonna reward myself with at least 3 hrs of dota..

food for thought

juz a little food for thought..

as i was on my way home, i reached the cross junction juz rite outside of my condo..i was super tired and wanted to get home as early as possible..the red guy was on, but there were no cars..and hence, came my dilemma..

should i cross?..

i know that i shldnt..becos its illegal, and its called submitting to the law..but yet, there are no cars!!..and after all..its only a small street..can cross very fast one wat..the mind is willing, but the flesh is weak..and so i decided to take a step..but before my foot reached the road, the green man came on..and so i crossed with ease..

here comes the question..so, was it right or wrong?

i guess in the eyes of the law..it was right, becos the green man did indeed come on before and not after i touched the road..theres nothing illegal in doing that..but in the eyes of god..im preety sure that im wrong..becos god looks at the heart..he doesnt look at outward expressions as much as he looks at one's heart motives..before i even crossed the road, i was already wrong..becos i decided not to wait for the green man..and so i repent..

tells mi that everything in life..is worth considerable deliberation before embarking on it..

wat do u tink?..

racism in action

its racism in action!!..ok im not saying this from a professional point of view..im juz a normal gurl watching a ice-skating match and saying what she sees..(geesh with all this suing and stuff, we cant really say wat we want to say)..hell im juz gonna say..

japan and italy was racing together and both collided into one another..hence they came in 3rd and 4th in the race and were not qualified for the finals..however, italy still managed to get into the finals but the japanese were disqualified..italy are the european champions while japan holds no title..the italians are eurpoean while the japanese are asians..china and USA slogged it out..while italy got in scot-free..u make ur own judgements..

it is not until now that i realise that im proud of my asian roots..korea, germany, canada and another country were racing together on the ice..my focus was on korea..a little while later, korea had a little mishap and became last..my heart leapt with theirs and i was so involved in rooting for them that i almost burst from restraining myself from cheering in the middle of the night..the koreans never said die..the manage to came in 2nd..WOW..three cheers to asia!!..

i love my roots..

suntanning

was supposed to study today but ended up at sentosa tanning with adel and emu..the meeting time was 11am so we can reach there at 12 as lulu was supposed to come meet us at 1..we ended up at sentosa at 1 and lulu was late and came at 2 instead..we are one late bunch..we are always late!!!..

oh!..i reached harbourfront mrt at 1130 and guessed who i saw while waiting for those 2..i saw choonie!!!..she was going to sentosa to sun tan too!!..so surprised..tho i didnt show much emotion internally cos i was super damn tired..i went palawan beach, she went tanjong beach..so near and we didnt meet!!..hahah..

i didnt get tanned much..hmmm or maybe i did get tanned and i tink i didnt..ahhh..dunno la!!..im so full now cos my auntie forced mi to eat dinner at this time..fat!!!..my face feels sunburnt tho..played bridge at sentosa too..bridge is fun fun fun!!..i wana go tanning again..

schedule with classmates from this wk till nxt:
fri - trail
sat - russell's bday party
mon - settler's cafe
wed - tanning at my house
sat - exam..boo..

im acting again!!..for 5 mins..hahah..come and watch mi..

exams nxt sat..A LOT of things to memorize..shall study..

sinning sucks

sinning sucks..sinning the same sin over and over again sucks even more..till the feeling becomes numb..and satan has won u over..thank god that i still feel guilty..tho guilt is starting to fate fast..god let mi be guilty once again..i wan to overcome this..

its v day!!..well yesterday was v day..and my date was winnie..went to bugis village and shop shop shop..got 3 items that i needed..jeans, bag and top..all under 80 bucks..im a cheap person..its encouraging to talk to ppl from church..cos u know that u arent alone that much as u tink..we are all trying hard..sumtimes we wonder y..yet deep inside us all of us knows the reason for our existence..

ive come to realise that every single word in the bible holds a thousand meanings..teaching mi not to underestimate the chronology of events and speech stated in it..that every word has been carefully placed to give one sentence its fullest meaning..a new insight to john chapter 9..a very new insight indeed..

daniel seems more excited abt my shepherding den mi..hahah..

yijun

ALL THE BEST YIJUN!!

yijun's flying off to australia today but i cant go out to send her cos its sunday and supposedly my family day..ahhhh..so sad..anyways pray for the best for u there..and study hard!..they are prob at the airport now while im at home doing nothing..hmpf..

did i tell u guys that i got a new shepherd?..yes!!..and im having shepherding nxt wk..getting excited cos i haven had shepherding for quite sometime..ll miss shuyi when she's gone tho..pray u grow grow grow at tertiary!!..thanks for being my longest shepherd and all the help u haven given mi..and how u always take time to listen to my grumbles..i wish u all the best!!..

i learnt 2 things yest..establish and empower..central has merged and i guess it ll take awhile for the ppl to be used to one another..yest was the beginning and everyone was trying real hard so i thank everyone for their efforts and lets all work together to establish CB2!!..yup yup..

without establishing u cannot empower..when u eastablish and u dun empower..den ur efforts still go down the drain..yup!!..xiang is so rite..

to dear

dear says that she doesnt read my blog cos its too holy and she only reads when she sees her name..so i shall put her name damn big..

ADELINE KUAH

yes i shall blog abt today..it was such a fulfilling day!!..first we went to eat XO fish beehoon at holland v which SUCKED..the fiona xie show bluff one..and it costs a ridiculous amt of 7 bucks!!..den we went settlers cafe and played bridge the whole day while bring retarded..and lastly we went to dota at queensway!!..3 of us against wenjun..and we won!!!..HAHAHA..becos wj let us win one..oh else we would haf lost miserably..again..

i shall go in depth on each activity..hahah..the XO noodles sucks!!..dun eat it..first of all..its not worth the money..2nd..its too ex..3rd, its not fried fish..4th it smells nice but dun taste nice..aiya a lot more reasons..juz dun eat it..bridge is a fun game!!..my killing spree was ended by emu!!..OWNING!!..lol..and dear put a wrong card or we would haf won the game!!..loveless!!..haiyo..hahah..we had all the stupid codewords like..the air is full of love..and i like to club 2 times..or im a digger..and diamonds are a gurl's best fren!!..damn dumb..its fun to hang out with classmates cos all of us are fun ppl!!..and we are spastic and retarded as well..

dota is fun!!..as usual..emu dun pang seh us la!!..always pang seh us one..yawns im tired..i hope dear's stomach ache is ok by now..

had a nice tok with dear and emu..lets study next week!!..quite scared abt exams actually..cos like got quite a lot of things to study..yawns im tired..maybe i shld go sleep soon..cya on monday!!

last cg

there was something wrong with blogger..oh wells..

had out last cg yest at my house..those peeps totally wipe out all the cny goodies that i had at home..which is a good thing since they help mi keep from gaining weight..hahah..ben from hope adalei (i never knew how to spell that) came as well..it was quite funny cos he had to visit when we are having out last cg..but we were definately blessed by his presence..

i am really gonna miss these 4 peeps..ruisi jane nicole and kiap..we haf been in the same grp for more than a year..tho there haf been many restructuring and changes..but it doesnt mean that im immune to those longing and sad moments..when ppl are put together in a grp..feelings and attachments grow..and if there comes a point in time in ur walk with god that u become immune to these feelings..u better go refresh urself with god man..tt aint a good sign..

memories, testimonies and encouragements were shared..cg lasted from 6 to 9..last time we are gonna be together..gonna treasure it in my mind always..the new grp is gonna take place nxt wk..30 ppl..wow..thats something new for mi..can i really do it?..god i reach out for ur hand to guide mi..

welcome back

dear god,

i wana confess something to you..im so sick of going to church every sat..tts because i realise that when i go to nexus..i ll be reminded of the many sins that ive committed throughout the week..and i ll feel so guilty and i ll be busy repenting of all my sins..sins that at that time i know i shldnt haf done and yet i couldnt take good control of my emotions, speech and thoughts..sins that im aware of and yet i still do..this is worse den committing sins that i do not know of..tts y sometimes i dread going to church..

but i dun wan it to be this way!!..i dun wan to dread going to church..i wan to be so so so happy, elated when i go to church..because im going there to meet you!!..to sing and dance for you..to praise and worship you..to fellowship with the people there..to feel peace, love, joy and freedom..i dun wan to feel burdened when i go to church..i dun wan to waste extra time repenting of my sins!!..i wan to go straight there and worship you..to learn from ur word..to be renewed and touched by you..

and so..i haf decided to do something that i pray so hard that u would help mi..i ve decided that i wan to try my very very best to control myself on everyday situations..i wan to aim to stop sinning..because i know that when i sin..im reluctant to repent..because i would feel guilt..so in order not to haf any of these guilt feelings..i would nip the prob in the bud..and not sin..i know its easier said den done..but i wan to try it..i dun wan to waste time in church!!..

i would take wat shirley said and apply it in my life..THAT was the last time..not this time..THAT time..no more chances for sinning..from today onwards..its a brand new day..a brand new mi..a brand new sheet of paper without any markings..

by doing all this lord..i wan to show you how much i love you..u haf constantly told and show mi how much u love mi..now, its time for mi to show you how much i love you..and by loving you, i hate sin..and i will do all that is within mi..to stop sinning..

i love you so much..
jinqi