sighs

ruisi juz intro-ed mi to someone's blog..shant say the url here in case i get caught into some messy blogger war or sumthing like tt..wats with the whole woo-ha over the spg and xiaxue's blog..like..the whole blogging thing is so..mainstream..already..anyways..its quite a depressing blog so caution to all who wants to read it!!..ask mi for the add!!..(depressing in a god-this-world-is-so-unfair kinda way)..

anyways..nicole au zhou xin is back!!..yeah!!..my SB..hahha..gave us all a surprise huh?!..so jian za ah you..hahha..get used to here soon ok!!..we go yum cha someday!!..

MDIS

hi peeps..juz started school this week at MDIS..taking mass com for all those who dunno..my school is at bugis..so far!!..hafta wake up early everyday..so tired!!..haven woken up so early for such a long time le..and guess wat?!..my course has absolutely no holidays at all!!..so no matter wat day of wat mth of wat year..i ll always be in school!!..hmmm..maybe they ll be kind to us during the public hols..sighs..

anyways..my class has 31 ppl and i heard tt its quite small already..compared to the diploma classes..and get this..there are only 8 guys in the class..8!!..and all cmi one..i mean..even xiao key beats them la..how sad is tt?..but really thank god tt i made frens there and am getting quite ok-ly with the class..hahah..but i juz realised that my exams is in 2 weeks time!!..gosh!!..and my 2,000 word essay on code of ethics is also due then!!..i really pray hard tt i can go thru this 2 years leh..really praying very very hard..

anyways..yesterday we had a farewell party for tamar..supposed to be a surprise la but as usual..it came as not a surprise..hahah..i guess its the tot tt counts..tamar's dogs are sooo cute!!..im really gonna miss her..muz buy back some pressies k..i really love central 1..(this includes central f)..feels really like we are all one big family..doing stuff together..crapping together..sharing our lives with each other and juz enjoying one another's company..so wen xin rite!!..hahha..

according to popular demand, i haf enlarged my wordings to large size so tt shu wun fall asleep while reading my blog..hahah..kidding shu..

attended ms lee's wedding yesterday..opps no no..now shld be mrs yap!..muhahah..the wedding was held at a church near xinyi's house..sorry i dunno how to spell the name..hahah..and ms lee looked so good in the wedding gown and in all her wedding fotos!!..ahhh!!..i wana get married too!!..sob sob..hahha..

didnt get to attend 2nd svs yesterday..sighs..den went to 3rd svs with mi fren..sihua..hahah..there was this performance put up by the tertiary grp and guess who was like the main actor?!..jaron!!..hahaha..so farni la!!..mi and xinyi were like going..oh my goodness!!..-sniggers-..oh well..shant be mean to him..hahah..was kinda bit sad yesterday not having to be with central f..by the time the third svs was over everyone haf already dispersed!!..oh well..looking forward to nxt wk den..ahahha..sihua's coming again!!..with minyee!!..and i heard from alvin tt theres gonna be a play during 3rd svs so i cant wait to see it..alvin ur script better be good ah..-smiles-..

youth camp was super!!..the games were fun, the teachings were fantabulous and the best part of it was..empire won!!..muhahahh..empire rox manz!!..how can republic ever compare with us!?..no way!!..okok..shall stop rubbing it in(hahahah)..card games was fun but dangerous!!..like how many bruises do i haf?..not counting all the cuts i got on my fingers..5?..ouch!!..i tink central f is the most happening ppl ard!!..and everybody ll say?..amen!!..muhahaha..lets grow the unit k!!..its really small..add more happening ppl into the grp..i tink god always put such camps in the right moment..like when ppl are all under-renewed and tired and they go for these camps and bam!!..refreshed and fired up again..but really really pray tt its not only during camp tt we all get fired up for god but also after the camp and we can all apply wat we learn and tell the world tt jesus lives!!..amen!!..

this camp was special for mi..i really thank god for it..i know now who i am..why im who i am..and y im y im..hahah..doesnt matter if you dun understand..cos god understands..and tts all that matters..god is all tt ever matters..i love you lord..i seriously do!!..no words in the whole entire universe can ever describe the way i feel towards you..lord i wana walk with you so much ever deeper and stronger..so much ever in love..now i understand..i do understand y you put mi here..hhaha..altho with my human understanding it may not be much..but at least i progressed a little further..i look forward to spending forever with you and all the brothers and sisters you put in my life..jesus you rock!!..

shuyi thank you so very much!!..you are always there when i need you!!..i dunno how you do it but you can juz sit there and listen to mi!!..i love you gurl!!..and a very happy bday to you!!..dun worry bout where you are and wat you are doing now..god has a plan!!..like mi too..-smiles-

xiang xiang!!..you are absolutely crazee!!..ahahha..thanks for everything gurl..tks for affirming mi and making mi feel comfy ard you..you are simply great!!..cheryl you too!!..tks for the earrings!!..you haf great taste!!..hahaha..i love the both of you to death!!..

kemkem..i know all the comfort from mi ll do absolutely nothing for you..only god's comfort can encourage you and strengthen you..trust in the lord always and i love you gurl!!..you know it!!..

jo!!..isnt it weird like how we were in pt and nvr ever really toked for like how many yrs?..and now we are so close?..god is good!!!..he allowed you to know such a wonderdul person like mi!!..-winks-..you are great..win laselle for jesus k!!..and you already haf the victory!!..

sylvia you are really an inspiration!!..i read this from shuyi's blog..god seek those who seeks him..its true..hahha..

a new school

my maid has come back from indonesia!!..celebrate with mi ppl!!..no more housework and no more going straight back home after work to take care of my sis..tt means time for shepherding and cg again!!..boy i miss shepherding and spending time with all mi sheep(s)!!..thank god!!..hahaha..oh well..i cant say tt it was tt bad staying at home after all..in fact i finally managed to get some exercise..you know doing housework is really back-breaking work..i seriously tink ppl can develop muscles by vacuuming and mopping the house every single day for at least a yr..you dun need to pay money to go to a gym..juz do housework!!..fitness guranteed!!..oh geesh..im side-tracking again..

anyways..since you guys see mi blogging here means only one thing..im not in JB!!..yes im sad thanks for asking..my parents wouldnt allow mi to go for camp so im stuck here..sighs..guanie and penguin managed to go in the end but i didnt..i tink my parents still need a little more time ba..gosh the things im missing!!..i really haf to pester shuyi this time to ask her wat happened and to transfer all tt she learnt there to mi..and i didnt go service today too cos i was registering for mu uni stuff but more of tt later..not going to svs feels weird you know..like ur week aint complete..theres sumthing missing..but nobody fr my cg went there..like how sad is tt?!..gosh..

looking forward to youth camp this coming week..im really gonna like seriously refresh myself there and to learn more bout god..i learnt sumthing..one day without doing qt or toking to god or like praying haf a big impact on ur spiritual life..honest!!..i mean like..lets say i didnt do qt today..and i say..i ll do it tml..and den tml i say i ll do it tml etc you know wat i mean..and before you know it..whoosh one week goes by without you doing qt..by the end of the week, you are more vulnerable to mr satan attacking you..you are still conscious of god and deep inside you know you arent supposed to do this but you are weaker in self-control and you end up doing it and den in the end..you feel so guilty tt you do it!!..you know wat i mean?..if you dun den nvm..so i've decided(once again)..to seriously sit down and do qt every single day!!..call mi to check up on mi k!!..

okok..here comes the newer news(if theres such a word)..im going to MDIS to study mass com!!!!!..YEAH!!..im so happy!!..i really wana thank god..thank you jesus!!..my class starts on the 20th of june..how fast is tt?..its like in 2 weeks!!..oh my god oh my god..im excited and scared and anxious all at the same time!!..okok calm down gurl..the thing is..if i didnt register today..today!!..i wun be able to get into the class..so tt means tt if i had gone jb camp..i cant sign up!!..and i ll still be slacking!!..and before i made this decision to go MDIS..i had to do one impt thing..i had to ask god for his counsel and advice..cos the course is gonna take 2 yrs, which means i ll be getting my advanced dipolma and bachelor of arts in mass com in 2 yrs..and its gonna cost mi 24 000 bucks..whew tts a whole lot of money..so i toked to god..i asked him to tell mi which way to go..i asked him whether this was the right path..the right choice where i can do his work..and my dear beloved god told mi this..wherever you go, if you continue to walk with mi and obey mi and do my work..i ll surely bless you and give you success in everything tt you do..god i love you!!..i seriously cross my heart and tell you tt i love you..hahah..

im gonna start studying!!..on my goodness!!..i dunno whether im prepared!!!..and im gonna take mass com..tts my choice of course!..i made a promise to god and myself..i m sure gonna study real hard and do well..cos he had given mi a way out..other frens i know still haf to work before they study cos they need to earn the money to pay for the fees..but im fortunate to haf the money..im fortunate because god blessed mi and put mi in this family..im not gonna disappoint him or my parents or myself anymore..i've been given a chance..and i ll study hard..hahah..goodness..im so excited!!..wat if i cant make frens?!?..gosh i muz really go pray to god bout this..and the good thing is this..at the end of my course..for 3 weeks..i haf to go to oklahoma in usa to finish my course..wow!!..wat a chance!!..hahha..

thank god for meetings..they juz renew and refresh mi..thank god for my leaders..how they always encourage mi in all circumstance..thank god for the family that he put mi in..how i love them all to bits..

serving god is juz so so hard and tiring sumtimes..you juz carry on and on and on till sumtimes you ask urself..wats the point in making urself so tired?..wat do you get in return?..tts when you haf to go back to the main reason..the only reason y u work so hard and so much..beyond the point of our puny human understanding..its all because of jesus christ..and wat he has done for us..

you hear this phrase juz so many times..maybe too many times..jesus christ died for us and save us all..sumtimes it becomes routine..but honestly..tink bout it..seriously tink bout it..and you ll realise y..y u work urself to the bone..y u go all out for ppl..y u give ur time, ur resources, ur heart and soul to god..i've finally seen the value..haf you?..