sore throat

i tink my sore throat brought back my asthma..finding it hard to breathe now..and very pain too..oh no..

hahaha

yesterday was a good day..ahaha..woke up at 9!!..to go to xiang's sa campus rumpus..but i felt horrible!!..cos i was sick!!..had a bad bad stomach ache..those kind tt u want to shit yet puke at the same time..it was bad..the pain kept moving throughout the stomach..horrible..janey..now i know how u felt..

went to sa..sun was so bloody hot!!..and it was sooo crowded..gosh i almost felt like fainting..got a terrible headache as a result..at ard 1250..couldnt stand it anymore and decided to take cab dw with janey and cathy to nexus..jane..u really very nonsense in the cab la!!.wat geylang!!..hahh..in the cab i prayed to god to at least let this horrible stomach ache subside during svs so tt i could enjoy it..and guess wat..prayers really changes things!..hahha..i managed to jump and dance during praise!!..and i didnt get stomach ache..cool!!..hhha..

sermon was fabulous..i got renewed today..at last..

got a great surprise after seed..well..my sheep(s) are all such cheaters man!!..obviously a balloon yet still deny tt its not..hahaha..they gave mi a big pink star shape balloon with their msgs on for shepherd's appraciation wk..was sooo touched ny them..haha..wanted to cry..rally thank u guys!!..love u all too!!..and ll haf shepherding with you all soon ok..hahaa..im such a lousy shepherd..but yet god still gave mi wonderful sheep(s)..thank you lord..and thank you guys for trying to treat mi to movie and dinner but both didnt turn out too well..hahah..

well and fine..

"never ll i leave you, never ll i forsake you"
i forgot which verse it is..too lazy to find now..this is wat god promised..and my god is a faithful and righteous one..he ll do as he promised mi..

i really haf to tk god tt during this time..he put many ppl in my life to cheer mi up and encourage mi..even when im so sick of everything..he still puts a word here and there..helping mi to hang on..making mi more convicted of him..making mi rely on him..cos i realised tt i haf no one else to turn to..i haf no where else to go..i got no more plans to follow..im totally lost and helpless..and this is the time when god ll help mi..im so sure of it..i can feel it in my bones..

constantine is quite a nice show..altho some parts are fiction( like satan hafing a son..hhaha..wat nonsense)..it still instills some kinda fear in you..esp when u see hell..gosh it is terrible!!..i nvr nvr nvr wana go there!!..makes mi tink..can i go to heaven?..am i like keanu reeves in the movie?..buying my way into heaven?..

"..the same..all he asks is simply tt u believe in him..using simple faith.."this is wat the angel gabriel told keanu when keanu asks wat does god wan from him in order tt he can get to heaven..simple faith..so easy yet so hard..

john constantine has the power to exorcise demons..but he didnt embrace it..he called it a curse..but gabriel told him it was a gift..how many of us dun embrace our gifts?..if we haf the gift of encouragement den use it!!..dun assume tt it is a common gift and long for another one..god gave it to you..only you can use this gift..treasure it..john constantine has the power to go to hell and come back..he knows wat happens in hell..he doesnt wans to go there..but at last..he barganied with satan to exchange someone in hell with him..he sacrificed himself..altho he fears it..he fears it more than normal ppl..cos he experienced and haf seen it..reminds mi of jesus..the sacrifice..

anyways im glad they didnt end the movie with a kiss..dunno y but i guess tt the focus is on god, heaven and hell..so all in all..i give it 3.5 stars!!..go watch it!!

problems

sleep..wake..tink of god..tink of problems..feel worried..go work..come back..feel worried..cant do anything..pray to god..sleep..

tts my schedule these few days..haiz..where's the light at the end of the tunnel?

cny

it takes a lifetime to change to be more like jesus..it takes 1 sec for sin to grab hold of u and bring you back to ur old lifestyle..

they feel condemned..y make it sound like its my fault?..haf they considered how i felt?..wat can i say?..hopeless hopes?..

ppl dun care..sumtimes i dun care..but god cares..and i thank god..for caring enuf to pull mi back to him..my life is in ur hands..

stupud ppl deserve nothing

wat can i say?..there are hypocrites on earth..and there are dumb ppl on earth..its bad enuf tt they are in the world..but its worst when they are in church and u haf no choice but to tok to them and help them..and the thing is..i cant really do wat i wana do to them..like punch them in their faces..cos i know tt god now lives in mi..and im a changed person..so wat do we do?..

cant help them if they refuses to help themselves..one's a dumb soft-hearted person..the other's a viper looking for oppotunites to strike..put them together and wat do u get?..a headache..

to the both of u..stop messing up other ppl's life..we haf our own lives to lead..dun say one thing and do another..especially u the hypocrite..two choices: leave or change..choose one..and stick to it..

useless..

gosh..i feel so useless..like im juz feeling my way thru every single week..i tink maybe i've become like..erm..an 'old' leader?..see..this is my schedule for every single week..work everyday till 3pm..one day for cg..the rest of the days for all the shepherdings..sat svs and sun work..its so monotonous..all these has become like a routine..its was only until yesterday tt i realised tt sumthing was worng with mi..

i guess i ve been occupying my mind with sum other unnecesssary stuff..playing out one scenario aft another in my mind..knowing full well tt i should not be doing so cos this ll happen sooner or later in my life anyway..but still..i dunno y i keep doing this!!..this doesnt lead mi to be fruitful..it doesnt lead mi to accomplishing anything!!..thank god i realised this now..

while toking to xinyi yesterday..i felt really lousy..cos i realised tt i ve not been giving my best to my ministry..ive not really been there for my sheep(s)..ive not really plan for cg..i haven set my goals and stuff..really lousy..oh man!!..i guess its time to stop..stop watever nonsense things tt haf polluted my mind and start to do sumthing productive!!..its gonna be so hard..but i know i can overcome this..i ll become wat god wans mi to become..amen..

thank god for qt yesterday..he really spoke to mi..altho it took a long time for mi to register in my rusty brain..see..i was reading exodus where god told moses how to build all his stuff, eg the courtyard tabernacle etc..and at the end of the chapter..god again described how moses bulit all those stuff according to the instructions tt god gave him..and of course..everything turned out very very well..aft reading tt chapter..i tot tt god was super naggy..i mean..y repeat everything all over so tt i haf to read it twice!?..absurd..but later on(which would be a few hrs later)..i realised the msg behind this story..see..in order to build a tent tt would be strong and able to weather all storms..u gotta haf sure-fire instructions..and where do u get these?..simple..from god..its juz like mi..a CL..im building a tent now..and i wana build a big strong one..one tt woud nvr topple but continue to extend and grow..and i know tt if i follow the directions given to mi by the lord..im sure gonna be able to do this..as sure as i know tt..an egg is an egg?..watever..im juz sure..ive got a goal now!!..im so happy..at least i know where to work towards..and not drift around like a piece of wood in the ocean..so u c..god speaks to us..and he speaks words of wisdom..those who say tt they cant hear god..its a load of bullcrap..its all in the heart..tts where the holy spirit dwells..listen to him..and be amazed..

*i guess i ll stop thinking of u now for now*

hilarious

today was absolutely hilarious!!..wahahhah..service was great..meeting was great and outing was super great..presenting to you peeps DARTH VEDAS THE BARBIE DOLL!!




missy jane: SHE'S DARK
SHE'S EVIL
SHE'S BIMBOTIC

mi and missy jane were playing sword fighting in lego when this weird creature suddenly pop up behind us..we were hilariously terrified!!..threw down our swords and came crashing out of lego laughing till we almost, i repeat, almost died!!

btw its not fun taking neoprints with the two crazeee central d gurls and darth vedar..we almost broke the machine..bleah!!..and we kept screaming..and screaming..and screaming..and..

*where were u today?*

loser

yellow..horrible colour..as horrible as wat i m gonna say..

person A: u r such a loser!!..u r satan coming to take away the children of god..wat r u living for?..who saved u when u were in darkness?..who tolerated ur stupid nonsense?..who tried to help you?..but wat did u do?..trying to bring down more ppl?..u play with ppl's feelings and haf no regret..ungrateful *****!!..ur lies r like the running stream..they nvr stop..and the more u run..the deeper u sink in and the uglier u become..dare u look at urself in the mirror at all i wonder?..i dunno wats restraining mi..i feel like landing a solid sound punch in ur face..and hear the bones of ur nose breaking..but im not like u..i would nvr stoop myself to such a low level as you anymore..cos im grateful..and i know who saved mi..and who helped mi..if u still haf a heart..change before its too late..and i promise u..u ll regret it..

person B: i dunno to call u stupid or dumb!!..cant u see the lies?..or issit tt u see the lies..but choose to believe tt they r the truth?..in any way..dun waste my time..im not tt patient yet..if u wan mi to help u den stop watever u r doing..if u dun wan mi to help u..den i gladly wash u off my hands..cos who the hell r u to mi?..i haf my own life to live..and i haf my own problems to handle..but i warn u..tt person is no good..tt person ll bring u down..dun be naive!!..stay away!!..u haf a happier life w/o the person..u ll be able to laugh like u once did..foolish!!