enough of whining!!

i haf enuf of my whining and complaining and fearing and worrying..everytime i plan cg wod xinyi and when sumthing goes wrong..immediately i'll go like, how my god!..im failing as a CL..wat should i do?..how how how?..and i juz realised tt i've been doing this for like 3 wks already..oh gosh..i cant go on like this!..

i mean..after all the encouragement from god and the promises he made to mi bout helping mi to grow my group..i still like worry things ll go wrong and tt i'll fail and tt the whole grp ll die..reminds mi of wat u know..the isralites in exodus..after moses led them out of eygpt..they encountered sum difficulties along the way..like cannot find water, cannot find food or shelther and the list goes on..each time..god comes along and help them out of trouble..and each time..they still dun get it tt god helps them and they still complain when they meet with another obstacle..when i read tt..i was tinking like..oh come on..god ll help u one..can u guys stop worrying and like trust god?..grow up!!..hahah..hmmm..but now tt i tink again..sounds like mi huh..y do i keep complaining?..y do i keep whining?..oh this is juz so gross..im sick of worrying every single week!!

tts the problem woth mi..i keep worrying..for every single little thing!!..i worry for caregroup every week..i worry bout not getting a job..i worry bout my sheep's lives, their problems and their needs..i worry whether i can be a good shepherd enuf to meet their needs..someone told mi tt i shouldnt worry bout them..tt they haf their own lives to lead and i haf my own as well..tt i shld juz teach them wat is god's will and den let them carry on with their lives..yeah i tink i shld..god is the best shepherd..he is the best guide..im juz his vessel and after all..worrying gets nothing done..

so from today onwards..im not gonna worry so much anymore..i'll juz let god be my guide..and im gonna be wat god wans me to be..and im gonna surprise everyone..including myself!!