my fone..

gonna use this font today to express how i feel...SAD!!..i lost my fone today!!..my sonyericsson Z600 fone which belongs to my father!!..i tink he is v pissed off tho he's not at home now..i tink i'll get him into trouble..cos wat if his company wants him to pay?..haiz!!..i m so careless lor!!..but he didnt scold mi thru the fone..sounded quite calm and told mi to disconnect the line..i feel worse den if he scolded mi!!..how can i be so careless?..i never lost my previous fones b4..

was at jurong den wanted to buy mee siam from the ntuc foodfair store..den at the counter..left my fone there!!..when i found out i rushed back there and ask the auntie whether she has seen it..she said an old lady passed it to her..den she keep in the drawer den she forgot where she put cos she was too bz..dunno whether she got bluff mi anot..budden anyway..its still my fault la..i cant blame her if she wants to keep the fone..cos its quite ex...haiz..kept praying but...

wana say tks to kes..for the comfort u gave mi throughout the day..and haf to endure my whining and my tears..and when u went wid mi to search for the fone for over 3 times..and for being the bad person cos keep hafing to help mi ask the auntie..and may..tks for an wei-ing mi..now i know how u felt..rmb our date aft exams k..hehe..and shu for helping mi cut off the line..and shuyi for consoling mi..

but still...im real sad..cried juz now but still feel bad!!..haiz..irritating...shuyi say maybe its cos i didnt learn fr my lesson last time so this time god has to do sumthing drastic..she say also last time she lost her guitar den found it 2 wks later..she said that god made her feel the panic he has for his lost children..dunno whether they r in good or bad hands..tink it applies to mi also..i feel ke lian for my fone!..i want it back!!..eesiew say maybe cos it's his way to teach mi not to rely on material things..guess its a mixture of both..still..i feel terrible!!..

practical

i got practical today..was pretty scared bout it cos i felt like i haven prepared enuf..cos ytd i had cg den felt real tired so immediately went back to slp..was praying real hard today..and again..god showed another miracle..i actually did 98% of the paper..the other 2% came from sum questions which i dunno how to do..and the gas and everything was in order..so..really thank god!!..although i discussed wid my frens n sum questions i did seems wrong but..so wat?!?!..i cant do anything bout it now anyway..so god..its up to u le..

today the feeling of exams really started to hit me..i guess im mentally prepared for the exams but now i know i gotta push myself more..anyway..i'll haf god up there helping mi so i guess im in pretty safe hands..haahh..aft this..oh boy gonna play like crazy..budden..i gotta go work..or else wun haf cash..tts the only boring part..today mi shu and ben were like planning a day aft the As where we get together, bring all our notes..and throw them into a fire!!!..hahha..so shuang!!..of course we wun waste the fuel..so most prob we'll haf a bbq..hahah..juz the tot makes mi laugh..

oh btw ppl...as u guys r preparing 4 the exams..pls rmb tt mu bday falls on the same day as gp paper..ahha..hint hint..

a lvl

A lvls are coming..not much time to post le..been studying everday!!..i sleep at ard 230 in the morning and wake up at 9 to study..i cant believe it!!..my sleeping time has been horribly shorten!!..from like 11 hrs to 6 and a half..this exams r really killing mi man..plus..i haf chem tuition twice a wk..tt means i haf more chem hw and haf to pay extra cash..haiz..cant wait for it to be over..god!!..u really gotta help mi thru this period k..i really dun tink tt im using mi own strength to study..i juz feel so drain but also..i still find the energy to keep studying..hahha..muz be god..prac's coming too..real scared..haiz..

got this prayer thru mi e-mail..tot it was real nice..goes out to all my pals..

A Prayer for Examination

Lord grant me the right attitude towards my examination,
That even when I study, I want to glorify your name.
Give me the strength that I may press on,
Perseverance that I can endure,
Good health that I may study effectively.

Help me to be single-minded when I study,
Remove all other thoughts, distractions and anxieties,
Give me the power to concentrate,
The ability to understand and to remember.

Show me the way to study intelligently,
To know what is important and what is not.
Provide me Lord with quality time in my studies,
Remove all tensions and fears within me.
Fill me with Thy confidence,
Teach me to draw strength from you each day.
Let me learn to trust you in such times.

In the examination hall, be with me Lord.
Grant me the clarity abd sharpness of thoughts.
Let me not get distracted by things around me.
Give me concentration and calmness Lord.
Help me to gather my thoughts of what I've learnt.
Grant me the discipline to space out time equally on all questions.
Most of all, help me to complete the question on time.

Despite examination Lord, continue to grant me
Quality time with you, let me not neglect You.
Give me a balanced diet between my studies and my service for you.
I just want to commit the whole examination into your hands,
knowing that You are a God who cares and answers prayers.

THANK YOU!

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and Saviour, AMEN.

may we learn to trust in him even thru the exams!!..oh btw..ur hair looks nice kes!!dun worry..

heh..

heh..i know its quite long since my last post..sorry la..haf to mug ma..went to jack's place yesterday..wah superb!!..and i also redeemed my points so i haf the 55 bucks voucher for nxt visit..yeah man..i saw a really cute hamster yest at the pet store and felt like buying it..it was so small and cute!!!..guess how much..20?..nah..45 bucks!!..for tt hamster!!..i was so shocked..oh well..i hinted a lot to my mom yest so i really hope she'll get it 4 mi 4 my b'day..hahha..

frankly..we r all damn stress bec of the A lvls..all the J2 ppl i know..we juz keep mugging now..its scary when i c how hard mi frens r studying..they never stop doing work!!..i totally freak out when i look at them..but the wierd thing is..i tink i dun feel so anxious or scared as i tink i shld..i juz have this assurance from god tt i'll juz need to do my best..wats there to freak out over..dunno lah..

yest we had pj cg in school again..was soooo fun..crystal couldnt make it!..so sad..u miss out on the fun..its our last pj cg cos fr nxt wk onwards we wun haf time to go back anymore..and i heard fr shuyi tt there'll be lots of cool stuff waiting 4 us aft our exams..christmas, chalet, outings etc..juz cant wait!!..and jane brought her frens to church on sat..kerrie yanqi and sarah..really cool ppl..haha..hey all da best 4 ur exams k!!..i'll be praying 4 u all..

wah yest hoh..i nearly lost my hp!!..i was in mac den i was wearing sch skirt with the really lousy pocket..my hp..which was so big and fat was in the pocket..den at the counter..this stupid girl behind mi pickpocketed mi!!!..i didnt even know lor!..luckily like 5-10 mins later this person called eesiew and she asked mi whether i know who he/she was..so i said i'll check the no. 4 her..tts when i discovered my hp was missing..oh man..i was so scared..i tink my father would haf killed mi cos tt was his office fone..so i asked eesiew to call mi..i heard my fone ringing somewhere so i tot i left it at the counter..but it wasnt there!!..so i followed the ringing and den suddenly this girl stood up..took the fone fr her pocket and gave it to mi..and said tt she found it there!!..wah so angry..but really thankgod man..i tink he sent tt fone call..haha..was still shaking..

okok..gotta go now..going kap to study le..haiz..

farewell to pj

its farewell today..gonna say goodbye to PJ le...no more school except 4 sum stupid extra lessons..anyway..supposed to be in school now but of course..i pon la..going school at 10 for econs and farewll assembly..aft tt mi class got sum b'day celebration thingy den we r going shopping!!..haha..as usual..our LAST outing(as if)..gotta haf sum fun today..

gotta change mi background soon..getting sick of it...

watsup!?

hey ppl!!..finally can blog again..cant use the com 4 a few wks cos of mi bro's N lvl...its over now so i can use again..alright!!..i noe u guys miss mi rite..heh...

let mi give u a little update..i got back my results..COE..sux..well, better than OOO i guess...n i even got a certificate of achievement 4 tt..heh..i failed chem again..of course..haiz..i gotta start working harded at it..im doing chem everyday now!!..my tuition hw is juz flooding in..it nvr stops!!..i dun tink i haf EVER done so much chem stuff in mi life b4..i really hate it..yucks..hmmm...theres nothing else tts really happening now..im juz studying studying studying every single day..sob..nvm..juz 1 and a half more mths!!..den im free!!..

really scared 4 mi exams..its 3 more wks..i dunno whether im totally prepared..i guess one can nvr be totally prepared 4 sumthing..well..i'll juz do mi best and let god do the rest..i cant compromise on mi duities juz bec of my exams..and besides..i dun want to..i haven had shepherding wid crystal geral or jane 4 a loooong time.!..really missed it..and i still gotta help shuyi..heh..i cant ask them to wait till i finish mi exams rite..i really dunno where i can find the time 4 these things but god juz gave mi the time..love him so much..always full of surprises one!!..heh..

gonna be farewell soon..goodbye to pj..strangely..ive no feelings..neither happy nor sad..funny..anyway..gotta pass the baton to the j1s now..of course will be there to help u guys..heh...i really cant wait for As to be over!!>.