God isn't a sadist.

I refuse to believe that God has forgotten about me. I refuse to believe that He doesn't want to give me a new job because I've not prayed hard enough.

I refuse to believe that my friends are gonna ditch mi, though sometimesthey r really irritating haha.

I refuse to believe that God doesn't want to speak to me.

Because He's not a sadistic God. Because He promised that all His promises won't let go of me.

So no matter how long, how tiring and how demoralising, I must still believe.

I must.