cg

today was my 2nd cg! no wait, actually its my 3rd..hahah and this week's my third and last svs for one month as im flying off to US nxt friday!! woohooo, so exciting!! haha..i made a whole list of wat i haf to bring alr and im like, getting ready for the trip! this is like so once in a schoolkid's lifetime..so im gonna enjoy myself alright :D

apart from that..i really liked cg today..for those of u out there who are concerned whether im adpating well, good news is i am!! the ppl are quite fun-loving and exciting..im starting to creep out of my shell little by little, and giving all of them a shock as they find out im not so zi bi as i looked during the first time..the fast rate of my adaptation shows how confortable the new grp is making mi feel :D which is a good thing of course..bad news is im still having a little bit of withdrawal syptoms from the transfer and im missing central terribly at times..but slowly getting those feelings under control and opening up my mind to all the new things happeneing here..thx to god who put wonderful ppl in my life to help mi adapt..

so anyways, as i was saying, i really liked cg today..and hanyang and edward came!! which made mi like cg even more! its been like almost 2 years since ive had cg with hy..haha..during worship, this verse came into my mind..

i pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in christ. - Philemon 1:6

u know, its true that we can never know something fully..ever..i mean, if u wan to know god fully before coming to acknowledge him as ur lord and savior, den u might as well juz forget it and stop wasting ur time..cos god's stuff is so infinite that u will never! be able to totally and fully understand him..and its the same with us evax-ing u know..if we like, tell ourselves that ok i will start evax-ing aft i pray that i will haf more courage, or aft i grow, or aft i become more spiritual or i will surely evax tml and all those kinds of excuses, i advice u to juz give up and stop wasting ur time..u can never ever grow enuf to be spiritual enuf to evax, or love, or lead or anything..u juz cant! the only way for u to grow to know more of something, is to keep doing it!

so stop finding excuses of not evax-ing, or of saying that ah its too hard, im not that strong enuf..or i cant correct my sheep of this cos i still dunno much abt the matter and i also sin..or i will not speak out during cg cos im not a leader yet..or any of those crap, juz stop..and juz do it..pluck up ur courage, throw caution to the wind and spread god's love ard..juz hide all ur fears and correct ur sheep..juz go do something that makes ur knees tremble and heart go pounding madly even when u tink abt it..cos those times, are the times that will make u grow..no amt of theory or study or explanation can do anything to make u grow except experience and pure faith..

instead of listening to stories of others abt how god moved in their life..get ur own life and see god moving in urs! and den it would be ur turn to share ur story in front of others, and to challenge them to get our of their comfy little zone and do something abt life..

haha, im not that much of a saint yet..im still trying to be like one..but whenever im scared or whenever i realize that im finding excuses for not doing something, i will rmb that verse alright..i wan to grow and do big things for god! i know he loves me, and i absolutely know he favours me :D thank you my father..open my eyes to more of ur wonders..