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this blog is seriously a form of escapism and distraction from my work man..im supposed to write a synopsis for this play im currently involved in which is due by 6pm today and im like, can i dun do please?! sighs sighs..not because im not interested in it, its juz, lazy juices if u know wat i mean..hahha..its always the starting's that the most difficult, when u've got that heading out, somehow the words will seem to come out more easily..

oh lord, i pray that u help my creative brain juices to flow and give that brain of mine some work to do instead of slacking around in its cozy little space up in my head..maybe if i type somemore here i will be more inspired to carry on my work afterwards..who knows rite?!

ive juz finished reading every young women's battle..u know sometimes it kinda sucks when u know that u are doing something not so good, den when u read abt it u go "argh yea i know im doing that but y did u haf to tell mi straight in the face?! alright alright i suck. i shall stop doing that." that kinda feeling? self-realization of one's weaknesses, dependence on wrong things, stubborness to face up to facts, is somewhat, embarrassing..

ok rite now, i really haf to thank my absolutely wonderful fren jasmine loh huey huey..haha..thanks for watever u told mi yest night, cos that convo made mi a little bit clearer of wat im feeling rite now..and i do know watever u told mi yest and i know that i haf to do watever u said soon and very soon..sometimes, escapism is the easiest way out but it isnt the best way out..juz like wat u said, wouldnt it be good if we can run away from everything that tempts us? den we wouldnt be fat anymore!! HAHA..oh yeah, but i didnt do it yest morning after i finished my work, cos by that time i was so sleepy that i told god sorry, i need to sleep and promptly went into dreamland..

haf u ever wondered why god made morning and night? wats the difference between these 2? why is it that whenever night falls, some weird things happen to ppl's emotions and thoughts that they act like 2 completely different person in the morning and the night..y is it that, ppl's tongues are somewhat looser as darkness approaches..is it cos the body starts falling into a slumber so u haf relatively lesser control over ur speech? or is it something magical abt the night that causes such a phenomenon? cos i tried getting my facts straight with god this morning, but its juz different when compared to the night..

as everything in this world has a purpose, so i believe that night has its specific purpose too..not only issit a time when creatures either sleep or awaken, but im sure god has sprinkled that something special to evoke different reaction from human beings..like in the bible, its always the nights where negative things come out rite..god always told us to stay in the light and not the darkness..maybe darkness has that ability to lure out negative thoughts and emotions that will never plague us in the light..and hence, its in the nights, where i feel the suckiest abt my stage of life rite now..in the morning, eveything seems so a-ok..but at night, oh how i try my hardest to control my emotions..

but tonights a special night..cos once darkness falls today, and when im all alone in my room..a special guest will be waiting for me:) cos tonight, ive promised god that im going on an exclusive date with him..when that special something reaches me, i know, my father and fren is waiting for everything that im gonna pour out to him..and he's gonna give mi peace, fianlly..