forgiveness

saw this on my tagboard: there is hate because there is love..thank you missy jane..it got mi tinking..

the more u love..the more u hate when tt person does sumthing so unthinkable to u..the more u love someone..the more u hate when tt person betrays ur feelings..the more u love..the more u hate when tt person juz up and leave..the more u love..the more u hate..its so true..u wouldnt hate someone whom u didnt love rite?..

(ok apart from those assholes who do things tt irritate the shit out of everyone den those is u dun love juz hate ones..but this is out of point here)

now the thing is..there is hate because there IS love..or there is hate because there WAS love..can i still bring myself to love?..

someone said: good frens muz give special discount..yeah its true..but the thing is..was i even being treated like a good fren by u in the first place?!..it doesnt seem so..i treat u as a good fren..but u dun..den wats the point?..

juz came back from cg with the gurls..feeling better now..i thank god for them..altho im their cl..there are points in my life when i need them too..times when i need their laughter and their jokes..when i need their company and their smiles..times when all i need is their love..because love is sumthing tt is so hard for mi rite now..god help mi to love again..