younger sister

my irritating little sis snatched my TV away from mi so i cant play my xbox now!!..am so bored..theres nothing to do on my com except dumb assignments which i dun wan to do!!..so im like playing hearts over and over again..how loser is tt?..i want my TV..

since had nothing to do..was tinking for a bit..gosh im so damn lazy..so many things to do yet dun wana move a single muscle..gosh i juz rmb!!..shirley say lazy=wicked..wow..ok after this gotta move my ass already..

ok as i was saying..i was tinking bout my burfday..i know its still a bit long away but i always loved birthdays..hahah..anyways..come to tink of it..my parents haven given mi a burfday present for a long time already!!!..wah lau..i cant even rmb my last birthday present la!!..my brother gets everything!!..xbox, computer, new games..and this year he ll most prob be getting a laptop!!..MY IPOD HAVEN EVEN COME YET LA!!!..SINCE LAST YEAR CAN!??!..promise le still haven buy..somemore say dun make empty promises..chey..biasness..my burfday every year only go dinner!!..his go dinner and haf present!!..my sister haf present and burfday party somemore!!..wat is this man?..IM GONNA REQUEST SOMETHING THIS YEAR!!..its so unfair to mi la..

was reading xianggg's blog..and i agree with her..guess in church..there are many so called policies(watever u call them) present..and yeah..it got its loopholes and everything..sumtimes we dun agree and we kick up a big fuss..questioning all the loopholes and demanding it to be changed..we ask y cannot this y cannot that..y muz we do this and tt..y is it this way..but tink of the bigger picture!!..yes its not perfect..BUT WHAT THING TT IS CREATED BY MEN PERFECT?!..nothing is perfect in this world!!..tts y we cannot lead ourselves in this imperfect world..cos how can the blind lead the blind?..the both of them ll juz kanna car accident or sumthing..

nothing is perfect..but always remember..im certain tt the church does things with the people in mind..because the church is about ppl..because god dwells among his ppl..some things is not perfect..but it is the best..in every thing..there is always a good side and bad side..but dun focus on the bad sides..cos the good side has soooo much more benefits if u would juz shut ur mouth and take a good look at it..i mean..the church wont want to oppress the ppl and like make everyone unhappy rite?..

im not juz saying bout Hope..im saying abt all churches..i mean..even in ur own blood family..u guys haf house rules and all tt stuff rite..like sumtimes ur parents dun let u stayover and u get so pissed off cos it is like so common to you..and u are tinking y are they so stiff-necked..but like u know tt they got their reasons no matter how ridiculous and u know tt they love u and watever they implement they haf you in mind..so u haf two choices..either u be the rebellious child and question their rules and go break them all and incur much misunderstandings and sadness in the family..or u accept them no matter how unwillingly and carry on in a loving family..den when u grow older they ll trust u and let u do wat u want..

so you see..its the same..u haf a choice..to question all the loopholes or to accept..u may not really like it..but its the best!!..tts y i say..always go find out abt the loopholes..learn and understand y the leaders of the church does some things..be curious and find out..tt is how u mature..cos at the back of all these..god is the main reason..so when u learn and understand..u ll learn more of god's characteristics..and u ll love god more..

not only in these..like watever u read in the bible..which u dun understand or it makes totally no sense to you at all..go find out for god's sake!!..dun juz like put it one side even tho u dun understand..ask ur shepherds..and if ur shepherds dunno..they ll ask their shepherds..and sumtimes..u ll come to a conclusion tt..actually we dun actually know y..hahaha..i know im crapping..but pls bear with mi for a while..not everything in this world is understandable..most things are cos god chose to reveal them to us..but some god chooses not to reveal to us..hence we dunno..i dunno y he does tt..he has his own ways..god does things in an illogical way..but those tt god has chosen to reveal to us..go and find out..go and learn and understand..always be curious..hahah..

i guess for some policies..its really for like the younger ppl in the church..cos in teenager years the ppl are more influential and like need a concrete model to follow..but as we get older..when we go into the 18-19 year old stage..we dun haf policies anymore..instead..they become values..cos at our age..we haf a more tinking brain..we are more matured..ur shepherds cant control u anymore like how it was when u are younger..when u are 18 yrs old..u are expected to haf a mind of ur own..u are expected be more responsible..ur shepherds trust u to account..to do things on ur own without questioning..so there are no more policies..there are only values..u can choose to do it the right way or the wrong way..ur shepherds cant really do anything if u choose to ignore advice and do the wrong way..tts y xiang always say..foundation is the most impt..wat a wise young lady..i haf a lot to learn from her..

hmmm come to tink of it..my sheep(s) are all wise ppl..thank god for them..i dun tink we are really shepherd and sheep..we are frens..they teach mi things tt i never really knew too..wat a wonderful gift from god..

its sad when u see ppl who were once strong fall away..ppl whom u once knew so deeply and so intimately now suddenly..disappear..maybe not in the physical sense..but they haf changed so much in the things they say..the things they do..till u feel like u no longer know them at all..i know its quite bad..but when i look at them..i say..i dun ever want to be like you..god strike mi if i ever leave him..cos i know the hurt ppl who fall away gives to the others who are still struggling to stay on..im hurt and im angry..im sad and disappointed..cos we had an agreement..we say we ll never fall..but u peeps arent there anymore..i never want to be like you..altho i long so much for u all to return..oh well..this is not in my hands..all i haf..all i can do..is pray..pray hard for god to touch u again..wat else can i do?..i need to move on..i need to carry out my roles..i need to be wat god wans mi to be..

its the exam period now..ppl all ard mi are getting stressed..i dun really know wat to say except relax and try ur best..cos in exams..tts wat we do..we study all we can with the time given..pray hard and hope for the best..but dun worry..god seriously has a plan for you all..he wun throw u to despair..jia you ppl!!..study hard..

my exams are coming too..i gotta study hard for my honours!!..i trust you lord..when i do my part..you ll do ur part..cos u ll always take care of mi..juz like how u haf been doing for the 19 years of my life..

gosh i cant believe i typed so much already..gotta go watch chelsea and arsenal match now..hmmm who ll win?..