grant mi my wish tonight

pardon mi for this post..its gonna be quite sappy and whiny..cos i was juz tinking of some things..

while doing my homework..im reminded that this year is gonna end soon..its already august going on september..nxt yr..ppl ll haf moved on..j1 to j2..j2 to army or uni..tt means diff cg..maybe even diff units..there's gonna be changes..it brings tears to my eyes..

i rmb the time the jc grp first started..when we had only 17 ppl in the cg..9 gurls and 8 guys..when we would gather at hq in holland..i still rmb the day and time..cg ll always be on tuesday at 6pm..and it ll end at earliest 830pm..and after tt i had to rush home so my mom wun find out..

i still rmb..some games tt we played were so stupid yet..it was so fun..i rmb when derrick lead games..we played charads where the first one was "hit me baby one more time"..when i lead games..we played dog and bone rite there in tiny hq..i rmb the first praise songs that we sang when jiehui and matmat lead praise and worship..we sang "come on lets celebrate" and "my redeemer lives"..i rmb how we used to dread ban ban sharing testimony..cos his testi is soooo long!!..hahahha..but..it was always an amazing testimony..i rmb the announcement that eesiew did..who can ever forget?!..5 stars for tt..i rmb how we would split into guys and gurls for sermon d..i rmb all the laughter in that small yet cosy home..

i rmb the time when we split cg..2 gurls grp and 1 guys grp..the last combined cg we ever had..because the grp had grown too big to fit one cg..i rmb the first few mcg we had..once at jo's hse where we had our chocolate bbq..another at xiao mao's hse where i first tasted derrick's delicious brownies..i rmb family day where we played the mrt game..rite after the steamboat..i rmb the first few faces that joined us..crystal puay ashleigh chong chong geral joyce llamma etc..one yr..juz one yr..tt is how short it took for us to grow from 17 ppl to almost 50..even splitting into 2 units..i know..that we ll continue growing..

but rite now..deep in my heart..how i wish..that god had stopped the time back then..when it was still the 17 of us..having cg at hq..going derrick's hse to slack..sitting together during svs..eating at starhub after tt..

i've known them for almost 2 years..we haf been thru so much..how sad that we are moving on..tho i know..tt eventually we ll move on..but its still saddening..i miss those days..when tamar was still ard..always our da jie looking out for us..this was a part of y i wanted to stay in the jc ministry..the memories of the past..cos i know how a strong foundation in youth can help one in his/her future spiritual walk..and i want to be a part of that foundation..because i haf experienced it myself..and i know that it is life-changing..

shuyi said..that i must not be caught up in the past..tho the past times were wonderful..but the god who brought those wonderful times ll bring you to even more wonderful ones..more wonderful ones?..god i cant wait!!..the new generation is coming..new faces and new people..new frens for mi to know..new memories to add to those already within my heart..new challenges and new changes..new lives waiting to be changed..it is going to be fantastic!!..i can feel it..

but god..grant mi a wish tonight..tt when i sleep..let mi dream of the times back den..