willy wonka

finally watched charlie and the chocolate factory..johnny depp was excellent!!..he's the most amazing actor i haf ever came across before..he is juz so flexible!..he can act in virtually every part that was casted to him..from weirdo freak edward scissorshands to weirdo pirate jack sparrows..im so in love with him..hahaha..i enjoyed the movie..it is sooo nice..u shld watch it if u haven..

well its back to school alreadys..im still getting used to the waking up early part..got marc to give mi a wake up call every morning..thank you sooo much!!..and as each day past..it brings mi closer to the release of my results for my first module..im so scared..like wat if i didnt do well?..den i'll be so demoralised and stuff..sighs..prayin hard..

i love the song called 'when i tink abt the lord'..it always make mi tink back on wat god has done in my life..how he changed my life 180 degrees to now..hmmmm come to tink of it..i wonder wat i would be doing now if i hadnt converted..it is still an amazement to mi tt im in church and leading a grp..and im also amazed at all the good frens tt i have come to know..xinyi shuyi choonie joyce key etc..they are all so different from mi!!..definately not my clique if u know wat i mean..but yet they are my closest frens..frens who never gives up on mi..frens who dun disappear cos we are no longer in school..cos they make the effort to call and chat with mi..they make the effort to be close..to be my frens..so different from the concept of 'frens' tt i used to have..i wonder if i didnt knew god..would i be quarrelling with my parents..most prob not..cos i wun even bother to tok to them or even spend time with them..maybe i shld be thankful tt im quarrelling with them..cos it shows tt i do communicate with them..hahah..juz one word to describe all this..'wow'..yup..juz tt word..

went to study at ps today with xinyi..gosh mass media research is sooo dry and boring!!..everytime i open my text..i can almost always fall asleep rite smack in the middle of those words-filled pages..i haf to force myself to read thru..luckily my lecturer is quite interesting..or else..die!!..okok jinqi u cannot pon school anymore!!!..u haf to go and listen or else u ll not understand and u ll flunk ur module!!!..sighs..oh btw thank you xiangyu for reminding mi tt before my school started..i was going ard saying how fun and exciting it would be and now im like.......sighs..i haf to buck up and start psychoing myself tt school is fun..ewwww..alright..juz do this for god..hmmm tt sounds nicer..heh..

i feel disgustingly fugly now!!..im sure i put on weight..ahhhh!!!..time to start the diet again..

to a special person: god's plan will never ever be wrong..cos he knows wat you need and he ll give ur heart's desire..it is in man's nature to want things immediately cos we haf no patience to wait for the special plan..man gives himself all sorts of excuses for not waiting..and in the end..it ends up in a mess cos when man try to do sumthing tt is not in god's will..god ll never support it..and u know it..u know everything tt i haf said deep down in ur heart..sumtimes man knows wat he shld do..its juz whether man wants to do wat he knows he shld do..god says seek his righteousness first and all u desire will be given to you..trust in god..do wat u muz do..dun worry bout anything else..worry wat god ll tink..sumtimes man tink tt he is strong..but in truth..the one who tinks he's the strongest is actually the weakest..god says this to you..cling onto this..dun fear, cos im with you..of course..im here with u too..i love u dear..my heart aches for you..and i know..tt god's heart aches even more..