Would you still have done that?

Reading Lee Strobel's "God's Outrageous Claims" and having a cuppa at
Toast Box (sorry my pseudo bf). I love that I can read an American
literature while sipping on Asian coffee here in Singapore. Where else
will one fins such a rich mixture of heritage all stirred up in one
giant appetizing pot?

I'm stuck at the chapter of forgiveness. And Strobel says that perhaps
one reason we can't forgive ourselves is because we've never tried to
make right with the person whom we've wronged.

It is so true.

I'm not a believer of shying away from making amends. And reading this
brought a few incidents into mind.

I'm not a good person, my history is streaked with the several times
which I screwed up really badly , resulting in a big pothole which
might take long to fill if not never.

Considering that I just turned 26 with the coming of 2012, the
percentage of my screw ups seem pretty high.

That aside, if I may say so myself, the only similarity in all these
situations is that I'll always, always, strive to make amends.

Some turned out great, and others, well, need some more time to
simmer it out. Making amends is harder than making mistakes, I've
learnt that thus far.

I remember my good times with one, which ended somewhat
disappointingly. I had a choice to confess or not, and I chose to go
ahead. I guess sometimes the ideal ending remains just that, ideal.
But I miss her.

In my quiet times someone asked me, if you had known that the result
would be like that, would you still have chosen to broach the subject?

I thought about it seriously. And my answer, a firm 'yes'. Why? I was
asked. Because I cared too much to let it go unsaid.

And with that in mind, somehow, I can let myself breathe a little bit
easier. And I know God will make all things turn out for our good.

Attempting to make things right with who we have wronged is a step
towards forgiveness. God is so wise.