changed

ppl asked me have i changed?

yah i tink so.

for the better or for the worse? that one i am not sure.

i just knew something in me clicked when i realized that the one thing i so dearly treasure can and will fail me.

makes me want to set up a wall around myself, and slowly crave a big door with big and extremely heavy gates. when ive got that up, i can choose what to come in, what to go out, and what stays out.

period.

i am just having so much fun watching TLC matches on youtube. pain somehow seems welcoming.