cactus

today wasnt the most perfect day that ive had in my 21 years of life on this planet..something happened before service that made mi almost wasted praise and worship session..i was telling myself, come on gurl, dun be stupid, u cant let that rob u of time with god! push it aside, wipe away ur tears, buck up, be strong!..and i managed to piece myself together for worship..nothing, NOTHING is worth robbing precious time with god..

tho i haf to admit i was a bit distracted thruout the service..but still caught some nuggests of truth from pastor ben's teaching..it struck mi when pastor ben said that us, human beings, come to god with nothing to offer except guilt..somehow i had that picture in mind where this magnificiant glowing king dressed in a velvet gown sits upon this golden sparkling throne looking down at some peasnt bowing before him, and this peasant brings nothing except lifting up this platter with the word GUILT on it..

and the most world-principle-defying thing is that this king smiles down at the peasant, picks up that platter, throws it away and walks down the throne to put his arm over that peasant's shoulder..god throws away our guilt, and embraces us as his children..all i haf to offer him, is guilt, and he still loves me..god is faithful and good indeed :D

application point learnt from today's sermon is that i wan to show loving kindness..i really muz take more effort in showing kindnes to the people ard me..it never occurs to mi to help others do things first! like it juz totally slipped my mind..hmmmmsss..irritate mi at times! so i wan to take more effort in serving others :D to go beyond serving frens..

i haf this analogy whilst i tot of this fren of mine..our frenship is like a cactus in the desert..im like the sunshine, and that fren's like the rain..i keep on shining, but the rain seldom comes..at first, the cactus still grows cos it can retain water..but after a long time, if the rain refuses to come, that cactus will dry up and die off eventually..no amount of sunlight would be able to save it then..the cactus only needs a small amount of rainwater to survive..once in a while, as it rains occasionally, that cactus can survive..but its dying now, the sunlight's shining too long on its own..when would the rain come? will it be on time? cos the sun's tired too..