grace amazing

till i see you face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
i ll trust in you

was reading jonah and it started off with god speaking to jonah to go to this city and preach against it..that if they didnt repent soon god ll destroy that whole city..and u know wat, jonah ran away!!!..i couldnt believe it when i read the bible..ok tink of u urself as jonah, ur running away from god was recorded in the best-selling book of all times and almost everyone would read of wat u haf done..im sure jonah muz haf felt pretty stupid..he even got onto a boat to sail away from god..god didnt relent but pursued him..and at last, jonah repented and asked to be thrown into the sea so that the ship can sail on peacefully..and then another thing happened..god sent a big fish to eat him..

if i were jonah, i would haf been scared out of my skin..imagine imagine..u are jonah, god caught up with you and you were thrown off a ship into the sea..while floating suddenly right beside u this gigantic fish appears and all u can see is it opening its mouth wide open to eat u up..whoa..scary man..so u stuck in the fish stomach for 3 days and 3 nights..and u arent dead!!..oh man..thats scary..

so in the end jonah went to preach against that city and they repented so god didnt destroy them like he said he would..and den jonah did another thing that puzzelled mi again..he grew angry at god's compassion..im like huh?..u got right to be angry meh?..so i asked key wat in the world was jonah tinking and he said that its cos the city that god sent jonah was super super evil..like the evil-est city of that time i tink..and they repent and juz like that god didnt destroy them..so jonah felt injust for god in a sense..but god taught him a lesson that he doesnt haf any say at all..the city was god's creation and god can do watever he wans to do to them..god said something that struck mi..

if u who didnt create the vine can be so concerned abt it, den how can i not be concerned abt that city that holds thousands of my creation?

so here i was reading with unbelief at jonah's actions when i realise with much shame that im like jonah too..sometimes when god calls mi to speak to some ppl or to do something..i ll run away..i ll not dare to say anything cos im scared..and god literally 'haunts' mi wherever i go..he juz keeps reminding mi that hey gurl, delayed obedience is no obedience at all..and sooner or later i ll be like..aiya god u win la..okok i ll do it..god never gives up chasing us to do things..cos he knows juz how much to give us to develop our character..so while laughing at jonah, i was laughing at myself..weird creature that i am..

and i realise that sometimes i do feel injust for god..like when some ppl do some incomprehensible thing that i juz cannot see why they can do such a thing when god has been so good to them..and i feel like..wah u can go die la seriously..god treats u so nice yet u can still do this to him..i feel so injust for god..i tell god, god juz give up..i shall choose another or something like that..well, god asked jonah, wat right to u haf to be angry..that's juz like god asking mi..wat right do i haf to tell him wat to do?..all are his creation..if im concerned, wouldnt jesus be 100000 times more concerned?..

things may be out of my control, but all things are within god's control..i shall choose not to worry..cos by worrying i cannot do anything and i might even do things that might make the situation worse..perfect trust god..becos he deserves it..