blessed

spending a day at home sleeping and juz resting isnt such a bad idea after all..wat with the rush throughout the week with shepherdings, meetings, schoolwork, chilling with frens, meeting ppl..if there isnt a day for human beings to rest den one day we ll juz run out..sometimes again, i wonder at the wisdom of god..to create such a thing as sleeping so that his creation can renew and recharge themselves physically..

went for ulm in the morning and came home immd..partly due to lack of sleep as well as mi going out too late yest and my mom once again said i treated my home like a hotel..the funny thing is, my mom went out today, again..so i haven seen her since morning..i haf one weird family..but im loving them..hahha..slept from like 1-6 and i feel refreshed..been watching re-runs of ouran to make mi laugh..lol..

im amazed at the divinity of god..sometimes when things haf come to a point where it seems like theres no way out, god always somehow manage to turn it ard and things ll go to aid mi in some aspect in which i really need..yest was no exception..i was at a dead end and i didnt know how in the world was i supposed to do something without mi being suspicious..and den the call came..and i knew right den, that god was in it with mi..he provided a way out..and tho i was still a bit panicky, i knew that i couldnt lose..with god by my side, how could i lose?..and things did went along to help mi..

key said that my spiritual walk with god is super exciting..i asked him why, and he said that its like i always haf these sort of divine experiences..where things seem to like haf reach a dead end and theres no way out and den somehow, god ll work things in his divine way and provide a way out to help mi..always in some strategic move that never fails to appear out of the blue and he haf no idea how some of these things are inter-linked but they juz pop out to help mi..and im ashamed to say, that i forgot most of these experiences..ungrateful child i am..so from now on, im gonna jot down all these divine experiences so that even if they slipped from my memory, i ll haf them on paper..

so i was tinking y is it that i haf these sort of experiences..maybe god knows that i need them..sometimes i do ask god to show himself to mi..to prove that he is real..all these times are when im down, or in doubt..and den i ll ask god to work a miracle so that i would know that he's real..he knows i need them..and he provides them for mi..this makes mi feel so special..so blessed as a child of his..i feel so loved, knowing that my big father up there never ever takes his sight off mi..he hears my prayers, and he is able to distinguish my wants from my needs..he knows when to answer my prayers according to wat i want, as well as not answering them in situations where he knows that if he does answer them to wat i want, that would juz be pampering mi..and i ll be spoilt..

im a blessed and loved child..i've never felt happier..thank you lord, and i love you..