wake up

love is such a mysterious thing that god asks us to do to every single person..get this straight, every single person..not to a grp or an individual or someone whom u partially dislike but to everybody..and that is, when u tink abt it, quite impossible for the human mind to accept..but god says it is possible..and surprisingly, i do love some ppl whom i know i would never haf given a crap about if i were not told by god to love them..

but some ppl, whom u love quite a lot, but keep in mind that u dunno y u love them but u know that our wonderful god loves them and tells us to love them so we do love them..dun really give a chicken feather about whether u love them a not..or worse, if they do know..then they dun really care..and that sucks..and it pisses mi off cos its hurtful to mi..and y im allowing myself to tolerate all this crap from them, i really dunno..and it quite surprises mi taht im actually able to tolerate them..becos ppl who know mi, know that i wouldnt..

when u get it that ppl around u do actually love you and care whether u live or die..maybe u would be more cautious with ur words..cos if ppl are pushed past their limits..theres no knowing wat may happen..and that frenship might not be there anymore..and to tink abt it..i got the best solution..i shall not care abt u all anymore..cos u and mi haf absolutely no relation..i shant waste my emotions on you..altho its quite sad..but oh well..i got other things to do with my life..

y am i not where i wana be? and y do i haf to tolerate u?

on a happier note..hwa chong had 4 converts today!!..wheeee!!!..isnt it amazing how the jc grp is growing?..its like, long overdue u know..haha..