random tots

im lazy to blog..but i said i would..so i should..

randomness strikes mi really hard now..a lot a lot of random tots..so my blog's gonna be wordy again!!..words words words..this ll make all of u guys haf a headache..and seriously..im having trouble reading my own blog..my degree is getting from bad to worse..i wonder wats happening to my eyes..

so lets tok abt wat happened today first..i slept for 15 and a half hrs..den i woke up and llamma called mi to discuss cg..and den i slacked ard till 3 plus..i had an interesting sms from key..which i did..and it was fruitful..and den i went out to pass winnie the taekwando uniform for her cca thing..after tt winnie and sandy was so nice to accompany mi to holland v to eat gelare waffle cos its TUESDAY!!..im a happy gurl..we had cookie dough ice-cream..yum yum..gelare was so nice that it made us all dun wan to leave..but we had to cos we were HUNGRY..so we went to eat yu pian mifen!!..with extra milk..it was fantastic!!..im a happier gurl..talked abt hq and i miss hq a lot a lot..meetings, games, tears, joy, laughter, beetles etc..we decided to go shopping for a notebook..but it was an UTTERLY USELESS SHOPPING CENTRE that seriously had nothing..all we gained from walking ard aimlessly was a great time together..which when u tink of it..its better than any notebooks in the world..

so i was juz wondering..are u ok?..cos u didnt do the usual things that u normally do..u arent where u normally are..

i juz had a conversation with my dearest claire..good frens say things that they know the other wun like cos they know that they haf a foundation that would not be shaken by harsh words..and im glad we haf that foundation!!..thanks for ur entry dedicated to mi!!..i appreciate u a lot a lot!!..like a lot a lot..hahah..my vocab is seriously limited..after ur exams..lets go hang out again..

come to tink of it..i tink god really loves mi quite a lot..he gave mi a lot of things and ppl in my life..i shall list them cos im in the mood..hey i tink i listed them before..oh well..i dun care i shall list them again cos its MY blog..so there..

GOD gave mi a great shepherd, eelee..i love u shepherd!=)..and GOD gave mi good frens..like claire and elise..GOD gave mi a fantastic team..my dmm peeps u guys rocks..when im with u all, i haf absolutely no other care in the world..how i wished that time dragged on when we were in east hq..i wan to squeeze all the goodness out of every minute we spent there..GOD helped mi with my leading, he gave mi llamma cheung..its weird how we manage to work together..seriously weird..not that im complaining..GOD entrusted mi with his flock..my heart is with my sheep(s)..i cant imagine mi without u gurls..words cannot say how much the 6 of u mean to mi..GOD allowed mi to lead the central jc grp..a move that i never understood y and i tink i prob will never understand y..a privilege that i never deserved..

central b..my people, my life..my heart is connected to each and every one of yours..

was toking to sandy and i told her i wanted to blog something intellectual..dunno y..the mood calls for it i guess..recently ive heard many things which are flooding my mind rite now..its weird how god doesnt work in the system as how the world works..its like, god is purposely doing everything opposite of how the world is doing, and showing us human beings how stupid we actually are..

those who tink that they can take care of themselves are actually pplwho cant, and those who tink that they cant take care of themselves are actually ppl who can..

cos u see..by tinking that u cant take care of urself..u haf already taken care of that part..cos u would entrust ur life to someone else..most prob and shld be our shepherd..and u would be accountable..but ppl who tink they can take care of themselves..are quite in a dangerous zone arent they?..i mean..who can call himself perfect?..how can something imperfect take care of themselves?..u would even be blinded to ur weaknessess sometimes i guess..so moral of the story..ACCOUNT cos it would put ur shepherd's heart to rest!!!..tt coming from a shepherd herself..

every frenship has its fragility..

true or false?..i tink frenships will reach some points where it may be shaky..like when theres diff in opinion and stuff..but frenships based in god..i dun tink it will ever ever break..EVER..wat do u guys tink?

when u tink abt it..god's leaders dun really haf a good life..first of all..the most significant difference is that we arent expected to be served but to serve instead..i mean, wat kind of leader is that?..leaders are supposed to be served..to be apple-polished and bribed and stuff..but church leaders dun get that..sometimes i see how shirley and key work..and seriously i tink to myself..wah work so hard and sometimes the outcome hurts so much..zi de ma?..i hear my fellow leaders toking abt their grps and how to overcome probs..i see so much effort so much work..and furthermore, we cant do things that we like..well, not really cant do..but more, choose not to do in fear of stumbling others and setting a good example..sometimes somethings we limit ourselves on really really hurt..but i see the value and i do it..its not a nice feeling..we get crap from ppl sometimes..we haf to go down and look into the probs ourselves..y r we working ourselves to the bone?..is it worth it?..

yes it is.

it was, it is, and it will be..always will be worth it..im grateful for all god has given to mi..i dun deserve the numerous blessings and i honestly dunno y im given so many good things..its like u dunno y in the world u are alive..and y u are created as a human being and not some animal..

simple faith - to trust that god ll make everything alright in every situation, and to trust that he would give mi more than wat ive 'sacrificed' to him

y do i put 'sacrificed' in inverteds..cos how can i call all that i control myself on as a sacrifice?..it isnt from mi in the first place..lets give it a new name from now on..lets call it an investment..an investment in heaven..im happy to be a leader in church..and im especially happy that im a leader in hope..

someone once told mi that a talented person in a particular area haf the right to scold others if they are not working as well in that area..but i was tinking of it..and, that talent came from god rite..if god didnt bless u with that talent, den u wouldnt be talented at all..so when it boils down to the core of everything..we actually dun haf the right to scold anyone at all cos all our talents are not from ourselves in the first place..it all came from someone else..so he shld haf the right to scold them..not us..