parents

y do parents like to nag?..its not like i dun wana go home..actually sometimes i really dun wana go home..i mean, wats there to do at home?..even tho im home with my parents..but, we dun tok at all..we dun communicate..we juz, feel each other's presence..my parents juz wan my physical self to be at home..but, wats the point in that?..everytime im home, they arent..when im out, they are at home..so they complain..its not like i didnt try to make the effort rite?..

wats the point of juz being at home?..i know im not the perfect child..and sometimes i dun wana be the perfect child either..becos i tink that u two didnt do anything to deserve my respect..not saying that i did anything to deserve yours either..we live in the same house, but i dun feel close at all..its like, strangers living under the same roof..the only warm person i can find, is my brother..

when ppl look at us..they tink we got the perfect family..dad's working as some top notch thing..mom's like a working taitai..fortunate kids..nice home..ppl see us as that..one classic example of a loving singaporean family..but underneath that facade, who really knows wats happening?..

but i know at night, there were times when i long for family love..i know that u love mi..but i dun feel it..maybe that's the prob with asian parents..they dun show their love..and when i express mine, you regard mi as..weird..thanks ah..

i like going out..i like being with my church frens..they make up my family..god is my dad..key and eelee are like my..i dunno, surrogate parents or something..i got siblings like llamma and elise..i got haha i dunno..kids in a sense, like xiang and cheryl..we communicate..we tok..we share our lives..we express love so evidently..we arent ashamed to show love becos love is meant to be shown..how i wish, that sometimes..i dun haf to go home at all..i juz wan to stay with this family forever, and ever..

but i ll try..becos god said that i haf to honour my parents..and that when i honour them, i ll be blessed..i wan to bring the atmosphere of love in church back home..becos if its possible between strangers connected by god, its definately possible with biological family members rite?

anyways on a lighter note..here is the funny conversation of the day..

mi: we are like seperated by a river of ice..
xiang: wat?!..how can river be ice?..ice cant move..
mi: oh yeah hoh..isnt that like some oxymoron thing?
derrick: nooo...oxymoron not like that one..oxymoron is something like, geylang methodist..

HAHAHHA..