half yearly

i tink i learn things half yearly..was reading my previous blog posts and realise that i went thru a similar testing that im currently going thru 6 mths ago in the month of sept - oct..i rmb when i came back to hope, i got my first sheep after 6 mths..struggled a while more before becoming a CL 6 mths later..it seems like i learn things in a 6 mths period..

the suckiest thing is that im going thru the SAME test doing the exact SAME thing, going thru the SAME emotions and the only different thing is that..the intensity of this testing has gone up a notch..xinyi says its bec there is reciprocation..and if i cruise thru this test like how i cruised thru the previous one..den the nxt test would be even harder..cos maybe initiation would den come in..

how long would it take before i would feel alright once again?..how long would it take before i set my heart and mind to not falling for the same thing?..i haf spent much of my time, emotions, tears, efforts looking out for this thing..maybe, once and for all..its time to stop relating to them..