replacement

i ate a lot of food in the US, and no i didnt get exceptionally fat thanks to my classmates (actually juz wenjun and marc) whom drilled us all to get healthy and shoved us into the gym for some workout..not forgetting sets of crunches and push-ups before we sleep every night..so anyways going back to the point, yes i ate a lot of food in the US..

and i tink i know why its easier for americans to grow sideways now..most of the restaurants there offer buffet at cheap prices! its not neccessarily nice, juz that there's a hell lot of food and u can eat for damn long..now u all know that when there's a buffet u would wan to save ur money by eating as much as u can rite, its called eating back wats the buffet's worth..and those that dun offer buffet, their portions are almost double that of singapore..and even wenjun cant finish his meal sometimes!! how do u expect the gurls, who supposedly haf smaller appetities and stomachs den guys, to finish theirs?! (hmmm but come to tink of it, the gurls in my grp do eat more than the guys sometimes.....) and their food usually consists of huge amounts of flour, or are deep fried so it fills u up real fast..

now when i went over there and started eating, i didnt feel anything really different..yeah well maybe i was sick of eating pizza for dinner for 4 consecutive days but it wasnt like inedible those kinds..and i did tink i ate preety normally, stopping when i was full and stuff like that..but it wasnt till i came back to our tiny red dot that i realized my stomach had, well, changed..no matter how much i ate in singapore, i dun really fill full at all! example - i ate half a plate of hokkien mee, half a plate of mee goreng, half a plate of seafood horfan, half a tauhu goreng, 2 fried chicken wings plus 2 nuggets and i didnt fill full!!!! NO JOKE OK..and btw, that was only for one meal..i was so troubled after that tinking of how much calories i had consumed, when i realized that my stomach had changed..adapted to the way of life in america and i didnt even feel the effects of change till i came back to my original diet..

and that taught mi something..u know the saying where it goes like, when u wana take out something from ur heart, u gotta find something else to replace it, or else u are juz gonna go back to the something that u haf taken out in the first place anyway..its kinda like that..when i used american food to replace my original diet, it slowly changed my stomach to adapt to fit their style of food..of course in the beginning i was kinda like eewww pizza again? or gosh this stuff is so cheesy..but when i had them for a longer period of time, i grew on me..granted i had cravings for singapore food once in a while, but i found out i could live without them if i never get the chance to eat them anymore..

no major depression or repercussions from not eating singaporean food after that..and i didnt even realized my stomach had changed..i want it to be like that with my heart..when i take something out, i wana replace it with god's love and presence..and though the environment ard mi doesnt change, my heart will haf been changed..and one day, i would realize that if i didnt haf wat i used to indulge in for my own pleasure, god's love would be enuf :)

ah jiehui juz msn-ed mi all the way from chile!! am so glad he touched down alr, long flights are a killer and that i do know haha..do take care of urself there!! and eelee too..

went to gym with wenjun adel and marc today (plus a whole lot of wenjun's frens)..did intervals on the treadmill today and im starting to discover the new limits my body can take..when u haf ran till u are almost dying, u realize that in the end, running's a battle not with the body, but with the mind..went sakae at raffles place after that and ended up in a wonderful spastic conversation as usual..jackies bring a smile onto my face every single time..was reminiscing abt the times in US, gosh really miss those times indeed..maybe one day, we'll get the chance to go back again, staying at marriott residence inn..juz the 6 of us..