do not let mi slack

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEMIN!!

i haf a nagging suspicion that my inner being is starting to slack after the end of passion..which i so do not want to happen..it takes considerable amount of effort to remind myself each day to continue praying and evax-ing with the tot of god and not of myself or the church in mind..doing things without knowing y is the most dangerous scenario that can ever happen in any christian's life..cos den we ll lose sight of our values..and slowly, our body ll tire and our souls start to slack..if u tink abt it, 60 more years of life with god proves to be very demanding and intimidating indeed..

but thankfully, i know why..at least for now till the near future, i know i ll keep god in my sight..its hard to tok abt 10 20 years or so..i do haf my dreams, my visions and my goals..and these pull mi back to god even tho sometimes i juz wana give it all up..but the future is so unpredictable..all i can do..no, all that i can hope for..is that god's favour would nvr depart from mi..i dun wana end up like ppl who haf once got the fire, understood it, but after awhile..get so tired that the flame within them was extinguished..i rather my flame be flickering, on the edge of dying but still burning with wat little will it has..bringing upon myself all sorts of hurt and pain..den to haf the passion completely dead..becos den..i ll juz be an empty shell..preety on the surface, but nothing on the inside..

wat is life without joy, pain, fear, excitement, anxiety?..wat is life with the facade of love?..wat is life without the fear of rejection?..wat is life without advanture?..wat is life without god?..

scenario:

imagine walking along the streets and u come upon a tortise on the traffic light..wats the first tot that comes to your mind?..who the heck would put tt tortise on the traffic light rite?!..the tortise couldnt haf climbed up onto that spot..it goes the same for us..how did we end up with our position in god?..he put us there, we couldnt haf done it by ourselves..treasure watever u haf..