its revived!!

ok im not really hurt abt tt comment la..i knew the person who said it didnt meant it in a way to smash my ego or sumthing..its juz the way the person toks..but tks to all the comments!!..i feel loved now!!..gosh am i emotional..

well well well..so many things to say..where shall i start?..aiming to sleep at 12 so..guess i gotta make it snappy..

lets start with the church camp shall we..ESPRIT DE CORPS : Building the Dream Team..well who agrees with mi that at first..u found that this camp wasnt really ministering..hands up ppl..as u can see..we are ALL wrong!!..this is like one of the camps tt made mi realised a whole lot of things and propelled my spiritual life way up high..

camp objectives
1) haf a breakthru in my walk with god
2) learn to forgive and let go
3) build up even closer relationships to ppl
4) to see the wonders of god working amongst the ppl

i met, well cant say tt..GOD met every single one of them!!..do i haf time to elaborate?..here goes

from the start of camp till now..i haf learnt 2 very very impt lessons..firstly..i learnt wat it meant to haf a willing spirit..i realised that i had let fear crippled mi in reaching my fullest potential..and fear is satan's very first weapon..bleah!!..satan sucks..and in crippling myself..i was actually capping god's power..my life was rather stagnant and i didnt know it!!..its scary but its ok now..i didnt want to be a UL cos i was scared that i was inadequate for this position..deep down i know that this was how i felt..yet due to my pride..i realised that i came up with some lousy excuse for not wanting to be a UL..hahah..its rather stupid..toked to key abt it..actually all the post doesnt really matter..wats the diff between a member, CL or UL?..nothing really changes except u start to care for more and more ppl apart from urself..but the thing is..are u willing to do even this?..like i might be more suitable for the role of a CL but am i willing to be a UL?..if u dun like to do sumthing but are u willing to do it?..u might not agree with some principals of god that u tink are quite, well, weird but are u willing to lay aside ur tinkings and listen to god?..

because god can help u and nurture u..but he cannot do it if u are unwilling

secondly, i had let many past experiences affect my mood and hence, my outlook on life..many ppl haf come and gone..many ppl haf disappointed mi..many ppl haf hurt mi and hardened my heart..and i was oblivious to the extent into which i was hurt..but in this camp, god showed it to mi..if im disappointed and hurt at them..how much more is GOD hurt and disappointed?..am i in the position to judge them?..and its juz plain stupid to harbour such tots cos in the end..they dun get affected by you..you get affected by urself..and tt is juz dumb..y emphasize on those relationships?..lets look to who i haf now..ppl whom are striving so hard alongside mi and who haven given up orran away yet..(ok there was a little bitterness still when i tot of the person)..hahha..the ratio is like 20 : 1..gosh..and i let the minority affect mi..lesson learnt..lets move on..

camp is a fantastic way to bond with ppl..cos u see..u really got not much choice if u are stuck with the same ppl for like 4 days..u haf to talk..and i tink tt the one thing god really blessed the whole human race is, is the ability to talk and understand language..i felt so much closer to my sheeps, ruisi cheryl xiangyu and choonyee..i felt so much closer to my dear frens, claire puay shuyi etc..i met so many new ppl from so many diff grps..i exercised in camp!!!!..hahahha..playing captain's ball is fun..i made a fool of myself in camp..and the drama was absolutely wondeful because!!..i managed to KILL DAN FENG!!!!..wahahhah..

i saw god's power moving and changing so many ppl's lives..how ppl were refreshed and the light within them was rekindled..ive seen how ppl really struggle so much against the world juz to grasp onto the edges of god's robes..and ive seen that im not the only one who goes thru temptations so great that it literally breaks us all down..i myself am renewed and refreshed..now here comes the challenge..to keep the fire burning even MORE brightly den now..

the church is like the world, yet different from the world

i look ard and i see ppl of all sorts..i see ppl who are so smart and talented that im juz well, awed and jealous!!..ahhahah..there are ppl who act cool and ppl who are bengs..ppl whom are so competitive that sometimes u juz wan to knock then unconscious over the head..gurls gathering to giggle and guys slacking ard in grps..isnt it like the world?..and den we all walk into tt hall..and we start worshipping our wonderful god..and everyone becomes the same..theres no more differences..unity, as one..because we are no longer tinking of ourselves..but our enegry is placed upon the almighty alone..god is absolutely amazing..

camp is great..memories are made and frenships start and bloom..pratas, captain's ball, kumbaya-ing, heart-felt thoughts, bday celebrations..heaven is gonna be so much greater..

learning doesnt juz end with camp..i learnt a very important lesson after camp too..something happened between 2 very good frens of mine..and another thing happened between 2 ppl whom are so close to my heart..and it boils down to one thing..that relationships are so hard to handle..i see the value now..and i know wat i muz do..if i wan others under mi to do the same..i haf to do it first..

u might not agree with the church's view but u follow it

this shld be adopted by all who wans to strive further to serve god..tink abt it..do u tink that the church wans to harm u?..do u tink tt some principals (such as the limiting of boy-girl relations) are meant to torture us?..tell mi of a time where ppl haf not followed and lived happily ever after..and i ll tell u of a hundred more times when ppl haf not followed and left broken..u can never win against the word of god..again it boils down to willingness am i not right?..are u willing to set aside ur differences and join in the marathon for god?..

in the end, christianity is all abt choices

we all make wrong choices sometimes..but learn to live with it..because if u let those mistakes dwell in you..den u ll be hindered..we are not perfect..so dun try to be..another impt lesson that i learnt..key says..its natural for leaders to be wise..and xiangyu says..dun keep belittling urself..learning learning learning..in the end..life is juz one great learning experience rite?..

xmas is coming..its inching its way nearer and nearer..ALL OUT FOR GOD!!!..im so excited..im acting for drama!!..everyone has to come and support mi!!