renewed and refreshed

im feeling happier than i haf felt for a looonnnggg time!!..and abt time too i shld say..enuf of drifting and dragging my feet..time to buck up, wash my face and go on in life..im joyful..so so joyful..words cant describe how im feeling..

i love hope..seriously love hope..i dun tink i ll ever leave tt place even if my mom threatens to disown mi(not saying that i want her to do tt)..i can never imagine going somewhere else rather than hope..its not JUZ a church to mi..its like..i dunno..ppl who do yoga may say, its my happy place..so so many memories..i cant rmb my life before i joined hope..if u ask mi to rmb wat i was doing i can honestly tell u tt all i recall is the trouble-making days i had in css..it seems that my life only juz started when i came to know god in hope..

im not gonna tell u that my church is a 'seng-nan' place to be in..juz ask any hoppie and they ll give u the same answer..u cant slack there..u feel bad..u cant juz go to hope and be a saturday christian..if u do tt u know wat..u miss out on a whole lot of fun!..u miss out the very essence of wat its like to be a christian..cross my heart and hope to die..

hope doesnt allow ppl to drift..it challenges ppl to do things that they HATE doing..it dares us to do wat we never expects or want to do in our entire life..i mean..does it makes sense to spend 7/8 of ur time doing religious stuff like attending meetings, shepherding ppl, go church etc?..y do i still do it anyway?..simply, because of the love of god..i love god..and i love hope..its so cool to join the youth svs..cos we will be in the same family from young till we get older, get married and die..isnt it cool to see ppl whom u know as a teenager getting married?..hahah..im getting carried away..

i feel renewed and refreshed..time to cut away the dead branches and grow new ones..ive been forewarned..its gonna be damn painful..but juz like wat nicole said..wats a little pain compared to all tt u ll receive after it?..easier said then done..so many ppl cant go thru the pain and they give up..a wasted trip..god i so pray tt i wun end up like them..

to all my sheep(s) and my ppl..HAHA..ur cl is back in action..im not gonna slack anymore so u guys haf no more chance to slack too..i know i ll be getting a lot of bites from wat im gonna do to u guys..i shall aim to become dispensable in central f..