fop

haven really been home for the last couple of days..juz got to use the computer now so shall blog bout my happenings..

went to fop on friday..went at 430 to queue up..it was freaking hot!!..well actually wanted to queue up for ppl who ll be coming late..but by like 530 the security decided to stop letting ppl cut queue at a certain point..tt was quite sad cos most of our peeps haven came yet..so llamma being a nice guy..decided to give up his place with us and started a new queue at the back so all who were late could juz slot in there..so nice rite?!..cos of him most of us were able to get into the stadium..llamma is really a great guy leh..sad tt some ppl were unable to go in tho..

was expecting a bit more from fop actually..tot there would be more songs den toking..but it seems like the opposite..haha..hillsong was great but theres seriously too little songs..delirious? music is good but they are more of like a rock-christian band..their songs are nice to hear but not nice to sing along with..its too slow..and too performy den for bringing up the spiritual atmosphere..oh well..there was this loonnng sermon by this english pastor from i dunno where..almost fell asleep but xiang kept prodding mi..decided to settle down and listen to wat he is preaching bout..

was glad i listened!!..god spoke to mi thru him tt day!!..the passage was abt moses toking to god..sumthing tt moses said puzzled mi at first..in exodus 33:18 he said..now show mi ur glory..
show mi ur glory?..wats he trying to say?..the pastor explained and finally..i got it..everything tt happens is god's glory..if my grp grows..if my brother converts..if my family converts..if i manage to get honours..anything tt happens in my life..it is all god's glory..everything tt happens is to reflect how god is so good..how god is so magnificient, so powerful compared to us..he holds the decision of every single thing of my life in his hands..he decides whether to give mi success or to let mi go thru failure..he decides when my family will convert and when my grp ll grow..nothing is my doing..if i try hard and still fail..its god's decision..maybe i was doing sumthing wrong..maybe sumthing bad ll happen if i succeed..i dunno..but i gotta haf faith - the one thing tt seperates mi from the non-christian..pure simple faith..i understand now..i understand y i kept failing..i understand y i didnt haf success..i understand y i prayed so hard yet nothing seems to be going well..god you finally spoke to mi after such a long time!!..thank you so much..pls dun ever stop speaking to mi..pls dun keep ur voice away..or i ll juz die ok..

took bus home with claire after fop..went to clementi foodcourt and had dinner at midnight..toked quite a lot to her..really enjoyed the time spent with her..had a heart-to-heart tok bout school church and all kinds of stuff..den took a cab to shuyi's hse..spent the night there..kumbaya with my beloved shepherd..haven really got a chance to tok to her cos we were both quite busy recently..it was a great time of fellowship..i seriously love you shuyi!!..oh found out a new way to eat gingko nuts..microwave them for a min..den eat..its damn nice la!!..

made our way to nexus the nxt day..shuyi had to reach at 11 cos of hope resource duty..i spent the time writing cards with xinyi at starhub..den met albert and went shopping for sam's bday present..den was off to svs!!..sermon was abt cg..which reminds mi..my cg is simply fantabulous..theres no other word to describe them already..the grp is growing..there ll be new additions regardless of time..god show mi ur glory k..heheh..

key asked mi to teach seed on sat..i was damn scared la!!! altho only 3 points..wah..i juz dun haf the guts to like go teach in a big group bout god's word..i mean seriously..mi?!..mi leh..omg!!..janey you know wat i mean rite?..how can i ever do such a thing?..im really amazed lor..was shaking like crazy at first..even bao bao encouraged mi..but thank god tt as time passed..i grew a little better..trusted in him to do his work..tho was a bit incoherent but hope still ok ba..guess it gets better with practise..hahah..gonna lead seed with llamma again on the 20th aug..got a bit experience le so shld be better..

went to piazza after seed to celebrate ben wai's bday..played this drinking googles game and the forfeit was to drink water..there was this stupid rule tt ben came up with..from the time until we pay the bill..whoever points with reference to absoultely anything also has to drink half a cup of water..stupid rite?..im those kind tt like instinctively point when i tok..so guess who drank the most?..yeah mi..llamma was 2nd..hao jie mei was 3rd..den stupid ben and derrick kept instigating mi to point and i keep falling for it!!..wah lau..in the end they made us pay 2 bucks for the water(which they tried to disguise under the name open beverages)..watever..

met joyce victor yanshao and shuyi at carrefour before going home..finally get to sleep in my bed after a hectic 2 days..having mcg tml at ecp..may be bringing my brother..woo-hoo!!..so cant wait..