meisa's day

*yawns*..really tired today..meisa came back to singapore!!..gosh gurl i miss you soo much!!..went to take silly neoprints together..we spent 20 bucks on neoprints alone!!..we're mad i tell ya!!..been so long since i met up with you guys!!..hahha..we shld put more effort into meeting up you know..ok maybeline the secretary..i entrust you with this job of setting up times to meet..hahah..pressure pressure!!..anyways..i miss the times in pj where we always slack together!!!!..and where we always try all means and ways to pon pe!!..ahhaha..so stupid!!..

went to see full dress rehearsal today..matmat is super farni!!..ahhaha..you guys shld see him on sat..you ll laugh ur head off!..oh and he forced mi to say tt he was handsome!!..alrite..here goes..matthew's the most handsome guy i ever saw in my entire life!!(ok gotta repent)..hahha..now gotta tink of wat the actors haf to wear..again..oh which reminds mi i haven msg ting ting!!..oh no!!..took spastic fotos with puay today!!..shall blog tt tml..

went to cg after tt..i absolutely lurve my cg!!..thank you lord for putting all of us in the same grp..we are so crappy and so crazy together!!..hahah..we juz shout at the top of our voices all the time!!..its terrible!!..craping bout guys and stuff..horrible!!..i tink key muz haf been overwhelmed by us..hahah..ok gurls..this sat crave svs!!..our cg goal is 15 rmb!!..im counting on u peeps to break this number..or else you ll get it from mi!!..hhaha..kidding..i know you gurls haf tried ur bestest best!!..watever it is..god wun shortchange us and ll reward us accordingly..juz try ur best and god ll do the rest!!..smiles..

xinyi is rite..when you set ur heart on sumthing..you ll find tt its not that hard to let go of it after all..guess i didnt want to set my heart into doing it..cos this issue is close to my heart..very close..and its like ripping off a piece of my flesh if i decide to turn away from it..seriously..it hurts..it hurts so much!!..but yeah..god is the one and only important thing to mi..and i dun want to disappoint him..i dun wan to settle for 2nd best..i like you..but i love god more..much more than you..so im letting you go..and it sucks..

oh well..to help mi understand..im fasting from another thing!!..im fasting from shopping!!..gee this is prob one of the hardest fast i ll ever go thru..fasting from meat was another one..i love shopping!!..i want my shoes from exodus!!..i want my guitar!!..i want a new shirt!!..sighs..

to someone: god is always there for you..maybe he sent these things into ur life..maybe he didnt..y?..i dunno..ll we ever know?..maybe we ll nvr know..cos god tinks its the best..so we accept it cos we know tt he is good..and altho its so tough for you rite now..you gotta hold on..cos after this..you ll grow so much more than you once were..and ur life ll be so much better..get a grip on ur emotions..set ur priorities rite..do one thing at a time..and when ur heart finds god once again..you ll be singing with joy..trust mi..

oh heard this description bout mi today.."you are acting like ur normal self but i dunno whether ur normal self is normal or not."..hmmmm..really?..