haven recovered

how long has it been?..i dun tink i haf fully recovered..trying very hard to..been in a state of reality escaping and juz not tinking bout it..trying to put on a facade..this few days haf been days of confusion..but sumtimes to be honest..it really hurts..y is it so hard to praise god now?..i know i should thank god..and i will thank god..but as one brother pointed out..my heart's juz not ready to accept His plans yet..yeah..i guess so..

i told god..i will praise u watever happens..i will thank you in any circumstances..but as always..it's easier said den done rite?..always was and always will be..yes god..i ll thank you..and i ll praise you..juz gimme some time..

god send someone into my life..